The only thing going through my mind is
what the f*************k....
I wish I had something constructive to say.
EDIT: I do actually have something to say.
The more and more I learn about the people that were around MJ, including this doctor, the more and more I realize just what kind of a "machine" Mj was stuck in the middle off. And how people are easily sucked in even with the best intentions.
I've heard 2-3 instances at around about the time of his death where he referred to himself in general as the core of a machine. In some of those instances, I replaced that word with 'empire' in my head. And yeah at face value its a sad thing to hear, you know, he pretty much compares himself to a machine that keeps the money flowing from person to person, that people can benefit from as long as he got on stage and sung and danced.
But more and more I realized how deeply sad that is - because if I DON'T replace the word with "empire" and just take it for what it is, which is the fact that he probably absolutely meant that HE was a machine. He, Michael Jackson, is a machine. And he said it so off the cuff and factually, that it came to a point where he believed that perhaps maybe thats all he ever was to people.
Thats what pisses me off when I see stuff like this.
And the worse thing about it, I don't know who to be pissed off AT. Human nature perhaps?
Because despite people's BEST intentions, the enigma of Michael Jackson, this empire he had created and was literally trapped in - the "King of Pop" facade, the "empire...it sucked people in. Like a vacuum. It made them lose sight of the fact that he was a PERSON. Its like a hypnotic trance almost and even those who really cared about MJ, who really think they're doing whats best for him, the either get drawn in by the temptation of money and power or control, or they get pulled in unintentionally by they're own assumptions about what would "help" him, when it really hurts him.
And especially after he died, well now its a free for all. Now the blinders are completely on for some people and they completely forget their morals, only when it comes to HIM. And I don't know what it is about HIM that makes people behave this way but its never going to stop, I've come to realize.