The day the music died (who told you?)

[scottishMJdude]

Tonight my best friend moved to London near where I lived, I have her ticket for THE concert as we are both huge fans. I was SO excited about our concert together and seeing her that I was playing 'Dangerous' concert clips on my phone aloud in the pub and dancing about all night!

We moved on to another bar in camden (this is in London btw) and got a few more rounds in and the nice lady behind the bar gave us the news...then the texts started to roll in.

At first I was screaming 'tabloid' crap but then I managed to read the BBC news page at some point and it sunk in. Oh God.

But I wanted to remember him in a way I think he would like us to so I called for a couple of drinks for my friend and I and toasted to his good name and soon after the bar started to play his greatest hits.

I'm home now and I'm watching him in concert on my wall projector celebrating him in all his awesomeness...I'm sure this is how he would like to be remembered.

I hope nobody thinks badly on the way I have celebrated his life, I can't handle sorrow :(

Forever Michael.

[Hess]

I got a SMS from a danish newsbureau like CNN or BBC, that he was dead.

I hope people are going to the O2 at july 13th to put flowers there and to remember him.

R.I.P. Michael Jackson.

[PrettyYoungThang]

I got a text. I started shaking, crying, "it cant be, it cant be!", struggling to open my laptop to get online (didnt even think of the TV!?) and then saw the reports. Started trying to reach people but no luck. Collapsed crying, my boyfriend shocked by my reaction I think and then wanting to throw up a lot.

Im numb now and cant believe im ok to post to be honest. Dreading tomorrow when i wake up (if i sleep) and wondering where all the fans will meet in london. I need to be with you guys, even if I dont know you, I need fans around. But not sure I can listen to his music for a while.

[WritergirlAD]

i was just going to the forums for my daily visit. i haven't even been posting that much lately, just lurking; now I feel terrible about that, I feel like I have been a terrible fan lately. my mom told me and I didn't believe her; I thought it was just another lie by the media. then, a second later i saw the thread titles on here and my heart stopped. i'm not even sure why i'm still posting right now except i'm not sure how i feel. i guess denial/numb would be it so far. :/

[browneyedgirl]

My fiance called me while I was driving home, but told me it wasn't confirmed. It was the exact feeling I had when they announced a verdict was reached years ago - pure anxiety.

Before I got home, radio station after radio station confirmed his death. I'm not one to cry, but tears rolled down my face. Absolutely unbelievable.

[janena]

My sis called me around the time when he was officially dead...

its 3 am, i cant sleep and am shaking so hard i can hardly type

[man_in_the_mirror]

was outside the pub with my pint and my cigar shouting " he he " and singing wanna be starting something with my friend my mate walks out looks at me and says " michael jackson has been rushed into hospital with a heart attack" i walked of in tears nd everyone called me saying its confirmed he had passed

[olved]

It was about 1AM in my country, I was browsing for info about tours in London and stuff, preparing for our trip for 16th july concert, and then decided to go to sleep, but before I went to General Disscusion to check latest news and ... saw this thread "an ambulance..." ..... It was still unclear at that moment what happend and by munutes goes it was more and more scary, I woke my partner, we phoned our friends, still hoping for the best, but ...... Still now when I see those words "Michael Jackson dead at 50" I shake my head in disbeilef, it can't be true.....

[scottishMJdude]

I got a SMS from a danish newsbureau like CNN or BBC, that he was dead.

I hope people are going to the O2 at july 13th to put flowers there and to remember him.

R.I.P. Michael Jackson.

I will be there.

[Prince Of Pop]

I was watching a DVD with my 2 year old daughter and my wife called and said go on Yahoo or MSN. There's a news story I want to confirm. She said Farrah died, but there was someone else in trouble....the net ran slow so I turned on CNN...there it was...Michael Jackson in cardiac arrest........I have been glued to the news websites and television stations since.

When it was finally confirmed through the major news outlets that he died, I lost it. I lost one of my idols. I remember when Freddie Mercury died of AIDS in '91....that was sad. I was a big fan of Freddie's and still am...but this hurt...this felt like someone took a knife and stabbed me in the f*cking heart. It feels like I was kicked in the stomach.

Why Michael? Why now? I do not understand this.

[janena]

i think i am there on july 13 in London...
but i cant think right now...we'll see.

