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Sometimes, you think if I can ignore it…
it’ll just go away but then it simmers inside of you..
You see people you care about hurt…
You TRY to ONLY react in a POSITIVE and LOVING way…
Pinpointing the REAL stories about Michael and
letting people ‘decide’ for themselves
who they wanna believe…
Still, it remains TOUGH cause you can’t count
on SUPPORT from your peers, your friends…
Though, you FEEL like you’re the CHOSEN ONE
to HELP Michael to HEAL this SICK world it sometimes
doesn’t FEEL that way but…
A gift should not always be a dull one…
It can be a Thrilling adventure too.
We’re after all the MJ fam that Michael ‘raised’
So, I decided to tell you here about
this wonderful thread we have on MJJCommunity:
http://www.mjjcommunity.com/forum/threads/129236-AEG-Trial-Support-Thread-I-m-About-To-Go-Crazy
When you feel ‘drained’ and
FEEL this is getting all too much…
You just pop into the above mentioned thread and
we’ll make you smile again…
Much L.O.V.E, Daz.
Positive vibes
“Positive vibes”
Written by Daz.
Inspired by Tink.
Yesterday was March 5…
Four years ago, that was one of the happiest days in my life…
You know, Michael’s Press conference announcing “This is it” …
Now, it kind of leaves a ‘BAD’ taste in your mouth as
how can things change hey…
I could have sulked and cried all day…
As the pain still feels so ‘fresh’ though it’s ‘bandaged’
so it can’t bleed any more… It doesn’t mean it’s healed…
That’s the confusing part of grief…
Does it ever heal or do you just find ways to cope with it?
Do you find strong enough ‘bandages’ to wrap up the ‘gaping’ wound?
So, feeling blue that morning…
I was exactly really glad it was a college day ‘cause silly or not…
When I’m there I feel ‘healed’ …
It still baffles me that I got friends now… I used to be such a ‘loner’…
Anyway, feeling blue on such a day is quite normal but
it shouldn’t ‘overshadow’ the joy of that day…
It’s okay to smile and even laugh on these ‘crucial’ days…
I first thought it was ‘disrespectful’ cause
how can you smile when your loved one is not longer here…
Then, I thought… What should Michael do?
He would go out … HELP people… Make their life BRIGHTER…
Show the world what he’s made of…
SHINE so BRIGHT that other people get ‘burnt’
with your ‘sparkles’ of light…
No battle is ever won by hiding in your closet
waiting for the storm to pass…
No, you stand tall and face the day…
How TOUGH it might seem…
Being BRAVE is what makes you SHINE…
On that ‘supposedly’ awful day…
I stood my ground and talked with passion
about being an Author in front of the whole class.
Yep… There are 30 college students in it.
It even made the teacher SHINE and that
BOOSTED my confidence even more…
So, guys…
BAD days are NOT DOOMED to stay BAD…
YOU…
only YOU can make them into GOOD memory days,
no matter what ‘flavor’ they had before…
You are the MASTER of your own life…
Yours,
Daryll ‘delightful’ aka Daz.
-Copyrighted by Daz-
Healed or not
“Healed or not”
Written by Daz.
Inspired by Tink.
Yesterday, I went into town…
I popped into a HUGE store full of books,
computers, DVD’s and Music…
I was ‘browsing’ into the current DVD sections and
then my eye fell on the ‘sales’ stands and
I couldn’t believe that the DVD’s that I wanted but
couldn’t afford yet were on SALE…
Boring intro, I know…
What happens next made me realize…
Hey, am I healed or what?
While I was browsing for more DVD’s clutching
the ‘sales’ ones in my hand…
I heard this familiar voice…
“What ‘you doing now? “
I smiled and answered him in thoughts…
I was looking for DVD’s to watch ‘cause Saturday evenings
were again ‘Movie nights’ as before…
I heard him chuckle…
“Movies? “ He wondered.
