After a very strange twisting confusing discussion, Dylan and I are back together. We both really thought that was it, the end. But I guess both of us cannot deny that we still love each other no matter how difficult our lives can be.
Thank you for being a very good friend, Kate. I really appreciate to know someone like you.
*usagi puts on her bunny ears and hops around.!!* :bunny:
(heehee) Hop hop hop hoppy hop! *giggles* :lol:
Hai, watashi mo genki desu! Arigato, sweet sis! :huggy:
Take care and good luck with school! Bye byes!
*hops into the sunset* :lol::bunny:
Well I had a long discussion with Dylan yesterday. We have officially broke up.
He has proposed the idea since last week. But I couldn't accept it.
It is too difficult for him to live without me. 3 years of distant relationship. Waiting is painful.
I apologized to him for giving him too many promises that I haven't yet fulfilled.
Deep down we both still love each other but time does not permit us to be together.
But he asked if it's possible for us to stay friends. Best friends.
I said yes, it would be nice. But it takes time to face and accept the reality that he is no longer my man.
It is sad. I really believe that he is the one for me. Same thing for him as well.
I'm not sure how I can continue without thinking of him. Knowing that I still love him, that he is lonely and not doing well. Even though that I know he could possibly move on with his life without worries.
He has told me so many times that I have to find someone else. He said that I'm good looking etc that I do not need to worry to find someone else. I could care less about looks etc. I'm an old school type of guy who believes in one relationship till the end of life. To get married etc. To find Mr. Right. But a lot of gay guys just want to have fun to death.
Just to let you know Kate, I'm haven't been 'touched'. I'm saving myself for the one.
I joked at him that i should sell myself at Ebay or Amazon yesterday. We both laughed sadly.
But on a serious note, I once told him that if I cannot find the right one, then I shall stay virgin for the rest of my life.
I'm tired of falling in love.
But "What if". I still have hopes to be with Dylan. But I shall keep it quiet to myself and see where time will lead us both.
To be honest, my English is rusty lol. My bf said I am too lazy to use proper English nowadays lol. Your English is very impressive though.
Regarding to my bf, I hope so too. Apparently he has a skin disease on his leg. His doctor told him to seek further treatment on his leg or he might end up losing his leg. It is not a short term treatment. His leg needs to be under treatment for the rest of his life.
I'm very positive to move abroad nonetheless I think it will take some time before I can fulfill it as I have a business and clients in here to manage. I wish I can just shove my business and clients into a luggage and take them with me just like that but it's not as easy as it seems. So I have to do it slowly, one step at a time.
Well I have noticed you since MJJF as well. I also think you're mature and fun to be friend with. So it's great to have you as a friend.
Well my dad saw something but I guess I'm lucky as he didn't wear his glasses at the time. So he wasn't sure what he was seeing. As he couldn't conclude what he saw, he's finally talking me to me again now.
Well you can call me Rebirth in the forum and JJ in personal conversation if you want.
Nice to meet you Caty. Always great to know and to have good friend. :0)