leaving you some love
I understand your feelings
it breaks my heart to read all
the speculation and attacks
I feel very uneasy about it
I want to focus on the beautful
things about MJ but even those threads
get hijacked into accusations of everyone
who knew Michael _ I hope our board gets
back to focusing on Michael instead of witch
hunts _ and I hope you will return soon to help
us do that_ luv yu, :huggy: Mickie
Yepp, I know what you mean.
What I found funniest was how when the photos and the clip of him rehearsing appeared, everyone, EVERYONE agreed that they were proof Michael was perfectly fine and he was murdered... and now, those same people are going: "I knew there was something wrong with him, he didn't look well at all!!!" :rolleyes2:
I swear, people see what they are told to see...
Though I read about everything that's posted, I haven't put as much effort into understanding what happened...it's pointless now, and it's most likely we'll never know either...too many parties with conflicting interests involved...
I just know I miss Michael terribly....
Yeah, can't wait for a proper vacation The past month has been nothing but ongoing stress.
I feel old though, starting Uni :mello:
Changing the subject a bit - do you know anything about chaos? I know he was supposed to go to Pakistan this summer, but nothing more. I wrote him an email after this whole mess started, but haven't heard from him since. I have barely been on MSN these past months, and (as usual) whenever I was on, he wasn't. So we've barely kept in touch this year.
Putting it short - if you know something I don't, please let me in on it :lol:
I know what you mean about time. It is indeed time-consuming, these past few months when I haven't been online I've been asking myself how on earth did I manage to spend so much time on the forum in the past years, lol.
The only difference is that I stopped coming cause of studies, not for social reasons, it never really affected my social life.
But you were the "big bad mod" as well, so it was a bit more difficult for you, I guess
Right now I need to be here though; at least until we know something about the autopsy/toxicology results, and about the future of those kids. Along with this suffocating pain, there's also a lot of fear in my heart. For his family, his legacy, his private life, everything. I know there is nothing I can do about them, but I can't help worrying.
I know it's not the same, many people have left and the atmosphere is far from the one from 2 years ago.
Yet being here has helped me beyond words. Not just the forum itself, but also seeing many of the "oldies" from mjjforum. That's why it saddens me to hear that you are once again leaving.
Not get me wrong, I'm not saying it in an angry way or anything close to that. I know how difficult it is for everyone. It just saddens me, that's all.
Oh, shut up, you need a bunch of hugs yourself :hug: :hug: :hug: You've always been our mommy, but I know this is affecting you at least just as much.
It's incredible how I still can't get it through my head that he...is somewhere else. It's like waking up in a nightmare every day.
I am so greatful for this forum and the people I've got to know over the years, I'd be done for without you guys :hug:
thank you so mutch...
we see here again
I have to go work... someone else dont understand that my feelings & pain is true...
they think that is only a bad news, I feel like Michael it was my family¡¡¡¡
Incluted in my home, everyone its sad, its like Michael gone with the good times of this generation...(w)
see you latter
hey, thanks for acept my add
I be new in the site, but not new love MJ...
so I'm trying to understand this pain inside on me
and need someone else to feell like me, I cant sleep cince de 25th july
I cant belived, I cant stop to cry...
But the best part was this: during the interview, they would sometimes stop to show scenes from the Private Home Movies, or from LWMJ, the scenes where Michael talks about his children being his biggest treasure (showed the recent pics from TMZ too), about the loneliness in his life and how he was forced to not live a normal life, all the good stuff. I got tears in my eyes again watching these images.
And at the end, the guy that was invited thanked them for showing these scenes, because people need to know Michael the human, who he really was, and that no one speaks of his life more beautifully than he does.
The presenter had tears in her eyes, she was very moved by Michael's relationship with his children.
I'm so so glad that someone finally made a step into presenting Michael as he really was. It filled my heart with joy. I'm only sorry it wasn't at a different hour, most people don't watch the news in the afternoon, lol.
You know, for the first time, I felt slightly comforted today...
I've always hated the press here, how they pick up any lousy piece of "news" and then broadcast it (not that they've stopped now). But one channel in particular has been very decent ever since the news came in, and today they were at their peek.
They called a local pop star who was known to be a HUGE fan (btw,I've been a fan of the guy ever since I was in kindergarten, lol) and asked him to talk about Michael and how he felt about him. Now, the guy talked like any loyal member on this board. Just BEAUTIFUL! You could see he loved Michael with all his heart and never ceased to believe in him. I'm really glad they called him.
All I know is that a local radio station was highly jammed with calls from fans crying and asking for confirmation about Michael's death. It's a pity we don't have a decent local community or a club in Malaysia. I know Michael has a huge followers in here but they all scattered without connection to each other as a community.
I finally managed to listen to Michael's upbeat songs. I have been playing his slow songs since yesterday and sobbed through them.
But ah, it's hard to believe that he is gone now. I don't think I can swallow it as a fact forever.
aw my friend, thts really sweet of u. im still in shock, watching moonwalker just now, michaels kickin everyones ass in smooth criminal at the moment lol awesome! they'll never be another like him. hugs!
Well I also returned due to Michael's death. Never thought I would return due to this.
I'm doing okay. My boyfriend has officially broke up with me but we are still best friends and communicating with each other everyday on Skype. Although sometimes he hinted that our relationship is not over. It can be hard and confusing sometime.
Are you planning to attend Michael's funeral if they going to have one? I hope I can attend but unfortunately it depends on my work schedule.
So far I failed to find one decent fan from Malaysia in MJJC. I was hoping that I can gather fans from Malaysia for a vigil and such.
Good God, you're back!
Well, seems like most people are returning now...
Hope you're okay (...leaving aside what happened...), I'm glad to see you again.
And may we find the power the endure the pain of losing him. I'm still in denial...and will probably continue being a long time from now.
I hope you are ok, well as ok as any of us are. I've been going between shock, to being extremely upset and crying to getting angry, to back to shock. You aren't alone, and I...I just...I'm at a loss for words.
hi L.J! I am doing fine.. I just worked 5 hours and tommorow I work 10 so I am a little tired zzzz.. Its good to be on MJJC and take a break. I love the smiley on your page, it is so cute! hope you are doing well too Keep Michaeling
Oh, great thanks. I think I know what's causing those problems. I sure will use that feature you showed me now, funnily enough, I discovered it on another board about 3 days ago yet using it on here didn't even cross my mind. So thanks again for your help and take care!