Sometimes I'm jealous...

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Have you ever felt jealous of fans who were lucky enough to meet or even become friend with Michael? Since becoming a fan, it's happened to me many times, and I admit that sometimes I take it in stride, other times I feel really bad. But when I see fans meeting him, I can't help but feel extremely jealous because I know I'll never be able to meet him since I was little when he died. I can't help but think, "Why them and not me?" I know it sounds a bit whiny, and I don't really have anything to be sad about sometimes, but despite my best efforts, I still feel that pang in my heart. Does that happen to you too?

I imagine thousands of scenarios in my head; sometimes I just want to go back in time...
 
I think jealousy in general comes from feeling somewhat cheated from experiencing what someone else has. But its something that goes both ways. There is likely someone who can look at any one of our lives and find something to be jealous of. So while you are feeling jealous of others from the outside looking in, remember that someone may be feeling like that about you from the outside looking in.

I think experience comes into it also. I have lived long enough to see that the moments of joy people experience are only a brief respite from the challenges of life that come to us all. So when I see others experience a moment of joy, I know I am only seeing a snapshot of their life. While I may feel inclined to trade places with them for that moment, I don't know their past or their future challenges, so I don't really know the whole picture of what I am being jealous of.

I'll give you one example from my own life (not MJ related). I had a cousin who appeared to live a picture perfect life, I loved her, but at times felt sad about how different our lives turned out. Then my cousin and her husband got into an awful car accident, a person in the other car died. My cousin's husband has since needed 24 hour care and cannot talk, my cousin has had various health issues since the accident and is now single handedly taking care of their 3 young children. I look back at the times when I looked at her life and felt I had been dealt an unfair hand, I wish I could've been happier for her because I was being jealous of a short lived period of joy in someone else's life, and there's no way I could've overcome everything she has, and now I cannot think of anyone who was more worthy of having that picture perfect life if only for a short time.

This is an extreme example I know, but I have experienced subtler versions of this too, and this has changed my perspective on jealousy overall. When I am jealous of someone's high times, I ask myself if I would also be jealous of their low times.
 
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Have you ever felt jealous of fans who were lucky enough to meet or even become friend with Michael? Since becoming a fan, it's happened to me many times, and I admit that sometimes I take it in stride, other times I feel really bad. But when I see fans meeting him, I can't help but feel extremely jealous because I know I'll never be able to meet him since I was little when he died. I can't help but think, "Why them and not me?" I know it sounds a bit whiny, and I don't really have anything to be sad about sometimes, but despite my best efforts, I still feel that pang in my heart. Does that happen to you too?

I imagine thousands of scenarios in my head; sometimes I just want to go back in time...
If you think about the amount of fans he has and the very lucky few who got to meet him, you should know for sure that you are not alone! (forgive the pun.) I think we all feel that special bond with him because he gave every ounce of himself in his music and dancing. ā¤ļø
 
I don't really know the feeling of jealousy because I always think it doesn't change anything about my situation if I am jealous. I am happy for them and sure, I wish I have had the opportunity to meet him, but I am too young, so that's that - badumm tsss...

The only thing I don't like is watching some of the YANA/She's Out Of My Life - girls šŸ˜‚.
 
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Genuine question, because like I said to me the feeling of jealousy doesn't really make any sense:

Are you just thinking "I wish I could have met him, too" or is it more like "I am really pissed that person XY met him and I didn't"?

Just interested. Don't get me wrong, I know how jealousy feels. But at the very moment I feel it, I always tell myself: being jealous now doesn't change anything about MY life. And then it's gone immediately 🤷.

And what @jasmine.uddin said, too. Sometimes when you look at the bigger picture, you will find out that people you are jealous of struggle with many other things.
 
Hi, thanks for your comments. I know it's a bit silly to be jealous. I think everyone has their own problems, and I don't want to take on other people's lives either; it's just this one encounter. That's how I see it. If others like me were able to meet him, why did we come too late? It's a huge missed opportunity for me. I shouldn't complain, but I do anyway, lol. I'm so not virtuous.

