J5....I'm both weakest and with barely feelable bits of strength..or illusion. There are no words...no words. The pain will never go away..I just have to live with it. All these years paining and worrying..I would've never imagined this time will come too soon..not him, not now...he was almost there, ready to entertain and teach again..I even thought the enemies were getting fewer at some point..his children now..too much to conceive or bear...I hope he finally is in the peace and light he couldn't never fully find here...Take care and be strong for me too, please, Y...love, A..