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    The 16th July 2009, the day that my dreams came true!

    My only dream was to see Michael Jackson live in concert, and when I became a fan and years later in March 2009, I heard he was going to do some more concerts, you can imagine my excitement and delight. After a lot of hassle, I eventually got tickets, and I was counting down the days until 3:45pm July 16th when me, my brother, his girlfriend and my boyfriend were going to be on the way to see him.

    Why did God have to take him? Why did he leave?

    My heart broke on that night when we heard the dreadful news. I refused to believe it, I didn't care that TMZ reported it, I wasn't going to accept it until BBC confirmed it. Then I knew there was no hope. My heart was beating so fast, I felt physically sick, I choked on my own tears. And when BBC confirmed it I knew it was all over, all gone.

    I keep thinking that it's all a bad dream. Yesterday morning I woke in a fit of excitement only to find everything flooding back to me. Yesterday was meant to be the best day of my LIFE, but now it was the WORST. Now I keep thinking "it's okay, it's okay, you've got tickets in February too" and I have to keep thinking that it's not okay, this is not some horrible nightmare, this is reality.

    Michael inspired me like no other. For some people, it's crazy to feel this great shock and loss, no one understands but the people on here. I have never looked back from when I was 13 and heard You Rock My World on MTV; from that moment I was hooked on him, I collected everything, listened to him all the time, watched him as often as I could, my room was full of posters and defended him against all of my friends at school when the trial begun.

    I want to believe in a God.. I want to be able to see Michael and all the others I've lost up in Heaven one day, but if there really was a God then why did he take him? Heaven doesn't need him, WE need him, RIGHT HERE, it's not fair. This world needs Michael, we need him to help spread his love, his innocence, we need to hear his voice and listen to his music and believe once again that there is good in this world.

    This past two years have SUCKED. I have lost my brother, my dog, Michael my greatest inspiration, and now my 91-year old Nan has had to go into hospital with a tumour.

    Why does life suck sometimes so much?

    I know there is light at the end of the tunnel. But at the moment it's blocked by a blanket of loss and despair.

    Now my aim is to do well at work, and raise a family, and teach my children what real love is, tell them all about Michael and what a shock to the world it was when he left this place.


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    I know everything really suck right now, but all I've got to say is... Hang in there. You'll get through it. Somehow we all will.
    Don't ask me how, I'm just as lost and hurt as you are. But just know we are here for you. We really need to support each other right now.

    I was going to see him next week. I'm really not looking forward to the pain I will feel that night. I just can't understand that he's gone. I'm falling apart as well.
    But I guess God actually needed him more than we did. I can't imagine how that's possible. I'm really sorry to hear about your brother, dog and nanny. Let's just hope it will all get better soon. I really don't know what to say other then that.
    Like I said, hang in there. I will try to do so as well.

    Just remember, we will always love you most
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    I'm so sorry. I know you must be so sad and dissapointed, but we must all work together to help keep MJ's leagacy alive. I feel like that's really important right now. We have to try to remain strong although it's very hard. I know it is for me anyway.

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    *hugs* swirly!!!
    Lots of strength to your nan and you and your whole family and my best wishes.

    I am sorry you couldn't experience Michael live... what a bunch of energy he always was on stage, amazing. But at least you could experience being a fan... experience his music, experience all the joy he brought us.

    I feel Michael was a gift to us.

    And honestly I clearly do not think God took him away... he welcomed him with open arms I'm sure... maybe a bit worried about all the Michaelmania in heaven now... but he was there when Michael left to welcome him.
    Michaels death... as many many deaths in this world... were caused by humans. That wasn't Gods will.
    So don't really worry about that. There is a God and a very good one. We might do not always understand him but then again that's why we need to have faith.

    Yes Michael is not with us anymore but I do believe he is where it's all good for him... nothings hurting anymore and nothing will ever hurt him again.