The only ones I think it's fair are the sick children because, in their immense suffering, they needed the love and comfort that Michael gave them. But young women and men, why were they chosen? I don't blame them; I'm just disappointed and sad. But some people, or fans, simply didn't deserve it. I once stumbled upon a documentary in French, and two Michael Jackson fans who had met him (there were three of them) looked down on him. When he died, they initially thought, "Wow, Michael must be pretending to be sick again, like he did once before the 1995 concerts to avoid doing them. What a wimp!" Dude, you met him, why are you judging? I respect Michael more than you do, even though I never had the chance to meet him. Besides, there are worse people, like criminals (hey R. Kelly, hey J. Epstein, you don't deserve to be in the same room as such a good man; it's something you'll never achieve even if you live 5 000 lifetimes).

It's not like me to be so bitter, lol

Anyway, thanks for your comments; it's nice to discuss this. I'll reply in more detail later when I have time, as I'm going out now, but I'm glad you took the time to share your experiences on this topic 😊

I hope your cousin and her husband are doing better since this tragedy. I'm sending them all my positive vibes and strength ā¤ļø
 
Well, life isn't fair, that's all I can say about that. At least we're living at a time where we can enjoy his music, short films etc.

One additional thought I often have concerning this topic:

If I had only met him once, how would my life have been afterwards? Better, because it would have been so great or worse because I would know it was a one time thing? So, dunno...
 
For you perhaps, but same if I could met him, that’s selfish, but he knows that I’m exist and we could talk…
 
I feel a bit down thinking that I’ve never met Michael either. Without sounding conceited, I think I would have been an ā€œinterestingā€ person for Michael to meet - or certainly someone who was similar to him in some way. I think such an encounter would have been interesting.

But I think of it in a reality sense - there are billions of people in this world, and it’s not possible for Michael to meet every single person.

I just stay true as a fan, knowing that Michael would have loved my support for him. As long as I can listen to his music, I’ll always love his work and what he has done for the world.
 
This knot has been used in me for years even if I know all this. I try to say that at least his music remains.

After I think there must be a few million who do not especially want to meet the man, among the fans that Michael met, there are some who did not necessarily want to meet him.
 
This knot has been used in me for years even if I know all this. I try to say that at least his music remains.

After I think there must be a few million who do not especially want to meet the man, among the fans that Michael met, there are some who did not necessarily want to meet him.
There is a MJ impersonator (that I’ve seen perform in person) who was present at Michael’s 2005 trial (he was standing with the fans at the fences, in MJ attire, showing his support). So he has seen Michael in person but has never properly met him. But he said that it wasn’t really a priority as he felt like he knew Michael anyway and that was enough for him.
 
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Does that happen to you too?

No. Various ways to answer:
When I started listening to MJ in the 90s he was just so much bigger than anything that I thought my chances to meet him would be close to zero.
I also thought the chances that I could meet him in significant situation (not like just getting an autograph) were even tiniest.

And if I would ever have met him, I guess I might have been disappointed afterward by not knowing what to say or so.
(Indeed, I once met someone famous in much smaller scene than MJ, but someone quite big in that scene. And without even knowing I screwed badly... Someone else later told them some information they missed and they kind of forgave me. I had another contact with that person much later and again I was mildly unsatisfied with my communication.)

I like MJ as an artist and as (what we know of him as) a person, but don't put him on such a pedestal.

My father thought that his proximity with kids wasn't sane, so I suppose he would have opposed the idea.

I think I knew someone who met him several times, but that person worked hard for it... But I'm not even sure, and I lost contact with that person around that time.

Also no "jealousy", I would have used the word "regrets" but I don't even have that.

Edit: Though I saw the Jacksons live in 2021, took a few pictures including one I was very happy with, and yeah, I must say the fact of just seen 3/5 of the Jackson 5 as real persons has a stronger aura than I expected.
 
I don't put it on a pedestal either, I recognize its flaws. I simply express my emotions šŸ˜’

And by what do you mean "his proximity with kids wasn’t sane"? Develop!
 
And by what do you mean "his proximity with kids wasn’t sane"? Develop!

Independently of the accusations being true of false, people could think it was weird to have a grown up man hanging with kids... Some parents would have opposed to that as a safety measure just in case. Also, I'm just talking about my father as I know what it was back then. There's not much to develop.
 
Sure, but as long as no crime has been committed (and we’ll never be sure he did), who are we to judge? I can understand it but I find that Michael is doing quite well for having been traumatized by the vision of women undressing sensually at the age of 5.

In any case, you developed more than just "his proximity was not healthy with the children". We deviate from the initial subject by the way.
 
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He's just talking about how his father saw Michael. I am sure many people have this opinion, because they don't know anything about Michael as a person and are not interested to learn more about him.

