I'm sorry about the chatroom. I entered, then I had to go right away even before anyone answered my "hi". Then I forgot I was even in there but I read what you wrote when I returned and I have to say, I feel exactly the same way, except I am still at 10%/90%. Again, I am sorry you were talking to yourself in there while I was gone. :hug: please take care... and also it does make it easier feeling that way (denial..)