Petals
Proud Member
Hello friends!
I hope it's ok starting a new thread about my feelings!
I just wanted to say how sad I (still) am. It's a terrible feeling, and I know I'm not the only one. I know you all are suffering too!
"Oh boy", I used to come here to read the news, search for new MJ pics, talk about how gorgeous and sexy he is/was (damnit) at the Man in the mirror forum. That was fun!! I loved to read people's comments, I laughed at the girl's comments on Mike pics. Now I dont even go to the Man in the mirror forum anymore! No! I just cant go there! :no: Unless I'm searching for a certain picture. But its not fun anymore. :no:
GOD!!! We were supposed to talk about the shows!!!! I was waiting for these shows like a child waits for the Christmas morning!! :boohoo: And I was not sad at all because I could not go to London. Sometimes people would tell me "oh I'm sorry you're not gonna see MJ live" and I was like "noooo waaayyy!!! dont need to be sorry!! I'm VERY happy just for the fact that Michael is gonna dance and sing on stage again!!"
And I REALLY was!! Just like you all of course!! I knew I would be crying like a baby when Michael steped on stage LIVE to perform again!
But now I'm crying for another reason... I would NEVER have imagined it. NEVER! :boohoo:
Sometimes I wonder to myself if this is ok to be so so sad because of an artist that didnt even know I exist! Sometimes I feel a little "guilty", not sure if this is the right word, but I feel like I shouldnt be suffering this much!! :boohoo: Do you know what I mean? I hope so!
I read some brazilian BS that Michael is alive! DUH! How can people say something like that?? But you know what?? Deep inside me I wish it was true!! And then I caught myself thinking "what if he really is?"!! Of course he is not, damn!
I'm still in a huge pain! HUGE! :boohoo: :no:
Oh! Let me take this oportunity to apologize if I didnt behave. If ever offended ANY of you, forgive me! It's a crazy mix of feelings, u know? And sometimes I cant control my sadness, my anger and etc. It's just too much!
Thank you for listening!
"...I'm gonna need some kind of sign..." :angel:
I hope it's ok starting a new thread about my feelings!
I just wanted to say how sad I (still) am. It's a terrible feeling, and I know I'm not the only one. I know you all are suffering too!
"Oh boy", I used to come here to read the news, search for new MJ pics, talk about how gorgeous and sexy he is/was (damnit) at the Man in the mirror forum. That was fun!! I loved to read people's comments, I laughed at the girl's comments on Mike pics. Now I dont even go to the Man in the mirror forum anymore! No! I just cant go there! :no: Unless I'm searching for a certain picture. But its not fun anymore. :no:
GOD!!! We were supposed to talk about the shows!!!! I was waiting for these shows like a child waits for the Christmas morning!! :boohoo: And I was not sad at all because I could not go to London. Sometimes people would tell me "oh I'm sorry you're not gonna see MJ live" and I was like "noooo waaayyy!!! dont need to be sorry!! I'm VERY happy just for the fact that Michael is gonna dance and sing on stage again!!"
And I REALLY was!! Just like you all of course!! I knew I would be crying like a baby when Michael steped on stage LIVE to perform again!
But now I'm crying for another reason... I would NEVER have imagined it. NEVER! :boohoo:
Sometimes I wonder to myself if this is ok to be so so sad because of an artist that didnt even know I exist! Sometimes I feel a little "guilty", not sure if this is the right word, but I feel like I shouldnt be suffering this much!! :boohoo: Do you know what I mean? I hope so!
I read some brazilian BS that Michael is alive! DUH! How can people say something like that?? But you know what?? Deep inside me I wish it was true!! And then I caught myself thinking "what if he really is?"!! Of course he is not, damn!
I'm still in a huge pain! HUGE! :boohoo: :no:
Oh! Let me take this oportunity to apologize if I didnt behave. If ever offended ANY of you, forgive me! It's a crazy mix of feelings, u know? And sometimes I cant control my sadness, my anger and etc. It's just too much!
Thank you for listening!
"...I'm gonna need some kind of sign..." :angel: