Lady with the Tramp
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Hi, I'm sinyi, from Hong Kong. So nice to meet u guys. I'm new to this forum.
I have been being Michael's fan for 3 years but regret being absent in this forum over these years. I was so lazy! I should have met you guys earlier! I'm sorry I know it's too late.
Few days ago, I was thinking not to watch the memorial live on CNN because I'm not sure if Michael wants us to mourn over him instead of celebrating the joy of his music and life, but finally I watched it and cried. I wish I could come over to the staples center that day, crying and huging with you guys. But I was so far away. I just cried in front of the comupter screen alone. It's so hard to imagine he's right in the casket and never come back. I feel so sad ever since he's gone. A part of me was taken. I've tried hanging out with friends and pretended I'm very fine with it and made stupid jokes as usual, cuz I dont wanna upset them. But when I returned home, I'd locked myself in my room, listening to his music all night (I'd SKIP all of the emotional songs from my music playing list that bring me to tears again: "Smile", "Someone in The Dark", "Dont Walk Away", "heaven Can't Wait", "Gone Too Soon", "You Are Not Alone", "I'll Be There"...). I look calm outside, but feel so lonely inside. I dont tell my family and friends how I feel cuz if I did, they think I'm insane. They dont understands what Michael means to me. To me, he's not just the biggest music icon, but also an innocent, loving, sweet, caring, gentle and generous person, as well as symbolic of love and forgiveness. His diligence always motivates me to try new things and to take chances. Because of him, I'm changing to be a better person!
I'm sick of some people pretending to be his fan after he passed away just because he's Michael Jackson. Singers in Hong Kong who apparenly are not his fan cover his song, saying how talented and brilliant he was. Why didn't people respect him and listen to his music when he's alive? They piss me off! They listen to his music but dont know anything about him at all! I'm also angry that all of the stupid presses and media in Hong Kong always translate and report craps and fake news from the source of tabloids (eg. the SUN...). I mean they dont even have sense of judgement to think if the source is real or not. It turns out that many people in Hong Kong think Michael is a child m****** and a weird person, so do my family and friends. I think while people tease him and believe the tabloid's crap, they should take a look at themselves in a mirror to see how ignorant they are!! I dont want to be mean, but want to express the anger that has been suppressed for a long time. I'm hoping people would stop judging him and show respect to him who's not here with us anymore, so that he can rest in peace!
I feel really moody these days and can't imagine living without him. It's so hard to get over it. I'm afraid people say something bad about Michael, but feel better after I've found there are so many wonderful fans right here supporting each other during the hard time (I think Michael must be so proud of us!) and I realized I'm not alone anymore facing the grief. Our hearts ache, but we will keep on spreading the love and joy around as he always do.
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!^^
God bless you guys, Michael and his family!!
I have been being Michael's fan for 3 years but regret being absent in this forum over these years. I was so lazy! I should have met you guys earlier! I'm sorry I know it's too late.
Few days ago, I was thinking not to watch the memorial live on CNN because I'm not sure if Michael wants us to mourn over him instead of celebrating the joy of his music and life, but finally I watched it and cried. I wish I could come over to the staples center that day, crying and huging with you guys. But I was so far away. I just cried in front of the comupter screen alone. It's so hard to imagine he's right in the casket and never come back. I feel so sad ever since he's gone. A part of me was taken. I've tried hanging out with friends and pretended I'm very fine with it and made stupid jokes as usual, cuz I dont wanna upset them. But when I returned home, I'd locked myself in my room, listening to his music all night (I'd SKIP all of the emotional songs from my music playing list that bring me to tears again: "Smile", "Someone in The Dark", "Dont Walk Away", "heaven Can't Wait", "Gone Too Soon", "You Are Not Alone", "I'll Be There"...). I look calm outside, but feel so lonely inside. I dont tell my family and friends how I feel cuz if I did, they think I'm insane. They dont understands what Michael means to me. To me, he's not just the biggest music icon, but also an innocent, loving, sweet, caring, gentle and generous person, as well as symbolic of love and forgiveness. His diligence always motivates me to try new things and to take chances. Because of him, I'm changing to be a better person!
I'm sick of some people pretending to be his fan after he passed away just because he's Michael Jackson. Singers in Hong Kong who apparenly are not his fan cover his song, saying how talented and brilliant he was. Why didn't people respect him and listen to his music when he's alive? They piss me off! They listen to his music but dont know anything about him at all! I'm also angry that all of the stupid presses and media in Hong Kong always translate and report craps and fake news from the source of tabloids (eg. the SUN...). I mean they dont even have sense of judgement to think if the source is real or not. It turns out that many people in Hong Kong think Michael is a child m****** and a weird person, so do my family and friends. I think while people tease him and believe the tabloid's crap, they should take a look at themselves in a mirror to see how ignorant they are!! I dont want to be mean, but want to express the anger that has been suppressed for a long time. I'm hoping people would stop judging him and show respect to him who's not here with us anymore, so that he can rest in peace!
I feel really moody these days and can't imagine living without him. It's so hard to get over it. I'm afraid people say something bad about Michael, but feel better after I've found there are so many wonderful fans right here supporting each other during the hard time (I think Michael must be so proud of us!) and I realized I'm not alone anymore facing the grief. Our hearts ache, but we will keep on spreading the love and joy around as he always do.
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!^^
God bless you guys, Michael and his family!!
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