MJ TinkerBell
Proud Member
I logged off here last night ,and began to make my way home, in -10 weather, it feels like a taste of the below temperatures, soon to take over the town of Toronto Canada.
Just like the poem, "Was and Is"..Same kind of I am "going off " vibe. I began to shake, then cry really hard, and this was all going on as I WAS still writting. It was so painful to get out,truely, but the "LOVE" was all I could see, I could actually see it, by feeling it, through hearing it.
You dig it?
I knew I couldn't sleep with this message floating around up there in my head, tonight, it I was crying anyway, didn't want to see anyone. Kool, no more leaving so now to, more writting,sweet..
Then the "LOVE " was coming through, and I was crying over pain and grief, it was so freaky, I can't even tell you, I was so confused, because I was going off on this whole other subject, about Him and it was rough.
I was listening to His music playing in my ears and speaking to me the whole time, I play the one that is talking to me repeated, 100 times, I have not gotten bored yet, of it.
It will play anyway in my mind, especially in the morning, when I start to awake. ( I am loving that!!)
I can only describe it as being taken over, or caught in a grasp or in a grip.
The "LOVE" had to hit me hard for me to redirect my focus from crying and sadness over him, this night.
I got dressed and grabbed the note pad, it was that powerful, that I risked sheer frost bite on my nose and fingers. I still have to get up in 5 hrs at 10 am.
I am so shaky still, I am afraid to go home and try to lay down, I won't sleep, like I have to be lucid enough to sleep and be able to snatch message fragments and then later realize it was just the beginning. I have seen 6am from way to many long nights, another bad habit, great..
Also now when the song is speaking I float, then when there is the absence of this song, I can't breath, I get ancy TO hear it. Then it would be like my heart begins to play the song within me, exactly when I need to hear it..in PERFECT time..
I start dancing in PERFECT time in the line at the bank, at the post office, anywhere, they look, I don't care..I actually flash them my best Michael smile as I do it..
I am crying now because I am in LOVE with Him..period..
It felt SOOO good, to have this "MJJ Community" to come too, when I need it, like tonight, who would listen to me, who would believe me, saying these things and not look at me as maybe some of you are now looking at the screen and me.
Words cannot explain, the "LOVE" that I feel coming out of this song,
and at ME..UndeNiaBLE..
This just popped in my head, " Remember, I am a lover not a fighter."
This song I speak of confirms this..He's an Ultimate Lover..He knew it, He was!!
WE will find out, just exactly that.
It is going to take me a minute to get the message out. You now how I like to babble..
Needless to say..
Have I told you, lately how, I am utterly Michael Jackson in LOVE with you ALL,
right at this moment..
Believe it..Believe Him..Feel it..Feel Him..Love it...Love Him...Share it..Share Him
Here is that song..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4WuaBudM-0Y
Enjoy
-MJ TinkerBell
Just like the poem, "Was and Is"..Same kind of I am "going off " vibe. I began to shake, then cry really hard, and this was all going on as I WAS still writting. It was so painful to get out,truely, but the "LOVE" was all I could see, I could actually see it, by feeling it, through hearing it.
You dig it?
I knew I couldn't sleep with this message floating around up there in my head, tonight, it I was crying anyway, didn't want to see anyone. Kool, no more leaving so now to, more writting,sweet..
Then the "LOVE " was coming through, and I was crying over pain and grief, it was so freaky, I can't even tell you, I was so confused, because I was going off on this whole other subject, about Him and it was rough.
I was listening to His music playing in my ears and speaking to me the whole time, I play the one that is talking to me repeated, 100 times, I have not gotten bored yet, of it.
It will play anyway in my mind, especially in the morning, when I start to awake. ( I am loving that!!)
I can only describe it as being taken over, or caught in a grasp or in a grip.
The "LOVE" had to hit me hard for me to redirect my focus from crying and sadness over him, this night.
I got dressed and grabbed the note pad, it was that powerful, that I risked sheer frost bite on my nose and fingers. I still have to get up in 5 hrs at 10 am.
I am so shaky still, I am afraid to go home and try to lay down, I won't sleep, like I have to be lucid enough to sleep and be able to snatch message fragments and then later realize it was just the beginning. I have seen 6am from way to many long nights, another bad habit, great..
Also now when the song is speaking I float, then when there is the absence of this song, I can't breath, I get ancy TO hear it. Then it would be like my heart begins to play the song within me, exactly when I need to hear it..in PERFECT time..
I start dancing in PERFECT time in the line at the bank, at the post office, anywhere, they look, I don't care..I actually flash them my best Michael smile as I do it..
I am crying now because I am in LOVE with Him..period..
It felt SOOO good, to have this "MJJ Community" to come too, when I need it, like tonight, who would listen to me, who would believe me, saying these things and not look at me as maybe some of you are now looking at the screen and me.
Words cannot explain, the "LOVE" that I feel coming out of this song,
and at ME..UndeNiaBLE..
This just popped in my head, " Remember, I am a lover not a fighter."
This song I speak of confirms this..He's an Ultimate Lover..He knew it, He was!!
WE will find out, just exactly that.
It is going to take me a minute to get the message out. You now how I like to babble..
Needless to say..
Have I told you, lately how, I am utterly Michael Jackson in LOVE with you ALL,
right at this moment..
Believe it..Believe Him..Feel it..Feel Him..Love it...Love Him...Share it..Share Him
Here is that song..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4WuaBudM-0Y
Enjoy
-MJ TinkerBell