[mier]

I missed my train home from work and got very pissed.
I was listening to some hiphop on my mobile phone and I skipped it to Michael's Bad album so I could calm down and listen to his music while waiting for my next train.

Then suddenly Liberian Girl got interrupted by my text message ringtone with the sad news.....

[olved]

That's brilliant idea! we can't be at funeral, but we fans can be united in London, all 20000-30000 going to o2 and to remember him.....
**** it can't be true..........

[scottishMJdude]

That's brilliant idea! we can't be at funeral, but we fans can be united in London, all 20000-30000 going to o2 and to remember him.....
**** it can't be true..........

This! This is a great idea :)

[Dark Artist]

I was on MySpace minding my own business when I noticed someone's status popping up

"Michael Jackson is dead..."

I didn't believe it, of course, until I saw a completely different person's status say the same thing.

Naw, it can't be, I thought. Then I started shaking, frantically checking the forum. My friend texted me to say he was pronounced dead at 3:15 and that's when I just knew it was for real. Massive shock... it's very hard.

[Thriller Wolf]

My mother told me.
She called me down from my room, and the instant I heard her say "Michael Jackson" I knew what was to come.
I haven't cried much, though I know he's dead.
My mind is in denial. It's refusing to let it sink in and become a true reality to me.
My brain doesn't want to believe it. It wants to think he's still out there, living with his kids, wondering about what the next day will be like.
I recently heard someone playing "Black or White" in their car, and I rushed to my window with a smile on my face. But, then the music stopped. My smile faded. I remembered.
I can feel him out there, living a new life, keeping an eye on his children, visiting his fans one by one.

His death.... I know it, but I don't believe it.

[Frankyboy5]

Well people who I subscribed to on YouTube talked about the cardiac arrest, I first thought it was a fake rumor by TMZ but it was all confirmed by the end...

[dangerous2000watts]

We are all just like 'it can't be true'

[dreamon]

when i woke up, i turned on TV and saw on BBC News that King dies, and i'm still in a big shock, i can't believe this happened :(

Rest In Peace Michael Jackson

[Superstition]

I was looking up on Farrah Fawcett when I saw the news. It just snowballed from being rushed to hospital, to cardiac arrest, then death. My phone was lighting up off the hook: almost everyone I knew was calling to talk to me about it. Absolutely insane. I was so looking forward to the shows, to see some live singing, to hear the state of his voice and see if he still had it (we all knew he did).

Sadly, all that's left now is the work he's left behind, hopefully we'll see some more of it.

[SuperLee]

I came online just after 10pm and didn't even get to load up firefox browser before Sean (lilseanb) messaged me 'Have you heard the news' then I instantly loaded up the browser and looked at MJJC and saw MJ rushed to hospital ... and thought ohh No!
This terrible, worse beyond any words could describe
I know he is in a safe place now and will be looking down if not singing and dancing continuing to inspire the human race :)

Michael Jackson the King of Pop, yesterday, today, forever!

[Hess]

I'm still shocked.

I mean he is Michael Jackson - how can he die ??

[KJ777]

I was online answering email...I had the tv on in the other room CNN and I looked at the screen and when I read the words "Michael Jackson Dies" I literally lost my breath and was shaking, my heart beating fast...shocked, stunned, still am. My brother and his wife were over early, I am glad I was alone at the time. I didn't really want anyone around me.

I can't imagine what his children and family must be going through now and have to make public statements about his death...God Bless them and my prayers are with all those who loved him for him. Given Mr. Ortega's posts to the public, it sounded as if he was very excited about being on stage again, if not for himself than for the fans and the love of his craft. Here is to a "wonderful person" a sweet and gentle spirit, Michael Jackson. He has done so much good in the world and all without expecting anything in return. I love him for that. His musical talent and loving nature was a gift to all of us that we should treasure for as long as we are here. He was truly one of a kind and lived his life to the fullest. I hope his children get through it, Prince, Paris and Blanket are so young...my heart breaks for them. I miss him so, but I know he is in the lord's hands now, and life is for the living. I just hope I live mine with as much dignity and grace as he did.

[FrankMusic1982]

I was at a Chinese restaurant with my mom and dad, and one of my sisters text-messaged me asking if I had heard the news. Naturally I thought it was another cruel tabloid joke. But then my second sister texted me the same thing. I thought they had mixed it up with the news of Farrah Fawcett.

