Re: So...do you guys think he could have done all 50 shows?
^ In the case of his death, i see mj totally as the victim. You say he shouldn't have done the shows, but it seems he was not presented with any other choice because of the massive financial difficulties he was in. Difficulties arising out of the ruinously expensive trial, and from a whole collection of sharks and fraudsters who entered his life. Neverland was in foreclosure for months before he cd find barrack to bail him out and it was barrack that told him that his only solution to avoid a debt spiral was to go back to work. I get the impression that mj really resisted performing again, maybe he realised he was not up to it emotionally, but he forced himself to do it to provide a stable financial future for his family which is utterly commendable.
As for taking propofol to sleep, i just can't conceive the pressure he was under returning to the spotlight. He couldn't back out, however he felt physically. as he faced financial ruin. He knew that the global media would be turning their attention to him, sharpening their pens to write the most scathing reviews of his opening concert, willing him to fail. He would worry how his fans would react to him, there were groups ready to haul him over the coals if he dared to lip synch on any songs. He would be wondering what the london tabs would have in store for him on the eve of the concerts - they were bound to dredge up all the allegations from the 05 trial and plaster all the weekend tabs with them just before he was due on stage. We now know that nanny grace was sellling her stories of mj to daphne barrack and so her revelations of mj being a drug addict and being a dreadful father who his children were afraid of would be plastered over the news of the world the day before mj's comeback. Honestly, just trying to imagine what it must have been like to be mj in those months leading up to june, you become a nervous wreck, and you perhaps begin to understand how seductive an anesthesia might be.