Sweetheart, I'm so sorry that you have this feeling. Unfortunately I have no sure advice. I read your words and I can hear your pain, I know how you feel because I felt it too. The death of Michael does not get any easier as days pass. In fact it seems to get worse. For me anyway. I have trouble sleeping, eating, and I seem to be very depressed. This death has shaken me to my core. I cry uncontrolably and have a hard time even watching a video of his.
I need him more than ever. I love him so much. He is my love, my life. He is everything to me. I can't live without him. I'm going insane. I can't live like that.. I can't believe he is gone. I don't know what else to do.. I want to leave and I don't know where to go. I wish I died with him. :weeping:
I can't promise that things will ever get better but I can offer you some love and support. You are not alone dear friend. I am here for you, as I know you are here for me. God bless you. Lots of love and BIG HUG is going to you from me!
Thank you so much.
Yeah. He is an amazing man, a magic man... he is the most beautiful man in the whole world. He will always be beautiful in my eyes. I love him so much! I can't imagine life without him, and me loving another man. And no one can replace my baby.
I'm still so very sad, crying and not being able to control my tears. It really is hard for me. I don't want to live like this, without my true love, the love of my life. None of my friends understands me. They all think I'm crazy crying for Michael. Michael is my love, since I was a little toddler, I loved him. I love him so much that it hurts. I don't know what to do. I need him... so much. I just want him back. Here with me. :weeping::weeping::weeping:
I'm sorry. I know how you feel. I know we must be strong, but it's so hard! I can't accept the fact Michael is gone. I will never accept it. I'm still crying so much. My heart aches so much it's difficult to breath. I am shattered and broken to write anything else right now. :weeping:
Its amazing isn't it how Michael means so so SO much to so many people! Yet what we see in the papers is mostly negative.. how is that? He knew he had the love from fans, but like you say, we'll never know if he knew just how much and just how true the love for him was.
aw, eaxctly , well your welcome hun , nice to meet you , even though we might have known each other in a preeeeevuios life .dunno :lol: ooh you put it so well hun ! yep yep to all you said there , i do agree . seeee you write deeply , thats cool .
i like to think of mjjc as a biiiiig family , it realy has a certain ~unity in this community and they do live up to their word , the mods do protect to be honest .
im glad you were touched becuase its the truth , i tend to make friends with people who have touched me with their posts , in one way or another , or the screen name or maybe the eyecatching pictures ..um , it depends realy ~its always nice to get to know other mjj fans ,but i dooo feel like i know you ~i dont know why i will pm you my msn anyways if youd like hun can have a natter some time cos i have to get off of here quite soon , so.. i take it you either LOve coffee or hate it :lol:
very well could be , and thats a realy nice explanation ..your posts , well they stand out , theres some posts you have wrote which realy ..they are very touching , you kno the ones where we get to yappachatt to michael all in michaelmania that section , its lovely to hear you like mjjc , its a wondeful fan board , the random thoughts people are espescially nice i find , this is my like...mm, second home after mjno, mjno being my very first mjj board back in 06 :wub:
to tell you the truth i felt the same ..a bit ..hmm , your avvy is attracting also , lol . i was on mjno before it went away yonks ago , im a member of mjjb also . i dont yapp to alot of people though *shy* welcome to mjjc by the way, its nice here isnt it ..um your avvy is very beautiful ..
did you draw this ? ...cor blimey ... questions questions wendi !..