In the car, one of the radio stations was playing his music and talking about him having died, which I didn't want to hear at the moment. So when I got home, I turned on the TV, and there it was, big as life.

I am literally shaking with grief right now. It's like I'm in another world. I just came back from a social gathering with friends and it took all of my resolve not to fall apart in front of everyone. They all were very sympathetic with me, and they too were shocked of the news.

We went to a TGI Fridays, where all they played was Michael's music. It helped to cheer me up a bit, knowing that his music and legacy will always live on, but I keep thinking, why did it have to be him? Why couldn't it have been one of his critics, like Gloria Allred, Nancy (dis)Grace, or Diane Dimond? Why not them? They are evil people. Michael was heaven on earth!

[8701girl]

It was this morning and my stepdad had rang my mum up from work. He said to her "michael jackson has passed away" and my mumw as like "What? yeh right..." and then mum told me what he said, i ran to the tv and as soon as i saw......i fell down to the ground..

[Amber Dawn]

:( I was at work and a co-worker told me... I took a break and went into the bathroom and cried.. Very sad

[Stargirl]

My dad called me from work....


He found out from a person there



I just ... I can't even

[1offthewall1]

i was at work teaching little kids sports, got a text from a friend saying Mj was rushed to the hospital, i was shaking but had to deal with the kids without breaking down, then a car drove by blasting "rock with you", and i knew he was then dead.

[Screamin]

i was watching channel 4 when the ad breaks came on, flicked over to sky news and it flashed up that he had been taken to the hospital.
I rushed upstairs to check out the forum and then read the news.

[StaceyMJ]

I got a text from Renata here asking if I'd heard the news...I had no idea because I was watching a film with my bf. I had a really awful feeling so put CNN on which at the time said he had suffered cardiac arrest. As they hadn't confirmed anything I was hoping it was something blown up by the media and I waited for what must have been about 2 hours for it to be confirmed. God, that was one of the worst nights of my life. It's now 5am and I still can't sleep. I just wanna wake up and it was all a bad dream.

[Kirshach]

My mom woke me up... And sadly said that Michael... has gone... Oh my god, I felt like I'm dying too...
I cried first time since my father died...

I always feared, I mean... the worst nightmare for me was my mom waking me up and telling that Mike is dead... But now it's true... End of story. End of epoch. End of dream......... Oh God, give me strength :'(

[riskaa]

My aunt texted me from London to see if i had been watching the news. At that time, most stations were reporting that he had been rushed to hospital..but TMZ and some people on this board were saying he had died.

The news stations in London were reporting/confirming he had died at least 10 minutes bfore it was confirmed here. First CNN moved to the 'in coma' reports, and then very shortly after, Michael Jackson dies.

Usually watching MJ video clips on TV makes me so so happy...but today, i am numb.

All I hope is that the media treat him and his family with some modicum of respect. Please...let's just remember all the good things, and not dig for all the dirt that will surely follow this sad news.

[Green_Bean]

My father mentioned something to me when I was on my way out the door. I blew it off, thinking that it was just the media blowing something out of proportion. When I started to get text messages saying that he had passed.....I just couldn't believe it. He has been such a big part of my life for the past ten years, I am devestated. I don't know what I'm feeling, anger, sadness, loss......but overall I feel so concerned for his children. We have lost a legend, an icon, but they have lost their father. RIP Michael Joseph Jackson

[L&L=L.O.V.E.]

I was just strumbling and looking on MJJC and my eye catched the note of exclamation.
And everything get worse after I took a look, I told my mother he was rushed into an hospital. As a mj fan too, she took a sit right next to me and then it was all over the news. He had passed away, but I didn't want it he did.
My mum got to sleep and there was the news 'Cnn confirmed: Michael Jackson has passed away' and I was all alone in my room.
My mother came by to hear from me his latest condition. Well I said to her 'he passed away' and my tears were flowing. Absolutly the worst day in my life.

[IrishFaery]

I was sitting in my cousin's car waiting for her to give her boyfriend some lunch she picked up for him. A neighbor stepped out to tell them at the same time my cousin's sister in law received a text. She didn't know I was a fan. She was the one that told me. My verbal reaction was it's probably not true as--let's face it--it's getting around time for another death hoax. But my body language and face gave away that I knew this time it was true. As they drove me back home, my sister called.

