Goodnight Michael

[*Billie Jean*]

Michael,
I'm not feeling well.
I feel sad and I feel like I'm ill..
My heart's really hurting and I can't stop crying.
It's getting worse and worse.
I want to be asleep. I don't feel any pain then.
I feel so empty..
Michael, I hope to see you in my dreams.
I'm missing you.. As always.
I miss you more every day.
Goodnight my love...
I love you so much.

My love grows more everyday for you Michael...

[mier]

[Michaelismagic]

[Billie_Jean09]

Michael,
I'm not feeling well.
I feel sad and I feel like I'm ill..
My heart's really hurting and I can't stop crying.
It's getting worse and worse.
I want to be asleep. I don't feel any pain then.
I feel so empty..
Michael, I hope to see you in my dreams.
I'm missing you.. As always.
I miss you more every day.
Goodnight my love...
I love you so much.

My love grows more everyday for you Michael...

We are here and feel your pain whenever you need to talk.
You are DEF not alone.
xxx

[*Billie Jean*]

Hey all thank you so much for your support..

[*Billie Jean*]

Oh, Michael…..
I'm feeling very melancholy tonight! I can't stop crying.. I can't live without you. I love you and you are my true love. I miss your special smile... I love you and I will always love you. If my love could bring you back. I miss you so much and I cry everyday. I love you endlessly and desperately. The clouds are so dark and grey, the winter is cruel and harsh.. The lonely days never end, the nights are worse.
I cry into my pillow asking the Lord to take me away. Last night you came into my dreams... you were in my arms and I hold you.. All I need is you, love. I love you endlessly. You are my world. Because you are the only one in the world who makes my heart swing of happiness when I see your smile or I hear your voice. I just can't stop loving you...
You're in a better place now, this world was too cruel for you!
Good night Michael!! I love you... I love you...

[xthunderx2]

Oh, Michael…..
I'm feeling very melancholy tonight! I can't stop crying.. I can't live without you. I love you and you are my true love. I miss your special smile... I love you and I will always love you. If my love could bring you back. I miss you so much and I cry everyday. I love you endlessly and desperately. The clouds are so dark and grey, the winter is cruel and harsh.. The lonely days never end, the nights are worse.
I cry into my pillow asking the Lord to take me away. Last night you came into my dreams... you were in my arms and I hold you.. All I need is you, love. I love you endlessly. You are my world. Because you are the only one in the world who makes my heart swing of happiness when I see your smile or I hear your voice. I just can't stop loving you...
You're in a better place now, this world was too cruel for you!
Good night Michael!! I love you... I love you...

aaww..your post made me cry...Michael came into my dreams last night too...I tossed and turned all night...I woke up and every time I went back to sleep there was Michael...You are not alone....we all miss him so very much....but ...it is not your time to be taken away from this earth yet...you must help carry on Michael's memory..by doing things that Michael would do...things to help others and to make a difference in the world....pm me if you want to chat...

[*Billie Jean*]

aaww..your post made me cry...Michael came into my dreams last night too...I tossed and turned all night...I woke up and every time I went back to sleep there was Michael...You are not alone....we all miss him so very much....but ...it is not your time to be taken away from this earth yet...you must help carry on Michael's memory..by doing things that Michael would do...things to help others and to make a difference in the world....pm me if you want to chat...

Your words caress my broken heart so tenderly... thank you so much. Im here for you. I know that the pain is still the same, even after all this time - I still cry everyday and every night.. It's so hard. Right now I'm REALLY sad too. My stomach hurts and I have a strange feeling in my stomach. I'm listening to Human Nature right now but I don't if it helps or if it makes everything worse.
Hugs to you!

[xthunderx2]

Your words caress my broken heart so tenderly... thank you so much. Im here for you. I know that the pain is still the same, even after all this time - I still cry everyday and every night.. It's so hard. Right now I'm REALLY sad too. My stomach hurts and I have a strange feeling in my stomach. I'm listening to Human Nature right now but I don't if it helps or if it makes everything worse.
Hugs to you!

your siggy is so beautiful.........yes the pain is the same....people who are not Michael fans dont understand.....I walk around everyday and keep my pain inside...I keep it to myself..none except for the people on this board know how much I am crying inside....people in my world would not understand the pain.....I think listening to his music helps...if it helps you feel better then ..I say listen to it........hugs to you too....

[jfleenor2]

Beautiful words. I so miss our sweet Michael too. I cry every now and then, have to hide it at work and from my husband. They just don't understand.

Remember though, I believe Michael wouldn't want you to ruin your life or hurt yourself. It's our job now to continue and promote his legacy. Teach people who don't know how beautiful Michael was in his giving and caring for children, and the world's people, and the earth. How he showed his love and kindness in all his deeds! And, of course, his musical genius!