“You don’t watch them anymore, do you? “
“Well, I’m healed, remember…”
I only fretted while browsing through another ‘sales’ box
to find the one I wanted…
“Oh yeah” I heard him smile.
So, guys…
It’s all a matter of time ‘till you’re healed…
It doesn’t mean…
I’m NOT hurting anymore or that I simply ‘forgotten’ Michael…
NO… It’s hard to explain but
you’ll feel as BLESSED as I am once
you ‘feel’ you can pick up your life again…
Will it be the same?
Hell NO, it won’t but since when is ‘different’ not okay…
-Copyrighted by DAZ-
The moment of now
“The moment of NOW”
Written by Daz.
Inspired by Tink.
I could tell you a whole ‘bucket’ list of ups and downs
but I’ll just stick to the NOW ‘cause that’s all that matters…
NOT how you felt last week or even yesterday…
The moment of NOW is all that is important…
So, how do you feel NOW?
Me,
I feel FINE ‘cause I know that I have a ‘back up’ plan…
A Plan B…
on BAD days where I can ‘fall apart’ and
get ‘glued’ together all over again…
A safe haven where I can be MYSELF and
‘brag’ about the Victories of the day…
How silly they may seem…
Am I still the same ‘wreck’ as 4 years ago or
has something changed for the better or
for the worse?
I can say it’s for the better…
I’ve peddled through all the stages of grief, back and forth…
It still feels a little ‘strange’ to getting back to ‘normal’ again…
A little scary too…
What if things go bump in the night again?
Do I have to start at the beginning with no added Bonuses?
Nah, I go to my ‘safe haven’…
For us, it’s MJJC or the MJ family
that understands how you feel and
know the ‘triggers’ to fall apart by heart so…
I never thought I would say that College is
what I needed now to stay ‘healed’.
It all makes sense ‘cause that’s
an IMPORTANT part in the ‘coping strategies’ …
FIND A PASSION…
FIND A NEW ENVIRONMENT…
where you can start from scratch…
For me, that’s College…
No one knows the hurt I’ve been through…
I’m the PROUD Author there…
Don’t be CONFUSED by ‘letting it go’
or ‘hiding your pain’ now…
Meeting people outside the MJ bubble
can be ‘frustrating’ and
I guess the key is ‘don’t mention’ MJ…
Tough?
It sure is but also broadens your ‘perspective’
that you don’t need to drown yourself in grief…
There is a whole world out there to be discovered or
like Michael said…
“Let us take you to places you’ve never been before”
Does it take guts and courage?
Hell yeah… Once again, No pain… NO gain…
Sometimes, we have to walk through the waterfall
to see the paradise hidden behind it…
Of course, you need to ‘respect’ your pace in life and
find that ‘trigger’ in your mind that ‘blocks’ or
even better ‘stops’ the hurt, the anger, the guilt…
I can tell you…
It’s worth the effort as I still can’t believe…
I have the courage to go to College…
Meet new people… study and concentrate all day…
Knowing that ‘triggers’ will arise but I’m armed…
With what?
Stuff that ‘sooths’ your soul…
I can name all the things that sooth me but
they are ‘personal’ and they won’t necessarily help you,
the one who’s reading my ‘rant’ now…
However, these are my ‘coping skills’ these days…
I do every morning the same routine…
POP on Michael’s music and
fuel my soul with your energy…
So I can ‘rise and shine’.
I always have my MP3 Player which I nicknamed
“my life saver” with me, just as Plan B
If my battery goes ‘flat’ during the day…
I have a ‘fixed’ schedule of all the activities I’m doing…
College, household, leisure, friends, family…
All “scheduled” and this has become my “backbone” 
I “indulge” in learning NEW skills…
Also THRIVE and BRAG into the ones I already know…
This is how you BOOST your CONFIDENCE.