"Charli..." she sighed.
"Is it true?" was all I asked.
"Yes." And that is also when she told me about Farrah.

I'm posting on my blog right now about all this. This is hitting me in many different ways and you'll understand why after I publish my post. (edited to add: I forgot I deleted my sig. Here is the url: www.chaarmpress.blogspot.com.)

Stay strong ya'll.

[raisa]

I just heard it, this is impossible
I got an e-mail from a newspaper:(

Gone Too Soon:(:no:

[michaelsson]

ironically,i was watching the ending of the bucharest dvd,i was telling my friend 2watch the best outro in live performance history and he read a text and said "oh god" i jokingly said uh oh who died,and he then points @ the tv. im like why are u pointing @ the tv,who died? He said michael,so i stood up and sai dont f*cking play with me right now,hes all "im serious,read my phone" i slapped his phone down and walked over to mine and had 18missed calls. im thinkin why n the hell do i have 18missed calls...and i had 34unread texts..so im reading them and they are askin how am i and do i need anything and how sorry they were..im still confused and as i started to scroll my heart dropped,my phone hit the floor and so did i

[earthlyme]

I was taking an online exam when my mom called me. then I was wathing CNN, then they said he was being hospitalized 4 cardiac arrest, then they said he was in a Comma, then they said they conformed he had passed away.

I cried but i was numb after half an hour. i'm still am. He's still gonna be alive in my heart. I dont know, i just dont know...

[firebird]

I recieved a text from a friend & rushed to the TV just as they were confirming it. I spoke to other fans and then came here. it was the middle of the night before i tried to get some rest.

[Tom]

My dad phoned me and said not to get worried, nothing was confirmed yet (this was about 10:30PM GMT, after he had already gone, but nobody had been told). I was practically glued to the T.V, as well as the internet, as more sites updated with the sad news. Since this all started, people had been phoning and texting telling me, but I already knew about it. Then the main headline at the BBC changed. My life changed. I phoned my Dad to tell him, then my Mum spoke to him after. I couldn't keep the tears in. I don't think anybody knew what his music meant to me. I didn't get much sleep last night.

R.I.P MICHAEL JACKSON!

[sunnyday81]

I came to this board as usual, after a night out with friends. Then I read the thread about the ambulance going into MJ's home. For a moment I thought this was just another silly rumour, but then I saw fans panicking in later posts. That's when I started realising it might be true.

[mjjmsc]

my sister...

[Sifa_Dias]

For me it started when I read the amulance thread on here, just after it happened, then I started following the news and stayed on here. I cursed TMZ, for all the times they weren't right, they had to be right about This. A piece of my soul went with him.

[SpunkyFunky]

i got a call from michaeliscious, she told me he was hospitalized. first we didnt know why, later we found out why and when we found out he died, it was so horrible for us... we spent the whole night on the phone and always told ourselves it couldnt be true... when i heard the statement from jermaine i knew that that is it... :(

[Experience the magic]

I got a text from my brother, but didn't hear it because I was still asleep (6 am). One of my roommates, who has to go to work early, was getting up when here boyfriend cam stumbling out of their room. He told her Michael had passed, loud enough for me to hear it. I was right awake and went straight to my computer to come here. At first MJJC seemed to be down but later I could logg on, only to find out that what I had hoped to be just another sick press prank, was true. :no:

[movingcoolcat]

I got up this morning, and my mother told me that she had heard on the radio that Michael was dead. I couldn`t believe it was true, and still can not get my head to accept this even after reading it here. Its surreal. I have no words ro describe this.

[The One.]

My dear friend, also MJ fan, texted me: "horrible things are happening, Micheal Jackson is dead".
I couldn't believe my eyes. Mum had taped the news, I watched them and then I came here. It's true but I still can't believe it.

[MJ*PP]

^ similair to mine.

My friend texted me while i was sleeping saying; OMG are you sleeping till now? Mj died. because of a heart attack!

I stood on my bed tryin to connect to the internet via my phone bu it wont work, finally it did then I read al the threads here and my eyes went lik O_O. I cried. so hard. And..here I am now, here.

[Rockin.]

