A new poem that I´ve created on 25th of June 2011. I felt very sad when I wrote it:
Mourning
You´re gone from this world,
it´s hard to accept.
Every time I think about you,
my heart feels protect.
You were the sunshine in my life.
You gave me strength when I was weak.
Every time I took a sharp knife
I´ve tried to find the peace I used to seek.
You´re still here, I know that for sure.
You´re in my mind 24 hours a day.
Your music, so everlasting, so pure,
is comforting my soul, but I fear that I betray.
Sometimes I feel so lost in that world.
No one even tries to understand.
My feelings are completely disturbed,
and I´m not able to defend.
Why are you gone,
why am I not able to accept?
I need you more than ever -
But I feel trapped.
The way I´ve chosen - is it right?
Will I be able to find a light?
This pain is so strong, I´ve got sleepless nights.
I feel very weak, but I do still fight.
Fight for you, Michael, as you´ve taught me before.
But without singing, sorry, I swore.
I know you´ll understand the words I write.
It´s difficult to explain, and it´s late here, it´s night.
A new chapter of my life has begun two years ago.
I don´t know what the future brings - but who does really know?
My fears, my despair, are prevailing my life.
I try to stay strong. Allah, help me to survive.
Allah knows that I´ve paid a high prize.
It´s now in my hands to have a device.
I still love the music, I just do not sing.
Hopefully you´ll understand, but you´re still my king.
I´ll love you forever, that´s a promise, I swear.
Please, help me to find a way out of my despair.
Thanks for sending to me a lovely friend.
Hannah is wonderful and she understands.
Good bye, my love. I hope to see you, soon.
I´m thinking about you, looking up to the moon.
The news didn´t mention your name, that´s sad.
But that´s not a wonder, for them you´re dead.
You´re living on in the hearts of your fans.
But I´m so sorry you didn´t have got real friends.
Prince, Paris and Blanket - we saw your children live.
They´ve got their daddy´s courage, I know they will survive.
I love you more, Michael. See you in heaven!!!
Feel free to leave comments. Thanks alot!!!