Brings you POSITIVE ENERGY
I also have the MISSION bestowed on me…
Care from my parents…
Write and publish my books…
Bring L.O.V.E back into the world…
Show people that
“Whatever you believe, you become”
- Copyrighted by DAZ-
Raise hell
“Raise hell”
Written by Daz…
Always inspired by MJ…
Scary title right but this is for me
a ‘personal’ quest to show people
what perseverance and passion can lead to…
The simple result is this ‘thriving’ Blog…
It’s NOT my intention to play
the ‘sympathy card’ here of ‘poor me’
I’m disabled and I’m running this blog…
You know by now,
how DARING I can be and
this blog is in a way also to prove the naysayers
that disabled people still have TALENTS…
Okay, I may be DIFFERENT but then again…
You wouldn’t have the joy of this Blog
if I wasn’t, right…
I know this is a ‘ramble’ blog but
I just wanted to reveal to you that Yeash,
I have a disability…
I can only type with two fingers and
my right hand needs a brace or it’s as wobbly
as a custard jelly but I had to scold my Doctor that
she had to FIX it cause
I’m after all a Resident Writer and
no ‘disability’ would make an end to it…
So, with this said and done…
I HOPE I can INSPIRE other people…
It’s NOT cause you’re DIFFERENT
that you don’t belong somewhere…
that you should weather and die…
NOPE, I see it as a TASK for more
ACCEPTANCE and RESPECT…
Or like Michael would do…
Bend something NEGATIVE into something
POSITIVE where you can INSPIRE people
to become better and happier…
Okay, I’ll shut up now…
Aouw…
-Written and Copyrighted by Daz-
January 2013.
Shine as Michael taught you
“Shine as Michael taught you”
Written by DAZ…
Inspired by MJ…
Welcome dear MJJC blog readers to 2013…
A NEW YEAR full of HOPE and NEW adventures…
January is also the month of ‘resolutions’
where you try to aim to make this a better year
than last year…
We all know that ‘resolutions’ are kind of ‘flimsy’ and
they get easily ‘ripped’ apart so
I came up with something different…
Heehee…
I do goals cause I believe goals are more realistic and
they are not forced like ‘resolutions’ are…
Like one is …
Always take care of your health…
Then again, they are empty words if
you don’t ACT instead of ‘brag’ about it…
So… My first goal is TIME TO SHINE…
My Blog here is the ‘proof’ of it…
by sharing my stories and reflections on here…
I’m sharing my light and hope it inspires you too…
Besides, MJJC Blog I created ‘Daz Productions’ too…
Right now, it’s only an FB page and a YT page yet…
I’m planning to create a full blown site
for the project that’s really near to my heart too
and that’s my ‘book project’…
I wrote a trilogy called “Scared” and
I’m now writing the final script of book one…
So, even when I’m not blogging,
I’m still with my head in a story…
My second goal is to SPREAD THE MESSAGE OF L.O.V.E…
which includes caring for one and other,
caring for the planet and
caring for our furry friends too…
This is an ‘inspirational’ thread that will
show you the FEEL of it…
http://www.mjjcommunity.com/forum/threads/122675-MJJC-Legacy-Team-Project-Planet-Earth
My third but evenly important goal is to
UPHOLD MICHAEL’S LEGACY….
by talking about how Michael ‘inspires’ me…
This is yet again a wonderful and uplifting thread to look up…
or this thread to show the world
what a GOOD Man he was…
http://www.mjjcommunity.com/forum/threads/82083-Standing-Together-For-Michael
or simply to note down
WHY we love Michael so much…
In a way that people will
DISCOVER this GENTLE Soul that left us too soon…
These are my goals of 2013 that
I will FIGHT for and COMPLETE
with all the DIGNITY and
L.O.V.E my heart and soul has to offer…
Take care,
Daz.
-Written and copyrighted by Daz-
January 2013.