My dad woke me up and said in a very rushed voice 'theres some sad news, Michael Jackson's dead' I was like...'oh itl be another lie', he took me downstairs and sky news was on. devastated. i just sat and watched, i still didnt believe it until jermaine came on and gave the statement. i went to try and get on the official michael jackson site forum to talk to people i know on there but it is shut down. I'm still in denial, it was an hour later the tears started flowing. i think its amazing but sad also how all the love is coming out for michael now. on my facebook almost all 300 people im friends with have loving comments on their statuses about michael, people i wouldn't have expected before.

[MLVD]

I came on here at about 7:50am my time and I only went through about 11 pages (the server went busy) so I left for school hoping that he is still alive until about 8:40am when I heard on the radio "Creditable sources are saying Michael Jackson is dead". I was just standing there saying the same four words over and over in my head "Michael Jackson is dead". I went outside my deputy principle's office (to see if I could go home) and then the radio station played Beat It then when Billie Jean played I broke down into tears and was sitting there just thinking of the things I now couldn't do (all of them involved Michael). When I heard Jermaine saying that he is dead I felt like swimming all the way to LA to hug Michael's body. I then changed the station and found another station talking about Michael and they played Heal The World and I felt like my life is over. They then played Bad and Thriller (the station rarely plays music as it is a talk back station). This afternoon I was hearing people's stories of Michael at Parramatta stadium performing Billie Jean. They are playing (as I type this) Michael performing Ben (they are going to the football).

[Laura_MJfan]

I can't handle this.
Everytime they start playing a video or song i just break down again. I dont want MJ's music to make me sad, it always cheered me up.

[libsta81]

I woke up this morning June 26 at 7am (here in Australia) which is something like 4pm or something like that in the U.S,,,

it was the most horrible news to wake up to :( I was shaking and in complete shock...

Since then Ive been watching the news and been online to make sure it was true....i am still in shock.. I kept it together for an hour or so after i heard the news but then I saw a tribute to his musical legacy and the set off the tears for me..

RIP Michael we will miss you always

[000cozzie000]

I came on this board, the first thread my eyes went to was the "Farrah Fawcett dies" thread. I went in there, expressed my sadness and then when I reloaded MJJC I see "Michael Jackson has passed away".

I froze, I went numb and then I started shaking. I started checking TMZ and the news sites thinking "it cant be this easy, he cant just die JUST LIKE THAT." Then reading the news stories, the fans reactions, it slowly started to hit me.

I've never cried this much for another person ever.

[BigDaddy]

As fate would have it, it was my boyfriend. He rang the house phone 5 mins before my alarm was due to go off.... the phone would NOT shut up so I got up, which is unprecidented for me -- and said "mmmnnnnnggeeeh?" and I hear a man's voice saying "Have you heard about Michael Jackson?" (long pause) I said "wut?" Then he told me the news.

It's a good job he did because otherwise I would have gone to work not knowing and I would have only lasted 5 mins in there, before going home in tears. Anyway. The reason I only found out this morning is cos I wasn't well yesterday evening / not online. xx

Rest In Peace Michael. You are home now, in your spiritual realm of The Dance. xxx

[MJ Tempest]

I came to this forum that Thursday evening around 10:30 pm and saw the "an ambulance went into Michael Jackson home?!" thread. I hoped this was just another stupid tabloid rumor, but soon I realized it was true... :(

I kept waiting for a statement that said Michael was alive and well, but it never came... :(

[snorlaaax]

I was actually shopping for an outfit to wear at the this is it concerts..
when I came home, I just wanted to watch some entertainment tv show, before I went to sleep. just after 10 minutes after the show the reporters told, that they just got the message that michael jackson was rushed to the hospital. at that time they couldnt really tell anything more than just that his situation was bad and that his mom was on her way to see him.

I immidiatly rushed to several boards, but a lot of boards werent working due to the traffic...so i logged on on mjfc, because i knew that one didnt had as much visitors as mjcc and therefore would be faster. at that time, the only thing we all knew was that michael was in the hospital. when everyone heard the message came from tmz there was a lot of denial. lots of people saying ''to calm down'' or ''oh its probably one of those lies'', but somehow I knew something was really WRONG.

i cant really recall what happened from there on and now, its to hard and painfull to tell..I hadnt slept that whole evening and during these two horrible days I slept a total of 2 hours and only ate 1 sandwich...I'm so in shock that somehow I cant continue the normal things in life like sleepin and eating. Somehow I feel guilty when I go to bed or eat, because that will give me the feeling that i ''do not care' enough', because I just continue life. I know this is wrong and a stupid thought, but somehow I feel guilty and think I can make up for that by making myself ''sick''. Its all sounds so stupid, but its kinda hard to explain for me.