And even without putting him on a pedestal (I don't do that either), he was a very interesting person and I am sure meeting him would have been a great experience.
 
I don't know why he talked about that, well.

Michael was very human, he was intelligent, kind and devoted. He's the only celebrity I really like (even if there are others I like like Keanu Reeves or Emma Watson) but I don't know, Michael was so humble, kind and simple, he's the only one who will make my head spin.
 
Hi, thanks for your comments. I know it's a bit silly to be jealous. I think everyone has their own problems, and I don't want to take on other people's lives either; it's just this one encounter. That's how I see it. If others like me were able to meet him, why did we come too late? It's a huge missed opportunity for me. I shouldn't complain, but I do anyway, lol. I'm so not virtuous.
Physical boundaries like being in another country from where Michael was, had always been an obstacle to meeting him. Plus money. In 2007, Michael went to Japan and charged fans around $3000 for a Meet And Greet with him. I later travelled to Asia later that year and came across some money, but it was too late by then.
 
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Physical boundaries like being in another country from where Michael was, had always been an obstacle to meeting him. Plus money. In 2007, Michael went to Japan and charged fans around $3000 for a Meet And Greet with him. I later travelled to Asia later that year and came across some money, but it was too late by then.
Yes but some fans were able to meet him for free... it must be infuriating not to have arrived in time
 
Keep in mind that if a fan meets Michael Jackson in person, this can shatter Michael Jackson's idealized, polished image to the fan's eyes.

In any case, back in the day, it was much easier for fans to meet him personally mainly because there were many Michael Jackson fan clubs that used to get lucky fans (via contests, etc) to meet him in special events, award shows, and so on.
 
Almost no one missed him, I think, lol
He was very kind, no one criticized him. Especially since I just read one of your comments that said a German woman met Michael in 2003 and he kissed her on the lips. She'll never forget that moment; I don't even know if she's washed or wiped her lips since, lmao
 
Yes but some fans were able to meet him for free... it must be infuriating not to have arrived in time
That reminds me of the Martin Bashir documentary - when Michael is out walking with his kids and singing "Smile", and a couple of Spanish fans approached him and they talked for a little while. The bodyguards didn't move them away, and the fans were calm.
 
Have you ever felt jealous of fans who were lucky enough to meet or even become friend with Michael? Since becoming a fan, it's happened to me many times, and I admit that sometimes I take it in stride, other times I feel really bad. But when I see fans meeting him, I can't help but feel extremely jealous because I know I'll never be able to meet him since I was little when he died. I can't help but think, "Why them and not me?" I know it sounds a bit whiny, and I don't really have anything to be sad about sometimes, but despite my best efforts, I still feel that pang in my heart. Does that happen to you too?

I imagine thousands of scenarios in my head; sometimes I just want to go back in time...
I know how you feel. But please don’t feel bad. Some meetings are meant to happen when we are alive and some are meant for later. Though we can’t meet Michael physically, we can all meet him spiritually. His energy exists forever on Earth. So when you feel heartbroken, listen to his music. Read his writings. Watch interviews and listen to him talk. It will help you feel better. Love is eternal and manifests itself to us in unexpected ways. Maybe ask God if you can meet him in your dreams. He may answer your prayer.
 
I am one of the fans who met Michael multiple times in multiple countries. From 1999 to 2009 I was part of a group of fans who travelled to see Michael outside hotels and at events in Europe and America.

There's a lot of misconceptions and false information about us and how we met Michael and how we were around him so much. The majority of fans like me, fans I knew over the years never paid to meet him. The Japan fan event in 2007 was a unique event and very few of the US and European fan community went to it, purely based on the fact that we didnt want to pay to meet him when we knew we could met him for free.

In a way it was easy to meet Michael in the last 10 years of his life. For me it was not planned or expected or something that was even guaranteed. We were a niche small fan community, supporting and loving a man who was hated by mainstream general public. As a result, mainstream general public had no interest in him, so fan sites like MJJC and all the other forums , our online homes were ignored. To mainstream media general public he disappeared from view but all that happened was that when the world turned its back on him, he turned to us, the fan community and allowed us to get close to him.

All the information was easily accessible here on MJJC, KOP, MNJO, Max Jax, Angle, MJHIDEOUT and all the other fan forums for anyone who cared enough about Michael to seek out the fan communities.

