cass sweetie,you are in my prayers and your family too.
I know it is easier to say than to do...believe me i know it so well...But try to think positive and having faith.
I do believe miracles can happen.
I believe in God and in all His powers,and i know that everything happens for a reason,even if sometimes we can't see it or understand it.
If i'm allowed to give you an advice sweet one,Put your life in God hands.Ask Him to help you going through all this.(that is what i do everyday,and i really believe it helps a lot).
But Also important...you are not alone!i'm here for you anytime you need me.
Please take care.tight hugs