Thank you Ferrari. And I know you mean well and stuff. But I am only like this because it is really taking it's toll on me. That I have not been able to listen to Michael for months now. And I really miss not being able to do that. And worst yet I can no longer watch him. Without having that huge fear that I could suffer another panic attack if I do try to watch him again. And I can't even begin to tell you how much I hate seeing all of my MJ video related stuff collecting dust. And there is absolutely nothing I can do about that. Since I don't even want to go near them. Let alone touch them. And at one time I used to go crazy. If I see the most littlest bit of dust on them. Now I don't even care anymore. At least Bollywood, Dr. Who, and my video and computer games has help bring some joy in to my constant miserable life. Since I can no longer get that joy from Michael anymore. :boohoo
Oh, that's not so cool. :no: ... You should see it from the positive side, you have more time to look forward to it.
Thanks. .. I catched a little cold, so it's not so great, but it's okay. ... I hope you have some time to realx too.