Who's doing ok now?

[Mizz Mina]

I can feel you on that. I've been drinking water but I just cant eat

 

[Mizz Mina]

I wish they stop saying Michael Jackson is dead every where i go. It just sounds so heartless and cold. they can say passed away or something. i hate this.

 

[SoS]

I'm ok. I try hard to do what I feel MJ would do, or want. That has helped me cope.

Other than that, just depends on what's going on, what ppl are talking about or what I'm talking about. I catch myself in mid sentence just as fine and can be then unable to finish the sentence without crying wretched and bitter tears.

I thank my God above that I had no place to go for the last two days. I would have been completely unfunctional.

 

[Mizz Mina]

Good Night everybody. I gotta go

 

[xo_lola_xo]

Man I don't know what to do. Nothing can erase this pain, nothing, nothing, nothing.

 

[Strawberry]

i cant eat either

 

[Starlight]

I feel better after sponsoring a child from Chile. I did what Michael would love us to do and the acceptance of his death came into my heart. I grieve but the healing proecess already started. I started eating, I smile and feel in peace between cries. I so much in the given situation

 

[MJJ2theMAX]

how did this happen? im totally devastated

he was so looking forward to doing these shows, performing again and infront of his kids. the fact he never got to do this will haunt me forever

 

[blanket05]

doing well? how can I?
Not me, at this time!

 

[starone_angel]

No! I am doing worst!

 

[MJSOPRECIOUS]

Well i've been crying on and off and for the past few nights i have had drinks just to put me to sleep. And today i have listened to some of his music but it's so hard because i start to think of how he was when he died and it rips me apart.

 

[Eichhoerndli]

I heard about it on Friday morning on the radio. I had to check the internet to make sure, and then I couldn't stop crying. But I had to go to work, and was constantly on the verge of tears. Every radio station was playing Michael Jackson all day. When I was home again I broke down crying and watching the news.

I feel better now, though I still can't believe it. Sometimes I believe there's a way to turn back time, that's when I feel ok. But then reality hits me again.

I constantly listen to his music, now more than ever.

 

[Laura_Jo]

My grief has just changed shape: instead of constant crying I feel numb with a heavy heavy heart that weighs me down. I haven't been able to listen to his music, cannot watch the programmes about him, daren't look at the news. I feel so low. Only time in my life when I have felt similar was when my first love broke up with me. I loved him so much and knew that he loved me but circumstances were difficult. Still I would not have given up. I think I cried every day for 8 months. That 4.00 am waking, feeling like part of your soul has died, that is the same.

The difference though is that I had hope then that things might change - we could get back together or I might eventually meet someone else. Please don't think this sounds like a trivial comparison because it was really the worst time in my life until now and I am 26 and this was when I was 17. But with Michael, nothing is going to change, he will never be alive again. We will never see pictures or hear him walking along singing 'Smile'. I find this hard to cope with. I'm not going to commit suicide or anything like that because I could not do it to my family, but in a way I look forward to death because then I will meet him and I will understand everything. I know that life is precious but really it is just not the same knowing he no longer walks this earth with us. My heart aches for the children as well - their unimaginable pain. The eldest ones are old enough to understand so they will really feel every second. It is so, so sad. I can't find any relief other than when am with friends and I might forget what has happened for a few seconds.

If anyone has found any comfort please share. Love all xx

 

[Misayko]

i feel worse and worse, because first i just didnt get it into my head.
im now realizing it. its true and i just cant eat or do anything..
im just crying and crying..

 

[Janesko72]

If anyone has found any comfort please share. Love all xx

He is in a place where he cant be hurt by people who hate him. He is in a place where he is love and isnt judged.

 

[Experience the magic]

Although it is all still surreal to me, I am doing ok. I am listening to his music and when I saw what went on in the philippenes and in london, the dances, the spontanious moonwalks in the street, I couldn't help but smile.
For once the streets aren't dominated by negativity, but are coloured by fans all over the world who celebrate the legacy of the man who has been a part of so many lives for so long. I gives me strenght and I feel blessed to have been a part of what can only be decribed as a magical experience.

The one thing that does throw me off my feet are all these messages of fans taking their own lives. I cannot bare the thought of Michael and his family feeling responsible for the loss of these lives.

 

[pianoman04]

Hang in there guys. If you have ever lost anyone close to you, try to remember how you got through it. Trust me, you can do it and if you feel like you can't please go and talk to someone. I know we all thought of michael as being invincible but inside he was still a mortal man just like the rest of us. We are all truly fragile beings and this world is but a temporary home for all of us. If anyone needs to talk please pm me.

 

[The One.]

I don't know.
I feel calm and I'm over the first shock, I think. But I don't think about it very much either. I don't know am I deniying the truth? I just don't think about it, and when I do - it feels so strange. I have this empty feeling in my stomach.
I listened to Michael's music yesterday and I just didn't feel anything. Not sadness but not very much joy either.
I think I'm getting better but I'm not totally used to this feeling yet. Feeling of living without Michael.

ps. Especially thinking of his children, TII and the last rehearsals makes tears come to my eyes.

 

[AdamBa17]

I've accepted it, but I still can't bring myself to listen to his music or watch videos really.

I think that will come with time though.

 

[beccalovesmj]

i can just about listen to him today but i still cry
i'm never gonna be ok

 

[Laura_MJfan]

I'm so heartbroken. Michael is always on my mind (even when he was alive). I am 15 years old and I will miss him and cry for him for the rest of my life. I wish I didn't see this day.

I am 17 and can't imagine spending the rest of my life without him there. It just seems like such a long time to spend without him, after such a short time with him here.

 

[prismsagainst5live]

i know how you feel, i'm 19, such a long time to go before seeing him again. But you know what, we have many years in which to spread michael's love and help heal the world. I only became a fan 2 years ago - the best 2 years of my life, once you've been touched by michael's love, you've been be blessed for life.

 

[Rebirth]

I think in a way, I am okay now but:

• Can't help to feel empty inside. Part of me died when he passed away.

• Michael's death has changed me a little if not a lot

• Life will be never be the same anymore without Michael

• I'm not in the mood to talk to anyone unless it is truly necessary like work etc.

• I am pissed off with God, if there is any. You have failed miserably this time. Big F for you. Pardon me, I am agnostic.

Most of the time I feel normal because I do not think much about Michael's death. Not in denial but I can't help sometimes to imagine and act that he is still alive.

But sometimes I sighed, "Why did you have to go so early, Mike? You better come back"

I try to think happy thoughts of Michael and try to distract myself with my work and social life. But it can be hard. Too hard sometimes.

To think of it, maybe I am still not that OK yet.

 

[dangerous2000watts]

I'm OK today but can't sleep
That's the problem.

It's 2 in the morning here.
Can't stop reading posts on here

Just don't want to be alone

 

[L.T.D]

I feel quite a bit better today I must admit. I spent all Friday watching his videos so I could cry.