Story review part three
“Story review Part Three”
By DAZ…
August
With the ‘open’ story abruptly being left to bleed dry…
I had to come up with a NEW thrilling story and
that’s always the thrilling part of creating…
That first moment when
your muse babbles excited about a new story…
I love that moment…
Since it was August …
I wanted to do a sequel to ‘Saved’ now called
MJJC Blog story “The light of the World”
where Flousy gets his Karma and
Michael can show the world what he’s made off…
I’m currently ‘pondering’ over if I would
‘publish’ this story as a book…
As you can see I love this story even more then
‘Heal me’…
It’s the BIG “what if” story line
that sometimes ‘haunts’ me…
September – December
Then September came along and
with the Job course I needed to follow
in the ‘real’ world…
I had to scroll back to ONE day blogging…
So, I chose MJJC Blog story “The LOST Boy”
which was exactly meant for the ‘Scared’ trilogy
but it didn’t make it to the final cut…
It’s like Michael records about 60 demos
where only about 14 are released…
I have shelves full of ‘thrown away’ demos and
‘different’ story lines…
I thought that ‘The LOST Boy’
had a SPECIAL message in it
to HONOR Michael and
that’s what this BLOG is all about…
So with January just around the corner,
I’m eager to know with what
new Thrilling story my muse is gonna pop up again…
Have a Blessed New year filled with
love, happiness and
above all a good health…
-Written DEC 28, 2012 – Copyrighted by DAZ-
Story review part two
“Story review Part Two”
By Daz…
April- May
MJJC Blog story featured “Stolen life”.
a story I had written in 2009 …
My muse was bugging me to publish it…
as it featured ‘nightmares’ though of
what happened…
There I did have the ‘courage’
to stand up to my muse and
insist that the story would have a ‘bliss’ ending
instead of the ‘nightmare’ ending it had in the Demo
as I just can’t seem to write
about Michael’s last hours…
I think I would NEVER be able too though…
It’s NOT that I can’t face reality
but I want Michael to be ALIVE in my stories
cause it’s the ONLY place where he’s so NEAR…
So, of course…
It’s NOT one of my favorites as you see…
It was ‘originally’ recorded as an ‘audio book’ …
June
Hanging up the laundry,
this story popped into my head as
I wanted to write a story that would connect
the Diehard fans with the newbie’s…
So, that’s how MJJC Blog “Awake” was born…
One of the stories I really enjoyed writing too…
Exactly the first that had a ‘female’ character as
‘Protagonist’ as I tend to have ONLY Male ‘Protagonists’…
July
Featured MJJC Blog story “HIStory”
that I wanted to ‘publish’ as an Interactive story but
got NO response to it so
It’s kind of an ‘open’ story…
This story was born on June 25…
I was with friends at the statue of BEST
where we honored Michael…
My muse came up with
this story to ‘comfort’ me…
“What would happen if the statue would come alive? “
-Written Dec 28, 2012- Copyrighted by Daz-
Story review part one
“Story review Part One ”
By Daz…
Okay, I had a year review ready…
it was too boring to sum up all the year events…
So, I’ll stick to what is important on MJJC blog…
ESCAPING into stories…
Giving you an ‘insight’ look of story writing
“Behind the scenes” …
January
MJJC Blog story featured “Heal me”
about Michael
returning to the earth plane
as an angel to heal the fans…
I was still missing Michael like crazy and
I just couldn’t wrap my brain around his loss
so I guess that’s why my muse came up
with this soothing story that kept me sweet all January…
I admit, it has an ‘awkward’ end but
my muse thought I was ‘nestling’ myself too much
into this story and so he put a STOP to it…
Muses hey…
February- March
had “The Promised Child”
as highlight on MJJC Blog …
Casper would always be 9…
That was a TOUGH story to write but then again
my muse insisted on putting it out there…
What made me ‘stick’ to the story was
my ‘admin’ loved the story so
I had to be ‘brave’ and finish it…
- Written December 2012- Copyrighted by DAZ-