[MJsBollywoodGirl7]

Your post started to make me cry again. Cause I feel the same as you do about Michael. When I am around other people I have to hide my pain. And act all find and normal. Or they will think that you insane for still mourning over someone you didn't even know. I remember back in early July my mother threatened to have me committed. If I didn't get over Michael's death in 2 weeks. And I just said to myself how the hell can I get over someone who's been a part of my life for over 25 years? Only when I am alone is when I am crying over Michael. Only another MJ fan can truly understand of what I am going through. Which is why I am so very thankful that I have my MJ sites to be in.

[*Billie Jean*]

your siggy is so beautiful.........yes the pain is the same....people who are not Michael fans dont understand.....I walk around everyday and keep my pain inside...I keep it to myself..none except for the people on this board know how much I am crying inside....people in my world would not understand the pain.....I think listening to his music helps...if it helps you feel better then ..I say listen to it........hugs to you too....

For me, listening to the music makes it worse because his voice is so pure, so beautiful. Then i see the news saying he is gone, and it really hurts me more then anything. We will never get over the sadness and loss and longing for his physical
form. It was such an awesome form! He will always be with us though! A spirit, an energy that shined that bright doesn't just go out! It transforms to watch over the world from another dimension. I can hear him in my head. I can feel him, mostly at
night when it is quiet. He will always be with us! But I want to talk to him, see him,
touch him in reality; I want to embrace him hold his hands so tight, kiss him.. I love him sooo much!
You are a lovely person, thank you. Peace, love and hugs to you!

[*Billie Jean*]

Beautiful words. I so miss our sweet Michael too. I cry every now and then, have to hide it at work and from my husband. They just don't understand.

Remember though, I believe Michael wouldn't want you to ruin your life or hurt yourself. It's our job now to continue and promote his legacy. Teach people who don't know how beautiful Michael was in his giving and caring for children, and the world's people, and the earth. How he showed his love and kindness in all his deeds! And, of course, his musical genius!

But its so terribly hard for me. Nobody understands me at all. And I dont want to live anymore without Michael. I consider myself a widow now. I love him. I just dont understand hoe GOD could take my baby away from me. I just dont understand. He is my life, I cannot live anymore like this. I want to die. And most of all, I want to be with my Michael.

[*Billie Jean*]

Your post started to make me cry again. Cause I feel the same as you do about Michael. When I am around other people I have to hide my pain. And act all find and normal. Or they will think that you insane for still mourning over someone you didn't even know. I remember back in early July my mother threatened to have me committed. If I didn't get over Michael's death in 2 weeks. And I just said to myself how the hell can I get over someone who's been a part of my life for over 25 years? Only when I am alone is when I am crying over Michael. Only another MJ fan can truly understand of what I am going through. Which is why I am so very thankful that I have my MJ sites to be in.

All you said, is EXACTLY the way I feel.. I know Michael would want us to live our lives, and be strong. I am always crying, but I try to be strong for Michael. I never knew that I could love someone the way I love him... It really is hard for me. I dont want to live like this, without my true love, the love of my life, Michael. I even wish to marry him so bad. Everybody says, "EEEEWWW you have an uncontrollable crush on a dead man. That is so gross! I cant beleive you are in love with a dead dude" Nobody understands. But he IS the love of my life, and he ALWAYS WILL BE. I will always love him, but my love of life died with him.
I feel a void in me that can't be filled. I don't mean to be selfish, I pray for all who loved Michael. I'm so indescribable sad. I just want to die along with him. As long as I live in this world I will miss him, every painful second. My heart has not stopped hurting since June 25, 2009. I just can't stop loving him...

[MJsBollywoodGirl7]

All you said, is EXACTLY the way I feel.. I know Michael would want us to live our lives, and be strong. I am always crying, but I try to be strong for Michael. I never knew that I could love someone the way I love him... It really is hard for me. I dont want to live like this, without my true love, the love of my life, Michael. I even wish to marry him so bad. Everybody says, "EEEEWWW you have an uncontrollable crush on a dead man. That is so gross! I cant beleive you are in love with a dead dude" Nobody understands. But he IS the love of my life, and he ALWAYS WILL BE. I will always love him, but my love of life died with him.
I feel a void in me that can't be filled. I don't mean to be selfish, I pray for all who loved Michael. I'm so indescribable sad. I just want to die along with him. As long as I live in this world I will miss him, every painful second. My heart has not stopped hurting since June 25, 2009. I just can't stop loving him...

You love Michael exactly the same way I love Michael. I became a fan of Michael's sometime in the early 80s. But it wasn't until 1988 I had gotten a huge major crush on Michael. From seeing his Bad video. Then in 1992 when I was 12 I had falling madly in love with Michael when I saw his In The Closet video. 17 years later I love Michael more now than I ever did before. Michael has always been and always forever will be the love of my life. Especially since I have his name forever tatoo on my heart. That is one of the reasons why I can't get over Michael. Another reason we both suffered from a skin disorder. Michael was practically the only person in my life knows what it is like to have a skin disorder. Its those 2 main reasons why I will never be over Michael's death.