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a friend just told me mourning Michael is unhealthy!

Thanks guys. Im doing better. I still get teary when i see michael in tv or hear touching stories about him which of course will prob. never change. When Michael died i felt like a part me died along with him. I felt so numb. I just cried and cried and just wanted to be alone so i could cry and be left to mourn by myself. Honestly I never felt so alone until i came here. this place has helped me soo much and Im so grateful for it. I have no friends who get it or like Michael. Ever since i told them i was a Mj fan they have been so cruel about it. Not one single ounce of respect. yeah they dont talk about him in front of me bc they know i will rip them to shreds but back then they did. we got in a fight about mj once and i was forced to appologise and they didnt. so they made me the bad guy when i didnt even do anything. that was in a high school.


Then after the news broke like i said i just cried. i though that maybe for once my friends would show some kind of concern. I never asked for it or mentioned it at all to them. until days after my mom asked me if i herd from them and i said no so she called my friend and told her and everyone eles they werent being good friends to me and so on. i get a email from my friend Sarah chewing ME OUT about it. She said i needed to get over Michael and grow up. she then left the crulest joke about Michael and i wont post it bc its just cold and hurtful. I burst in to tears. I felt like no one cared about what i was going through and that my friends were turning agaisnt me for something i had no part in. it was so unfair! not to mention i had to put all that aside for my friend Amanda's wedding that was comming up so yeah i had to just let it go and let them get away with it. how messed up is that.

Its hard being around people who just dont understand what its like to be a Michael Jackson fan and how much he ment to us and how much he loves us and we loved him. Any other celebrity doesnt even come close to what Michael was. He was like something that wasnt even real. He treated people with so much love and respect and he helped so many kids with illnesses and many other problems. He cared so much. He was not just a popular singer with a amazing voice, and dance moves that were out of this world. He was so much more.

My friends however just like what Gerryevens described are major geeks. They are in to all the comics, harry potter, star wars, lord of the rings, and all that stuff that. Me im not in that much. some is ok like the movies at least like batman and spider man but ive never been in to harry potter even though the movies are pretty good but still. Im not a fan and yet they talk about it all the time, dragged me to at least 2 Harry Potter flims, and went to prob. every HP book release until the last one. yet if for some reason any of the cast members happened to die they wouldnt be upset like me? yeah right. they would all cry like babies if george lucas died or anyone like that.

As hard as it is im doing my best to mourn and try to remmeber just how speacial Michael was. at least Michael was a real person and had the real love and affection of people all over the world and my friends just dont get it. never have and never will.
 
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oh, I feel your pain... I know EXACTLY what you mean and talking about... I can't talk about Michael to my friends or my family in the way that I can to you guys..so for that, I really, really thank you. I am so grateful that I found this place. It's a place where I can be able to talk about Michael, cause I do talk about Michael especially to one friend..but I feel she's getting tired of it..and it's not in the degree I talk about it to her that I can do here with you.
I feel i'm missing a part of me when he died, I feel the whole world does..a great loss..and right now..I don't know how to deal with the pain..
 
I know. Its really hard but i know we can all get through this together. I know in my heart and all we all know in our hearts that Michael wants us to be happy and remmeber what he gave us and what he taught us.We all feel a whole part of us died when Michael died. Everyone feels like their whole childhood died with Michael. I know thats one the feelings i had when it happened.I wish i had friends i could talk to but the only ones i have to talk to about michael are all online and this place which THANK GOD for those friends and MJJC. I dont know what i would have done without this place or the friends who even though i havent met still cared enough to comfort me. Its pretty sad when online friends show more concern then the real life friends uh? But dont let your friends get to you. If they get tired of hearing about Michael then fine. I found the best way is not just comming here but expressing it eather in a blog or journal. I chose my myspace blog which i only posted 2 about michael but they both helped. Its better then keeping your feelings bottled up or discussing them with people who will only judge you bc you didnt know Michael personaly. well if you ask me no one had to know Michael personaly to not feel bad and hurt by his passing. i know i will always be sad about Michael even listening to his music when i have finally just gotten the courage to do. course i skip the sad songs bc i will only cry my eyes but it helped. i saw feel however you want and express it the way you want. Dont let people tell you otherwise bc they will never understand. I hope that helps.
 
That's one of the things that is soo hard..that they don't understand, at all. I don't think they can understand how sad and depressed we all true fans got when he died... So yeah, I have to just stop talking to my friends about this...but when I see a youtube video that is beautiful or hear some news, and my friend is at my house or whatever..i wanna share it with her...I want her to see what I see. But she said to me on saturday "i've gotten over that MJ died, forgot about it, to me he was just music anyway, and the music is still here and lives on"... That is true tho, about the music, it will live on, and because of that MJ will always live on too..but for me he was much more then just music.
Yes, I find a LOT of comfort coming here...not just a lot, but all..since I have no one else that feels the same way I do..and that I can talk to..so I am so grateful for this place. I actually thought about starting to write a diary. But I'm afraid of losing it or something..
 