All it took was for a person to have this spark in them to want to see Michael. Something deep in your soul that made you do whatever it took to be part of his world. For me that spark ignited in the late 1980's and 1990's when I was a child and teenager, watching the Bad and Dangerous Tour documentaries on MTV and VHI and seeing all the fans outside the hotels and concerts. No one in my family or no one I knew in school was a fan like me, but when I saw all those fans outside hotels and heard them being interviewed I realized that there were other people like me out there. As a lonely teenager, watching MTV I had this secret dream to find other fans like me, people I could talk to about Michael and who felt the same as I did about him.

It took until History tour for me to finally find the fan community. I went to History tour in my home city on my own, and in the hours waiting in line outside the venue before the concert, I saw so many fans I recognized from Bad and Dangerous documentaries. I started talking to the fans around me as we waited for the concert and they told me about the fan communities. After the concert I joined the same fanclub MJNI they told me about and that was how my life changed forever. I would go to fanclub events, meet other fans, get their contact details and then after the event we were all on the fanclub messageboards. It was just basic networking, and thats how information about Michael was shared. Everyone was part of a friend group and would share information with their group of 5 or 6 friends, who would then share it with a different group of friends. All the friend groups were connected through mutuals. All of this was mostly done through text messages on phones or MSN chat online and then on the messageboards like here on MJJC.

As it was such a small amount of fans travelling to see Michael, year after year, country after country, he would recognize the same faces. His bodyguards and other staff like Karen Faye, Michael Bush and Grace the nanny would also recognize us. Many of them would come out to talk to us and we would give them gifts for Michael. That was mainly how we got close to Michael, by being known by him and his staff and then they would see and remember how we behaved around him, so then the next trip, the next event, they would be comfortable letting us be around him again.

Over the years, so many fans I met had a similar story, finding Michael when they were young, feeling like they were the only person in the world who loved him , then something happens and they find the fan communities.

The true hearts always find a way.

I do realize though, that for me and all the other fans I knew, that we could only make our dreams come true due to some privileged circumstance. Mostly the privilege was being European, being in our 20's, not having major financial, career or family responsibilities and being able to use our disposable income to travel to see Michael. In Europe by law, all employees, from the burger flipper in McDonalds to high level corporate CEO's get approx 28 days paid time off. The majority of fans like me just used our paid time off annual leave days to travel to see Michael. I worked 60 hour weeks in minimum wage jobs and just saved and saved for the next Michael trip. Most fans I know did the same. Worked multiple jobs or signed up for every over time shift and just save their disposable income. Most fans I knew were not rich and did not come from wealthy families. Many fans did not have the support of their families or came from dysfunctional families. There is this urban myth that our travels to see Michael were paid for by the bank of mom and dad, which is so very far from the truth.

The years from 1999 to 2009 were a very different time. The internet was not mainstream and it was only sub cultures, teenagers and 20 somethings who were mainly online. For many years we didnt even have laptops, we were online using our parents PC at home or in internet cafes. It was a time before mobile phones had internet and cameras. It was a time before social media.

I know people are jealous of us but just remember the fans like me, we were a very small percentage of the online fan communities. The majority of the online fan community never saw Michael in real life, never met him and never went to a concert. There are many many fans who due to the country they lived in , could not get a tourist visa to America or Europe. There were many many fans who were part of the online fan communities but were still teenagers and their parents wouldn't let them travel to see Michael.
 
I am one of the fans who met Michael multiple times in multiple countries. From 1999 to 2009 I was part of a group of fans who travelled to see Michael outside hotels and at events in Europe and America.

There's a lot of misconceptions and false information about us and how we met Michael and how we were around him so much. The majority of fans like me, fans I knew over the years never paid to meet him. The Japan fan event in 2007 was a unique event and very few of the US and European fan community went to it, purely based on the fact that we didnt want to pay to meet him when we knew we could met him for free.

In a way it was easy to meet Michael in the last 10 years of his life. For me it was not planned or expected or something that was even guaranteed. We were a niche small fan community, supporting and loving a man who was hated by mainstream general public. As a result, mainstream general public had no interest in him, so fan sites like MJJC and all the other forums , our online homes were ignored. To mainstream media general public he disappeared from view but all that happened was that when the world turned its back on him, he turned to us, the fan community and allowed us to get close to him.

All the information was easily accessible here on MJJC, KOP, MNJO, Max Jax, Angle, MJHIDEOUT and all the other fan forums for anyone who cared enough about Michael to seek out the fan communities.

