Great thread!!
I relate to what reibish posted above. Things seem to pile up and can seem overwhelming. I lost my dog of 14 years last year and it's coming up to the anniversary of his passing. He was my best buddy and companion and a really gorgeous and intelligent dog and I saw he wasn't his usual self starting about 2 years before he died. I spent a lot of time and $ trying to figure it out--the vet said it was thyroid problems (low thyroid) but even with treatment, his conditions got worse not better and I got so frustrated with the vets. Now I blame myself for not taking him to a specialist, etc, etc etc, every little thing I didn't do right (I'm starting to cry now as I write this). One thing that helped me was saying to myself "It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all"--that love is a gift and so on and to look at all the beautiful happy times I had with him but I still feel sad. I buried his ashes in the same plot where my dad's ashes are and I go to visit them both. It's hard. When he died a few friends sent me a card and a couple of them helped me bury his ashes, but the next week, they were gone and I am in a sad, empty house. The first day after his death the house seemed so empty without him. Just a little guy of 45 pounds but such a presence. Actually, when you think of MJ only weighing 120 pounds or so--again a small guy weight-wise--look at the enormous impact and how that little guy influenced the WHOLE WORLD!! It's amazing!
It was hard to lose MJ and still put up with all the misinformation that people continue to spill out, not to mention these new allegations, IRS suit, etc etc, and all the divisions and infighting in the fan community has been really hard to take.
People around me think I'm nuts to love him as I do (both MJ and my dog too). They don't seem to understand the word GRIEF and how grieving a loss is deep and real. I am in grief.
Hugs to all. (Hope this wasn't too depressing a read.)
I relate to what reibish posted above. Things seem to pile up and can seem overwhelming. I lost my dog of 14 years last year and it's coming up to the anniversary of his passing. He was my best buddy and companion and a really gorgeous and intelligent dog and I saw he wasn't his usual self starting about 2 years before he died. I spent a lot of time and $ trying to figure it out--the vet said it was thyroid problems (low thyroid) but even with treatment, his conditions got worse not better and I got so frustrated with the vets. Now I blame myself for not taking him to a specialist, etc, etc etc, every little thing I didn't do right (I'm starting to cry now as I write this). One thing that helped me was saying to myself "It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all"--that love is a gift and so on and to look at all the beautiful happy times I had with him but I still feel sad. I buried his ashes in the same plot where my dad's ashes are and I go to visit them both. It's hard. When he died a few friends sent me a card and a couple of them helped me bury his ashes, but the next week, they were gone and I am in a sad, empty house. The first day after his death the house seemed so empty without him. Just a little guy of 45 pounds but such a presence. Actually, when you think of MJ only weighing 120 pounds or so--again a small guy weight-wise--look at the enormous impact and how that little guy influenced the WHOLE WORLD!! It's amazing!
It was hard to lose MJ and still put up with all the misinformation that people continue to spill out, not to mention these new allegations, IRS suit, etc etc, and all the divisions and infighting in the fan community has been really hard to take.
People around me think I'm nuts to love him as I do (both MJ and my dog too). They don't seem to understand the word GRIEF and how grieving a loss is deep and real. I am in grief.
Hugs to all. (Hope this wasn't too depressing a read.)
