LateToTheMJParty
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I just want to post my story of how I came to be here on this forum, aged 47.
I was never an MJ fan. His music never connected with me. I lived near Wembley and saw the strobe lighting of his concerts but it never occurred to me to go to them myself.
However I have always been fascinated by the man himself, but not necessarily always positive fascination, I confess. I could not look away from Bashir’s documentary at the time but I just did not know what to make of him. I was dimly aware of his court case, feeling he could not have done those things but not having a visceral reaction to it at that time.
Now though, when I watched the Leaving Neverland docu, something inside just screamed No! He did not do this, I just KNOW! I don’t know where it came from. It seemed suddenly so ugly and obscene that a man who loved children in such a pure way could still be being sullied by these disgusting accusations.
Since then I have watched and read stuff about MJ every day. I am reading the Tarraborelli book and I am connecting more and more with who MJ was and who I instinctively felt him to be from Leaving Neverland onwards.
I have been crying over his life and over how these accusations must have torn him up - how he could not have been accused of anything worse. I know it is silly but I am hoping to be around people who might understand, on this forum. I heard the slurred tapes from Dr Conrad and, my god, even when he was in that state he was still thinking about helping children and building children’s hospitals. How anyone can believe the accusations baffles me. Truly baffles me.
I know I am among lifelong fans here but yet I feel I need to connect with you. I hope you will not judge me for not having been a fan all my life. I cannot talk about this stuff anywhere else. I am moved beyond words by his life, by his plight, by the gilded cage society put him in and then pointed and laughed at him in. He was denied normal life and normal development by the fame we all accorded him, but then the world mocked and derided him when he did not behave and act like normal people. His heart was so pure and the world betrayed him over and over again. Human nature disgusts me when I contemplate his life.
I have been crying today about it all. I never understood before this year. Please don’t revile me just because I did not see and understand before. I was just busy living my life and I did not truly stop to really look.
PS my MJ-flavoured contempt is particularly reserved for, apart from his latest two lying accusers of course, Evan Chandler, Oprah Winfrey, Michael Jacobshagen, Melanie Bagnall. Not sure about Lisa Marie. I feel like she could have been more loyal and vocal in his defence. I have a feeling this list will be added to soon, as I read and learn more.
I was never an MJ fan. His music never connected with me. I lived near Wembley and saw the strobe lighting of his concerts but it never occurred to me to go to them myself.
However I have always been fascinated by the man himself, but not necessarily always positive fascination, I confess. I could not look away from Bashir’s documentary at the time but I just did not know what to make of him. I was dimly aware of his court case, feeling he could not have done those things but not having a visceral reaction to it at that time.
Now though, when I watched the Leaving Neverland docu, something inside just screamed No! He did not do this, I just KNOW! I don’t know where it came from. It seemed suddenly so ugly and obscene that a man who loved children in such a pure way could still be being sullied by these disgusting accusations.
Since then I have watched and read stuff about MJ every day. I am reading the Tarraborelli book and I am connecting more and more with who MJ was and who I instinctively felt him to be from Leaving Neverland onwards.
I have been crying over his life and over how these accusations must have torn him up - how he could not have been accused of anything worse. I know it is silly but I am hoping to be around people who might understand, on this forum. I heard the slurred tapes from Dr Conrad and, my god, even when he was in that state he was still thinking about helping children and building children’s hospitals. How anyone can believe the accusations baffles me. Truly baffles me.
I know I am among lifelong fans here but yet I feel I need to connect with you. I hope you will not judge me for not having been a fan all my life. I cannot talk about this stuff anywhere else. I am moved beyond words by his life, by his plight, by the gilded cage society put him in and then pointed and laughed at him in. He was denied normal life and normal development by the fame we all accorded him, but then the world mocked and derided him when he did not behave and act like normal people. His heart was so pure and the world betrayed him over and over again. Human nature disgusts me when I contemplate his life.
I have been crying today about it all. I never understood before this year. Please don’t revile me just because I did not see and understand before. I was just busy living my life and I did not truly stop to really look.
PS my MJ-flavoured contempt is particularly reserved for, apart from his latest two lying accusers of course, Evan Chandler, Oprah Winfrey, Michael Jacobshagen, Melanie Bagnall. Not sure about Lisa Marie. I feel like she could have been more loyal and vocal in his defence. I have a feeling this list will be added to soon, as I read and learn more.