All it took was for a person to have this spark in them to want to see Michael. Something deep in your soul that made you do whatever it took to be part of his world. For me that spark ignited in the late 1980's and 1990's when I was a child and teenager, watching the Bad and Dangerous Tour documentaries on MTV and VHI and seeing all the fans outside the hotels and concerts. No one in my family or no one I knew in school was a fan like me, but when I saw all those fans outside hotels and heard them being interviewed I realized that there were other people like me out there. As a lonely teenager, watching MTV I had this secret dream to find other fans like me, people I could talk to about Michael and who felt the same as I did about him.

It took until History tour for me to finally find the fan community. I went to History tour in my home city on my own, and in the hours waiting in line outside the venue before the concert, I saw so many fans I recognized from Bad and Dangerous documentaries. I started talking to the fans around me as we waited for the concert and they told me about the fan communities. After the concert I joined the same fanclub MJNI they told me about and that was how my life changed forever. I would go to fanclub events, meet other fans, get their contact details and then after the event we were all on the fanclub messageboards. It was just basic networking, and thats how information about Michael was shared. Everyone was part of a friend group and would share information with their group of 5 or 6 friends, who would then share it with a different group of friends. All the friend groups were connected through mutuals. All of this was mostly done through text messages on phones or MSN chat online and then on the messageboards like here on MJJC.

As it was such a small amount of fans travelling to see Michael, year after year, country after country, he would recognize the same faces. His bodyguards and other staff like Karen Faye, Michael Bush and Grace the nanny would also recognize us. Many of them would come out to talk to us and we would give them gifts for Michael. That was mainly how we got close to Michael, by being known by him and his staff and then they would see and remember how we behaved around him, so then the next trip, the next event, they would be comfortable letting us be around him again.

Over the years, so many fans I met had a similar story, finding Michael when they were young, feeling like they were the only person in the world who loved him , then something happens and they find the fan communities.

The true hearts always find a way.

I do realize though, that for me and all the other fans I knew, that we could only make our dreams come true due to some privileged circumstance. Mostly the privilege was being European, being in our 20's, not having major financial, career or family responsibilities and being able to use our disposable income to travel to see Michael. In Europe by law, all employees, from the burger flipper in McDonalds to high level corporate CEO's get approx 28 days paid time off. The majority of fans like me just used our paid time off annual leave days to travel to see Michael. I worked 60 hour weeks in minimum wage jobs and just saved and saved for the next Michael trip. Most fans I know did the same. Worked multiple jobs or signed up for every over time shift and just save their disposable income. Most fans I knew were not rich and did not come from wealthy families. Many fans did not have the support of their families or came from dysfunctional families. There is this urban myth that our travels to see Michael were paid for by the bank of mom and dad, which is so very far from the truth.

The years from 1999 to 2009 were a very different time. The internet was not mainstream and it was only sub cultures, teenagers and 20 somethings who were mainly online. For many years we didnt even have laptops, we were online using our parents PC at home or in internet cafes. It was a time before mobile phones had internet and cameras. It was a time before social media.

I know people are jealous of us but just remember the fans like me, we were a very small percentage of the online fan communities. The majority of the online fan community never saw Michael in real life, never met him and never went to a concert. There are many many fans who due to the country they lived in , could not get a tourist visa to America or Europe. There were many many fans who were part of the online fan communities but were still teenagers and their parents wouldn't let them travel to see Michael.
Thank you Moonstreet for sharing this and offering your perspective on the matter. It’s very important for Domi (OP) to understand that while there were fans like you who got to meet Michael, the circumstances of his life made it difficult for the average person to meet him.

Your meeting was a wonderful blessing that was already written in the stars. Or rather what’s typically known as, ā€œDivine Timing,ā€ which was able to happen because you made it happen and didn’t take no from the universe for an answer. That’s magic!

I know in my heart that some of us MJ fans are apart of the same soul family. Personally, I see my pain of the unmet connections in my life as a spiritual catalyst for growth. Even when two people are connected, their paths may not cross if their individual "soul contracts" or life lessons require them to remain separate for that specific period.

We will all reunite together on a higher astral plane someday.
 
I am one of the fans who met Michael multiple times in multiple countries. From 1999 to 2009 I was part of a group of fans who travelled to see Michael outside hotels and at events in Europe and America.

