any anxiety/depression sufferers here?

[wendijane]

[MJsBollywoodGirl7]

I have been still suffering from depression ever since what had happen to Michael last year. I still have all the symptoms of depression. I haven't felt a single ounce of happiness since before it happen. And I still haven't had a single good night's worth of sleep since June 24th 2009. So I am constantly tired all of the time but I have gotten used to it. As well as feeling sick all of the time and gotten used to that. But the one thing that doesn't help my depression is having the kind of mother that I do. Because every single time I tell her about my depression she just yells at me and/or she just doesn't want to hear it or believes me. So I just stop telling her about it. Since it is very obvious that she won't take me to the doctors for my depression. I can't go myself because I can't drive and my doctors office is a good 15 to 20 some minutes from where I live. So I was force to sought help with my depression on my own by playing any of my Sims and Final Fantasy games. Which they have been a big help. And by always eating which that was the wrong thing to do since I gain a lot of the weight that I had lost last Summer back. And I only lost that weight because after what had happen to Michael. Eating was the very last thing in the world I had wanted to do. I even told my mother once why I was gaining my weight back. And she doesn't want to believe me. So I just learn to hide my depression from her and from any of my other MJ hating family members. Because they are not going to care and would think I am totally insane to be suffering from depression over someone that I don't even know.

[Hocus]

I have both and hardly anyone knows (hesitated to say it here!) so I'm sorry I feel really uncomfortable elaborating on it.

I understand your side, it's very brave of you that you do!

But I feel it's important to get this out in the open! I think this is an amazing thread! I feel that there's a lot of MJ fans out there that are suffering from depression all alone... And having a depression is nothing to be ashamed of. But it can be a really really bad thing...

So for anyone out there with depression who reads this thread and is not posting here :
Please try to reach out your hand to someone, try to talk to someone! Or even better seek professional help! Always remember there's lots of people who love you very much! We, your MJ family, love you very much and we need you here!

With the L.O.V.E.,
Diana xx

[Hocus]

I have been still suffering from depression ever since what had happen to Michael last year. I still have all the symptoms of depression. I haven't felt a single ounce of happiness since before it happen. And I still haven't had a single good night's worth of sleep since June 24th 2009. So I am constantly tired all of the time but I have gotten used to it. As well as feeling sick all of the time and gotten used to that. But the one thing that doesn't help my depression is having the kind of mother that I do. Because every single time I tell her about my depression she just yells at me and/or she just doesn't want to hear it or believes me. So I just stop telling her about it. Since it is very obvious that she won't take me to the doctors for my depression. I can't go myself because I can't drive and my doctors office is a good 15 to 20 some minutes from where I live. So I was force to sought help with my depression on my own by playing any of my Sims and Final Fantasy games. Which they have been a big help. And by always eating which that was the wrong thing to do since I gain a lot of the weight that I had lost last Summer back. And I only lost that weight because after what had happen to Michael. Eating was the very last thing in the world I had wanted to do. I even told my mother once why I was gaining my weight back. And she doesn't want to believe me. So I just learn to hide my depression from her and from any of my other MJ hating family members. Because they are not going to care and would think I am totally insane to be suffering from depression over someone that I don't even know.

Hey sweetie, It's also possible to get treatment for depression over the Internet. Have you tried that already? If not, please promise me you'll do that ok? Take care!

[PoP]

I've been depressed since high school, because no one still pays any attention to me and they angered me for it, when I started my independance I'm still depressed because I was lonelt without having friends over to see me. But then when I saw Naruto for the first time in the fall of 06', mainly because of NaruHina, the show and manga saved me from my depression, I guess NaruHina healed my depression because seeing them together makes me really happy. My depression came back during most of the winter semister in college, but I felt a lot better when I got home.


This is why they healed my depression. They made me happy.

[angelofinnocence]

Hmm, I wouldn't recommend taking medication (I'm no doctor though and I also said I wouldn't give advice ). In my opinion, drugs don't 'treat' depression, they sort of hide it in a back closet, if you know what I mean + they give addiction. After a while, you won't be able to function without them.
Therapy, without medication, will lighten you up...