[Calotte12]

On my daily forum visit.

At first I was not alarmed but after..

[emmah24]

I watched it all unfold right here on this forum and on the news. Desperately wanted to hear it was all untrue, I still cant believe its all real. This will take a long time to finally sink in and accept.

[aliana101]

Same here...but MJJC was unavailable and I immediatly knew something happened. I just didn't imagine HOW horrible...I visited some other MJ forum and I kept hoping he'd be ok but when people started posting that he's in a coma and later that it's over, he's gone...I was awake all night, waiting to wake up. Praying that it was just a cruel joke.

[Marilyn Monroe]

here on mjjc..i was confused as to why so many people were online and then i saw the thread and was omg...at first i didnt think it was michael taken to the hospital but maybe a gaurd or something..so i turned on the news..then before you know it, it WAS michael ,then you heard he was in a coma, and before you knew it he was gone..all within minutes.

[Anna]

I read it on here that he had been rushed to hospital with a cardiac arrest, then on x17 I read that he had apprently passed away, at which point I abandoned my laptop and was sitting on the floor trying not to have a heart attack. Then my sister went online for me and confirmed it.

[MJRockssMyWorld10]

i texted my mate my new number and he texted back asking me if i had seen the news
i said no and he went Michael Jackson has died
i thought he was having me on, till i looked on the internet and my mum put sky news on and went "RACHEL MICHAEL JACKSON HAS BEEN RUSHED TO HOSPITAL!"
reality sunk in then and i sat in cried. and still am cry. so sad. x

[mehdiblanket]

Of course Music died ,what we have today ?Britney ,Justin Usher are those true artist?

[starone_angel]

I believe his music will live forever!

[victorytour84]

The man may have passed on but his music is here forever baby!

[PurpleParrot]

ah gosh, who told me...

I was at the corner store where my friend works and a girl working at the restaurant nearby just ran in and yelled at my friend ''Michael Jackson is dying, they're talking about it on CNN!!''

HAVE TO SAY she said it laughing like if it was something funny..
My friend looked at me scared, I grabbed her keys, went to her appart and watched CNN who hasn't confirmed yet.. then the news dropped...

[BadEraSexy]

my friend whom i hadn't talked to in FOREVER texted it to me...she's good for sending out texts for EVERYTHING about stuff like that AND my dad called me at the same time....then i googled it myself because i didn't believe them and it was ONLY showing on tmz at the time, so i thought it may be a hoax because there are always stupid texts about celebs dying who aren't (kat williams, etc) so i really didn't want to believe it....then, well, we all know it wasn't a fake

[JaneBender]

I got a text from someone.. I think it was a co worker... she said he was rushed to a hospital... then I tried to look it up but the internet was slow... twitter was buzzing crazy... then someone on twitter said TMZ had reported that he died at the hospital and I was like oh HELL TO THE NAW!!! I didn't believe it! There was NO WAY MJ was dead. NO FLIPPING way. TMZ??? PLEASE! I was like nope. I'm waiting for an official confirmation. Not from some ol BS website like TMZ. Then it came. :( I was watching cnn.com and they were saying LA Times had confirmed. The LA Times site was down and I couldn't see anything! I was MAD!!! I needed confirmation! My friend called me! "Did you hear what happened???" I was like nope. Don't wanna believe it. This is a joke. We left work and went to have drinks, pour some out for MJ, still in complete shock, I still didn't wanna believe it.

I was walking to the bus to go home a few hours later and called my mom, she was at her house watching the news. "It is true?" I said. "Yes, it's true." I swear my heart dropped right there on 5th Ave and 44th Street. :(

[tinkerbella]

I had just arrived at work, and were standing outside, when a good friend and co worker said that Michael Jackson is dead. He had carrdiac arrest. I was is total shock, and didnt belive her. I ran up to my office and turned on my computer, and when i realised it was true i was a sombie the rest of that day. The tears came when i sat down in my car, and they havent really stopped.... Come back Michael... The world is lost without you..... At least i am.....

