Because of me still suffering from severe depression, anxiety/panic attacks, insomnia, and horrific nightmares all from what had happen to him. It is something I really don't like to think about it. But whenever I see a sky full of clouds whether in real life, picture form, or on tv. It usually brings the tears on for me. And I can't help but to think of what he could be doing. Especially since after what happen to him I was forced to go back to my Christian religion. After being a long time atheist. I really had no choice if I want to be in the same place where Michael is now. One of the things I tend to think about. Is that he is always playing and just having fun with all the children that had died.