I just wish I could fast forward to Saturday.I'm dreading tomarrow.Physically sick.A year later,and I've still not accepted it.It's so tiring,but it's how I feel.I just can't imagine a world without Michael, it's like the joy has been sucked out of my world.There will always be a piece of me missing.I would have given anything to take his pain away.Anything.That's what hurts me the most,that he suffered so much time and time again,why?Why should he have gone through so much in his life?The kindest,sweetest human being ever.How I wish I could just for a minute hug him,and tell him I love him.My heart breaks at how he was going through so much on the inside,but never once lashed out and always had that beautiful smile on his face,no matter what.I know that he's in a better place,away from this cruel,terrible world and he's no longer in pain,but I still feel empty.I'm so,so grateful for places like this where everyone understands my feelings,and can relate.It's so hard not having too many people around you in your life, who don't feel the same.Hugs to everyone. (((HUGS)))