I know that feeling. Not alot of people get it or will ever get it. you just gotta let it not get to you and know that what you feel inside is your business. Michael may have been just music to some but in reality he was more then just music. Yeah his music will live on and so will his legacy and help keep him alive.

I think keeping a diary is a good idea. that way your feelings will remain private. if your afraid of loosing it or someone reading it just keep it in a safe place that you only know about and maybe keep with a lock and key. you can also share it on a online joural or blog and keep it set to private so that only you can see it. its better to express how you feel as much as you can so it doesnt drive you nuts. Michael was speacial. He will always be speacial. His passing is very hard on us all. When i see videos or hear stories i do cry. i cry when i see the VMA's tribute and hear Madonna's speech. its hard not to bc those words are so meaningful and heartfelt. i know we all can get through this at some point.
 
yes...you are right.. and yes, it's so hard watching his videos and reading interviews and hearing speeches about him or by him. I especially cry when it comes to his children, just a picture of his children out and about makes me sad and a tear can appear...I feel so for them. Just imagine how it is for them...
Do you write a diary online? How and where can you do that??
 
yeah i always shed a tear for his children. My heart goes out to them. I cant even imagine what they are going through. sweet little paris is such a trooper though!
I dont have a online dairy but i know there are places like LiveJournal and alot of people use Myspace to write whatever. I use Myspace. you can set your profile there to private so no one can see your info unless you allow them to. its easy.
 
Hey there,

Ignore her mate, you can mourn MJ any way you want it is Not unhealthy at all, it's a normal greifing proccess , people like this friend of yours are called inasentive they don't know how you are feeling or what they want to hear. If you need to talk I am here.
 
Thank You Mjfan1979. I havent spoken to her that much recently. If i could i would tell my friends how i feel and that they are being insenective but its no use. they will just find some way to make me look crazy and then go against me and make me look like the bad guy and force me to appologise so they dont have to which they never have for anything related to Michael. Sad but true. So now im just keeping to myself and if i want to keep bringing mj up on my myspace page which is was caused her to send me the message in the 1st place then i will. I dont care what they say or think bc they really are being cruel and dont want to admit it or feel any guilt about it at all.
 
Hey mjlovergurl003,
Take it easy. There are a lot more MJ lovers than those couple of ignorant people. Infact those ignorant ones are only pretending they dont like him. Put on a billie jean and they`ll be the first ones on the dance floor.
Ever since Michael passed away i have seen a lot of appreciation for him. The day he passed away, my mother was stunned and glued to the tv watching CNN. And she had never heard his songs, but just knows him. You might think how cant she know his songs. Well she doesnt speak english and doesnt take interest in english music. My brother in law started crying. My older sister listens to his music at full volume in her home theatre system. My neice and nephew whose 13 and 10 respectively listens to his music and knows his lyrics by heart now. A friend of mine from work bought all his albums and has been listening to MJ ever since. At work we had a discussion about him and everyone sympathised upon his untimely death. At work we all concluded that " people pretended they didnt like him" as i have stated earlier. I know all these people were not there when Michael needed them the most, just as Madonna said in her speech "that she feels she had betrayed him". We all realise it now. But the fact is there is sooo much love for him. Oh my god how can i say i think his the most beloved person on earth right now. With us millions of fans that has loved him from decades ago to his newly found fans around the globle. He is going to be loved and cherished for a very very long time. As long as we live he will live within us. And we dont need to go explaining to those ignorant people who take pleasure in toying with someone`s precious feelings. Maybe they have never loved someone truely and deeply as we did. Alas i feel sorry for them.
 
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Hey mjlovergurl003,
Take it easy. There are a lot more MJ lovers than those couple of ignorant people. Infact those ignorant ones are only pretending they dont like him. Put on a billie jean and they`ll be the first ones on the dance floor.
Ever since Michael passed away i have seen a lot of appreciation for him. The day he passed away, my mother was stunned and glued to the tv watching CNN. And she had never heard his songs, but just knows him. You might think how cant she know his songs. Well she doesnt speak english and doesnt take interest in english music. My brother in law started crying. My older sister listens to his music at full volume in her home theatre system. My neice and nephew whose 13 and 10 respectively listens to his music and knows his lyrics by heart now. A friend of mine from work bought all his albums and has been listening to MJ ever since. At work we had a discussion about him and everyone sympathised upon his untimely death. At work we all concluded that " people pretended they didnt like him" as i have stated earlier. I know all these people were not there when Michael needed them the most, just as Madonna said in her speech "that she feels she had betrayed him". We all realise it now. But the fact is there is sooo much love for him. Oh my god how can i say i think his the most beloved person on earth right now. With us millions of fans that has loved him from decades ago to his newly found fans around the globle. He is going to be loved and cherished for a very very long time. As long as we live he will live within us. And we dont need to go explaining to those ignorant people who take pleasure in toying with someone`s precious feelings. Maybe they have never loved someone truely and deeply as we did. Alas i feel sorry for them.
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Amen!
 
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