I'm afraid I strongly disagree with this statement. Depression/anxiety is an illness. If you had an infection you would take antibiotics. Medication isn't for everyone but we must not condone people who are on it or have taken it in the past. It has helped me greatly and allowed me to work and to get on with life. Plus the waiting list is eight months here for therapy. If you have ever had severe mental health problems you will know that is a very long time to wait without medication. Also ant-di's are NOT ADDICTIVE.
I would just like to say a thankyou for all the wonderful replies and kind words. Keep posting!
A note of caution, lets not go into meds in detail. We are not doctors and everyone has the right to decide their own treatment so lets all please be sensitive to others.
L.O.V.E

[144,000]

I'm afraid I strongly disagree with this statement. Depression/anxiety is an illness. If you had an infection you would take antibiotics. Medication isn't for everyone but we must not condone people who are on it or have taken it in the past. It has helped me greatly and allowed me to work and to get on with life. Plus the waiting list is eight months here for therapy. If you have ever had severe mental health problems you will know that is a very long time to wait without medication. Also ant-di's are NOT ADDICTIVE.
I would just like to say a thankyou for all the wonderful replies and kind words. Keep posting!
A note of caution, lets not go into meds in detail. We are not doctors and everyone has the right to decide their own treatment so lets all please be sensitive to others.
L.O.V.E

your last paragraph is why it's extraordinarily tenuous to even consider talking about "what happened to Michael Jackson" ...and even..the Doctor Murray situation...with a ten thousand foot pole.

[Lorraine]

To anyone who suffers, I feel your pain. I really do.

Depression is evil.

Much Love to you all.

[suzynyc]

This is me. On mornings when I get to sleep in I find myself hitting the snooze button more and more because I just can't pull myself out of bed. I'm in a very boring routine of going to work, coming home, repeat, etc. I spend a lot of my time at home in my room -my sanctuary- because the mask can come off and I'm free to totally be myself.

I hate going to parties or gatherings where I'm not real familiar with people cause I'm shy and find it hard to start a conversation with people. I guess that doesn't bode real well with an acting career. I've been criticized and judged for this too, so I feel even more discouraged and more compelled to stay home. It's a vicious cycle.

I've dealt with depression on and off since I was 14. For the first two years of high school, briefly during my junior year of college, and then after graduating. When Michael died I sank to a whole new level of low.

For me personally, I find that exercise, keeping busy, and working creatively help a lot. I've never taken any medication or spoken with a therapist, but I don't recommend that for everyone.



It's still considered Seasonal Affective Disorder. I had S.A.D. big time when I was a teenager, but I haven't really experienced it in some time.

Yep, I hit that snooze button several times every morning, heh.

I've heard some of the shyest people are performers, actors, singers, etc. So I hope you don't let that, or other people's opinions, stop you from pursuing it.

Exercising..yes, that helps with a person's outlook and feelings of well being but I just can't get up the motivation. I'm going to try tonight.

The party and gatherings thing...I hear ya.

[thrillerchild]

I guess I'm in denial about certain aspects but I've got the anxiety a hella lot! Can't help it when something knocks me out of my stride or last minute or out of the blue it gives me a sometimes unbarable feeling of anxiety :-/ The depression side is not so bad and comes in cycles with me. But as I'm extremely shy in person I find it difficult to open up

[Sharlene]

I guess I'm in denial about certain aspects but I've got the anxiety a hella lot! Can't help it when something knocks me out of my stride or last minute or out of the blue it gives me a sometimes unbarable feeling of anxiety :-/ The depression side is not so bad and comes in cycles with me. But as I'm extremely shy in person I find it difficult to open up

yet you still manage to provide a shoulder for us to cry on - thank u

[Hocus]

yet you still manage to provide a shoulder for us to cry on - thank u

You're right Sharlene! Stephen is one of those true angels!
Thank you Stephen! Sending you lots of love & strength! Take care!

[man.in.the.mirror]

i raise my hand too,i,ve suffered anxiety and depression on and off for many years,i have to say though,i,ve not felt any happiness since michael left us,the thing with me is i have had anxiety on and off for years ,so i think i,m kind of used to it now,
i really feel for everyone here that suffers,and remember that if anyone ever needs to talk,well you know where i am,

love to everyone in our michael family,

[angelofinnocence]

your last paragraph is why it's extraordinarily tenuous to even consider talking about "what happened to Michael Jackson" ...and even..the Doctor Murray situation...with a ten thousand foot pole.

Hi Friend,
you've lost me about there? What do you mean exactly? x

[mjfan1990]

hi my friend i also have a bad case of anixty and depression i have G.A.D. general anixty disorder ans plus i also have adhd too