There's a lot of misconceptions and false information about us and how we met Michael and how we were around him so much. The majority of fans like me, fans I knew over the years never paid to meet him. The Japan fan event in 2007 was a unique event and very few of the US and European fan community went to it, purely based on the fact that we didnt want to pay to meet him when we knew we could met him for free.

In a way it was easy to meet Michael in the last 10 years of his life. For me it was not planned or expected or something that was even guaranteed. We were a niche small fan community, supporting and loving a man who was hated by mainstream general public. As a result, mainstream general public had no interest in him, so fan sites like MJJC and all the other forums , our online homes were ignored. To mainstream media general public he disappeared from view but all that happened was that when the world turned its back on him, he turned to us, the fan community and allowed us to get close to him.

All the information was easily accessible here on MJJC, KOP, MNJO, Max Jax, Angle, MJHIDEOUT and all the other fan forums for anyone who cared enough about Michael to seek out the fan communities.

All it took was for a person to have this spark in them to want to see Michael. Something deep in your soul that made you do whatever it took to be part of his world. For me that spark ignited in the late 1980's and 1990's when I was a child and teenager, watching the Bad and Dangerous Tour documentaries on MTV and VHI and seeing all the fans outside the hotels and concerts. No one in my family or no one I knew in school was a fan like me, but when I saw all those fans outside hotels and heard them being interviewed I realized that there were other people like me out there. As a lonely teenager, watching MTV I had this secret dream to find other fans like me, people I could talk to about Michael and who felt the same as I did about him.

It took until History tour for me to finally find the fan community. I went to History tour in my home city on my own, and in the hours waiting in line outside the venue before the concert, I saw so many fans I recognized from Bad and Dangerous documentaries. I started talking to the fans around me as we waited for the concert and they told me about the fan communities. After the concert I joined the same fanclub MJNI they told me about and that was how my life changed forever. I would go to fanclub events, meet other fans, get their contact details and then after the event we were all on the fanclub messageboards. It was just basic networking, and thats how information about Michael was shared. Everyone was part of a friend group and would share information with their group of 5 or 6 friends, who would then share it with a different group of friends. All the friend groups were connected through mutuals. All of this was mostly done through text messages on phones or MSN chat online and then on the messageboards like here on MJJC.

As it was such a small amount of fans travelling to see Michael, year after year, country after country, he would recognize the same faces. His bodyguards and other staff like Karen Faye, Michael Bush and Grace the nanny would also recognize us. Many of them would come out to talk to us and we would give them gifts for Michael. That was mainly how we got close to Michael, by being known by him and his staff and then they would see and remember how we behaved around him, so then the next trip, the next event, they would be comfortable letting us be around him again.

Over the years, so many fans I met had a similar story, finding Michael when they were young, feeling like they were the only person in the world who loved him , then something happens and they find the fan communities.

The true hearts always find a way.

I do realize though, that for me and all the other fans I knew, that we could only make our dreams come true due to some privileged circumstance. Mostly the privilege was being European, being in our 20's, not having major financial, career or family responsibilities and being able to use our disposable income to travel to see Michael. In Europe by law, all employees, from the burger flipper in McDonalds to high level corporate CEO's get approx 28 days paid time off. The majority of fans like me just used our paid time off annual leave days to travel to see Michael. I worked 60 hour weeks in minimum wage jobs and just saved and saved for the next Michael trip. Most fans I know did the same. Worked multiple jobs or signed up for every over time shift and just save their disposable income. Most fans I knew were not rich and did not come from wealthy families. Many fans did not have the support of their families or came from dysfunctional families. There is this urban myth that our travels to see Michael were paid for by the bank of mom and dad, which is so very far from the truth.

The years from 1999 to 2009 were a very different time. The internet was not mainstream and it was only sub cultures, teenagers and 20 somethings who were mainly online. For many years we didnt even have laptops, we were online using our parents PC at home or in internet cafes. It was a time before mobile phones had internet and cameras. It was a time before social media.

I know people are jealous of us but just remember the fans like me, we were a very small percentage of the online fan communities. The majority of the online fan community never saw Michael in real life, never met him and never went to a concert. There are many many fans who due to the country they lived in , could not get a tourist visa to America or Europe. There were many many fans who were part of the online fan communities but were still teenagers and their parents wouldn't let them travel to see Michael.
So you have talked to Michael a few times? Can you remember what you talked about with him? Plus did you give him any gifts?
 
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