Honest to god, I don't even know. I do feel a bit, "Send help". Abstinence down the drain, as you can see. Got some sleep today, even had a few hours where I felt quite chilled. But, well, it's 3am and here I am.
I administered a lot of Michael therapy which seemed to work. Calmed me down nicely. Spent quality time with the last 4 photos I bumped on the Rare Pics thread. They helped a LOT. But I think the new reality is indeed the new reality. There is still a lot of resistance (or shock or disbelief or whatever the feck; probably all of the above) but I sense that is going to cave sooner or later. Although I'm that tired I can barely remember my own name.
There is an 'interesting' YT compilation at the top of Page 739 of this thread, if anyone is interested. It's about 10 mins. I only watched a few seconds, bumped it, watched a few more seconds and then closed it down. You all have probably seen it but, if you haven't, I think you'll like it. Oh, and that reminds me why I haven't seen any of this before. I mean, apart from I *genuinely* would never look 'down there'. I hardly ever watch live stuff. Prob should take this over to heresy thread but way too tired. Er, I get kinda ... oh god, am I going to say this? ... I get kinda bored. I couldn't even make it through that 10 min YT clip I just mentioned. That said, I watched it and thought, 'well, I thought Michael could move but ... Michael can moooooooooove!!!!!!!'
Just to give a bit of context here, this whole thing is just not me. For example, I bumped a photo here from Bad and you responded, 'oh I want to unbuckle him'. Two days later I figured out what you meant. I'm not joking. Two days! My brain just doesn't work that way. It would never occur to me to 'look down there'. That said, that MM90 photo has taken up residence in my brain and, well, it's been interesting, that's all I'm gonna say about that.
I see MM90 has posted a BOTDF gif. Just *happens* to be one of my fave images. I think maybe it's MM90 who's taken up residence in my brain. What is she doing in there? How much more havoc can she cause. Don't answer that!
I need to go and inspect that gif that MM90 posted. You know, for quality control purposes ...