bezdumnii
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Hi everybody! I am just another girl, just another MJ fan, but not for a long time, only since December when I have heard pyt and human nature at show. It was very strange for me because I don't usually listen to this kind of music but, you know, Michael's music has... something magical.After I had got familiar with his music, I started to search facts about his life. I was able to separate truth from unbelieveble lies and I started to cherish that beautiful, amazing, pure, loving, carrying (put adjective here) soul.
He is a role model for me. He continued with the sweetest smile on his face althought everyhing seemed to be against him, he kept his faith that everything will turn out just fine in the end, and he healed the world and taught others how to do it: by starting with themselves.
When I've heard about his passing, I felt like I was in the twilight zone: a feeling so strange, it just blocked me. I had my period of denial but reality slowly started to hit me. I didn't want to hurt myself but I can understand the ones who thought at this or went farther. The feeling is so complex and overwhelming, the questins are so many and without any answer and your whole world spins around one word: why. I had moments of despair, when I had asked myself: who will heal the world now? I now have moments when I'm down and sad and moments when I know that I can make that change because I am truly not alone!
I have never felt the need to explain my feeling I have for Michael, it is something so beautiful and fragile, it is like a little treasure that i have kept only for myself. But I don't have anybody with whom I can talk about what I feel now, I don't know anybody that shares the same ideas as I do, and my family won't understand. I started to read this section of the forum and already begun feeling better just by reading the kind words and feeling the carrying atmosphere.
I know that, one day, we will all come to terms with what happened because Michael have taught us how to be soldiers. Brave litte soldiers who can face everything. But all we need is time to heal...and his voice...and his smile...
He is a role model for me. He continued with the sweetest smile on his face althought everyhing seemed to be against him, he kept his faith that everything will turn out just fine in the end, and he healed the world and taught others how to do it: by starting with themselves.
When I've heard about his passing, I felt like I was in the twilight zone: a feeling so strange, it just blocked me. I had my period of denial but reality slowly started to hit me. I didn't want to hurt myself but I can understand the ones who thought at this or went farther. The feeling is so complex and overwhelming, the questins are so many and without any answer and your whole world spins around one word: why. I had moments of despair, when I had asked myself: who will heal the world now? I now have moments when I'm down and sad and moments when I know that I can make that change because I am truly not alone!
I have never felt the need to explain my feeling I have for Michael, it is something so beautiful and fragile, it is like a little treasure that i have kept only for myself. But I don't have anybody with whom I can talk about what I feel now, I don't know anybody that shares the same ideas as I do, and my family won't understand. I started to read this section of the forum and already begun feeling better just by reading the kind words and feeling the carrying atmosphere.
I know that, one day, we will all come to terms with what happened because Michael have taught us how to be soldiers. Brave litte soldiers who can face everything. But all we need is time to heal...and his voice...and his smile...
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