Hi Seb, just want to drop you a line my love. i been busy on here reading old threads and things.. i feel like i have missed out on so much stuff cos i never discovered MJJC before MJ left us. i feel guilty cos of that.i feel like two people at the moment, me at work and my everyday life, getting on for the sake of it and then theres me at home, at night when my kids have gone to bed, thats when i come here, thats when i cry. i'm finding it so hard to hold things together but i have to ya see. Seb, i feel like i might just crack up and i don't know why, i can't irrationalise it, i never knew Michael, i never met him so why the hell do i feel like this? i have no one around me that feels the same as me and i feel lost and alone, so bloody alone and its hurts so bloody much. ya see i'm supposed to be a responsible adult, a mother of 2 in her 40's and not being so silly but i can't help what i feel.
kind regards and respect claire