    We're still here... looks a bit as if we're left behind... then again it wasn't Michaels will to leave also I believe.
    So I'm with Cinnamon strongly here, now it is up to us... to at least give a little bit from the immense we got from Michael... we have to give it to the world and yes especially to our children and maybe their children. They'll not have the blessing anymore to have lived in the time and area of Michael Jackson... we have to pass that on... we have to keep his legacy. Hang in there... we're sticking together... and we'll be strong again.
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    Thank you so much for your support *hugs*
    Love you and miss you Michael

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    Quote Originally Posted by swirly View Post
    Thank you so much for your support *hugs*
    Hang in there swirly, you can do it! :better:

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    I feel for all the fans ofcourse, but i feel even more for those who were supposd to have seen him these couple of days. Hang in there


    Im so glad I got to experience you when you were with us, i love and miss you forever MJ

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    I'm supposed to be seeing him tonight. All day i've been thinking 'I should be on the train now' or ' I would be getting to the hotel now' and I know it's gonna get so much worse when it gets to the time the concert would have been starting. Like you said, today would have been, without a doubt, the best day of my life. And instead im sat at home feeling almost as bad as i did on June 25th, it seems to only really be hitting me now, on the day i should have finally been eeing him. Ever since i was young it has been my dream to see him, I just can't believe how close I was. And then I realise how selfish I am being and I hate myself when i think of his poor children, and how much worse this must be for them.

    I don't know what to do. There's nothing i can do i suppose. My only comfort is knowing there are many others out there feeling the same.



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    Thank you everyone for your support. Thursday was a bad, bad day, Friday too, but Saturday is a little better. I hope you can try and keep busy tonight Laura (that's what I tried to do). I know how it feels to keep looking at the clock though and saying "I would be.. I should be..".

    I do feel selfish too sometimes, but I guess there is a little bit of that in every fan here, "why did it have to happen", "why THEN", "why did He take him" .. But it's true we must think of Michael's family, children and close friends. God bless them (and us)
    Love you and miss you Michael

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    Quote Originally Posted by swirly View Post
    Thank you everyone for your support. Thursday was a bad, bad day, Friday too, but Saturday is a little better. I hope you can try and keep busy tonight Laura (that's what I tried to do). I know how it feels to keep looking at the clock though and saying "I would be.. I should be..".
    Thankyou. I can't believe I should be sat in the O2 right now. Glad you are feeling a little better today



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    I was supposed to have gone Thursday and tonight. Just totally bummed sitting here. I'm not even emotional...it goes so much deeper than that. Just horrible. *hugs everyone*
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    Quote Originally Posted by Laura_MJfan View Post
    Thankyou. I can't believe I should be sat in the O2 right now. Glad you are feeling a little better today
    It's so difficult isn't it It's weird because we can't even take reference from the first concert to imagine what it might have been like.. We don't know what time he would have got on stage, whether he would have been late, who you would be watching while you were waiting for him.. All I could picture at the time was me sitting there with my MJ t-shirt I bought especially bouncing in my seat with all the excitement in the world

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    I was supposed to have gone Thursday and tonight. Just totally bummed sitting here. I'm not even emotional...it goes so much deeper than that. Just horrible. *hugs everyone*
    *hugs Stacey* You were feeling the pain like me on Thursday then .. Totally bummed out, it was so depressing I hope tomorrow is a brighter day for you both
    Love you and miss you Michael

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    Quote Originally Posted by swirly View Post
    It's so difficult isn't it It's weird because we can't even take reference from the first concert to imagine what it might have been like.. We don't know what time he would have got on stage, whether he would have been late, who you would be watching while you were waiting for him.. All I could picture at the time was me sitting there with my MJ t-shirt I bought especially bouncing in my seat with all the excitement in the world



    *hugs Stacey* You were feeling the pain like me on Thursday then .. Totally bummed out, it was so depressing I hope tomorrow is a brighter day for you both
    Yeah, it's awful. Thankyou, and I hope it is for you too.
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    Let us know how you are feeling tomorrow, stay strong
    Love you and miss you Michael

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    Default Re: I was meant to see Michael last night..

    :hug: for you swirly I know, we should have been so excited by now.

    I still can't believe what has happened I know I will feel awful on 3rd august when I was meant to go.

    I think I might do something that day, something fun. Maybe I will take the kids to the zoo, they would love that....and Michael loved the zoo I will need to do something, because the depression will be too much
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