[krism]

who told me? the people on the radio. i was laying in bed half asleep and they said michael had died. i couldnt believe it. i was like what?!!!!? that day is very horrible to think about - even now. its still so raw emotionally

[mjlovergurl003]

i was at home watching tv when i was flipping through channels i saw the headline that michael was in the hospital. I freaked! I began thinking he's going to be ok, they said he is only 10 mins away from the hospital so he will be ok. i watched and was praying he would be ok. then the news came. I died!! I could not believe it!! I cryed soo hard and havent stopped since. im so numb and so dead inside. i'll never stop missing my michael. :(

[bgz]

I was babysitting my 2 and 5 yr old grandsons at their home. My son came home from work and was acting very odd. One of the first things he said was "mom, would you like a cold beer?". I thought that was such a strange question/comment, I thought wth?

My grandsons and I had been watching Elmo videos, so I hadn't heard anything. My son then said "Michael's on life support and they don't expect him to live". I just went numb in disbelief, and we turned on the tv in the kitchen, and all the major networks were announcing his death. He kept asking me "are you okay?". Well, I drank that beer he offered me and then went home. As much as I was having a hard time digesting the fact that Michael was indeed dead, the thought kept running through my head how this would affect so many fans, ultimately knowing that many of them would be potential suicide victims.

The finality of it all really didn't sink in right away, it took days and days of watching everything on tv, and reading on the board, for it to really hit me that he was indeed gone forever.

[thrillerchild]

I first heard from my mums text when I was driving back from my girlfriend's place. When I got home I just turned on the TV and was in shock for the rest of the night...I walked to work the following morning...all 40 minutes of it :( I cried so hard that night.

[mjjfan4ever]

text from my sis- I was at a store shopping.... immediately went home, 6pm until the next afternoon 2pm.... watched stunned with no emotions.... then I lost it. cried, cried, cried....

[Em_Mj]

I was watching TV and saw the thread "ambulance been rushed to michael jacksons home?". I told my dad to turn on Sky News and it was breaking news he had a Cardiac Arrest. then everyone on MSN was asking about it. I just started crying, this WASN'T happening. I knew he'd be okay.. or it was a rumour. anyway the rest is a blur. I was just crying and praying Michael will be okay. then around 10:30pm they showed a picture of Michael from the conference and it said "Michael Jackson, 50, Has died" I NEVER thought I would here that sentence for real. Not now :( Not ever. I cried uncontrollably hard. I cry now just thinking of that night. I then watched the news all night until about 5 oclock in the morning. Then turned TV off and stared at pix/poster of Michael. Tried getting some sleep. Kept waking up and crying. Got about half an hour sleep. Woke up, went downstairs and just cried. I got the day off school and sat home watching the news/music channels all day just crying.
Worst.Thing.I.Have.Ever.Experienced.
Miss you SO much Michael Jackson.

[pauline]

I got a SMS from a danish newsbureau like CNN or BBC, that he was dead.

I hope people are going to the O2 at july 13th to put flowers there and to remember him.

R.I.P. Michael Jackson.

when i was in my London, UK tour, i've gone there.
My feeling was so hard on that time. can anyone can help me?????
you know, i'm so scared to thinking something about Michael,
since it will let me cried...
why???why makes me so hard????God, why you did it?????

[MeggyKateGutermuth]

the day the music died.......funny, in an ironic way...because don mclean's "american pie" described exactly how it felt when he died...it was the end of an era, end of a generation...

my boss had left me off work early that day (i normally get off at 5, he let me go around 4 because we didnt have a lot of calls--i answer the phones at his office) and so around 4:30 i got a text from e! news saying an ambulance went to michael's house...they didnt know why...then when i finally got home about 10 minutes or so later i turn on CNN and was watching wolf blitzer...watching the crowds gather...that sinking feeling...and i just knew it wasnt good...and since that day it feels, at least to me...that it's only gotten worse the past six weeks =/

[MJfan10]

I haerd on the radio that he had a cardiac arrest and I checked on the net but nothing came up. So I went to watch the news on TV and they said the same. A few hours later they said he died!! I was in shock!! I don't like to think of that day :( But MJ's Music WILL NEVER DIE!!!