Michael, my sweet love, yesterday I sat outside looking up at the stars thinking about you. I cried thinking of all the wonderful memories I had when you were here. I miss you so very much, my love. You are everything to me, my soulmate and I wish I could be where you are right now.
I really, really missed you today, Michael.
It was all so wrongo. To see your pics, to talk about a "new" album, knowing you are not here anymore.
And then... today, at the KH we were singing about the paradise to come and how our pain will replaced just by joy and that death will be no more.... and I was there, singing with you in my heart.
Man.... how much longer will this terrible pain go on hurting us so much?
how is it that I can understand the way things are in my mind, but not in my heart?
why... why didn't I do more for you? I don't know what, if any other thing I cold have done, but still I feel I could have done more. Or not? Or yes? ahhhhhhhh.... this is killing me
I miss the days when sayin' "Who's Baaddd?" was good and when it was all about your music and me.
Michael I don't know what it is with me lately. I am really missing you just so much right now and it is only late morning here. My depression over you is just so really bad right now. Causing me to feel really sick again. I still haven't had 1 single good night's worth sleep since before you left us. So being really tired and sick all of the time is just something I have gotten used to feeling now. And I still can't seem to handle watching and listening to you. As I could have during Fall, Winter, and Spring seasons. All I had wanted to do was to just watch and listen to you. I guess it just shows just how bad my depression is now. And I just miss watching and listening to you so much now. And I still just so much wish I could be with you now. Especially since I still miss being happy 1 feeling I still haven't felt since before I had heard the horrible news about you. Any way Michael I just hope you have another great day up in Heaven. I just wish I could be up there with you now.
As the days continue to pass
The feeling of missing you only gets stronger
The tears only fall harder
and the pain continues to linger
my thoughts become more scattered
the nightmares become more real
And the emptiness only gets deeper
My heart stays on you
while this lonely life becomes less meaningful
And regardless of what goes on
all I can do is miss you