Fantasy

[MySerenity5]

I'm not sure if this is my way of coping with the loss but I've been fantasizing Michael's life of what ifs ever since he passed away. I have always done this but it increased even more so after his death.

Have you guys ever imagined what would happened if Michael went ahead with letting Oatmeal sponsor the tour instead of Pepsi- thereby avoiding the Pepsi accident. What if Michael never had vitiligo? People will never think that he is a 'freak.' If the 93 allegations never happened, I am sure we would have more amazing albums, innovative videos, and stunning concerts by Michael....

I often dream that this kind of happy Michael exists in a different world dimension...

I wished we all lived there too. T_T

In addition, I've lost my passion for music. I feel so cynical towars the current music industry. I've loved and lost the greatest and every artist just can't compare.

 

[lovelymj]

I think about what would have happened if he hadn't been accussed or died! But unfortunately you can't change the truth, although you always want the best things to happen to the people you love.

 

[Fluffy_Oz]

After the trial I used to fantasize about going back in time to the Thriller era, and warning Michael about all these things that future holds for him that I didn't wish to happen to him...
I don't do that anymore, though. Too painful, in light of his passing.

 

[MySerenity5]

After the trial I used to fantasize about going back in time to the Thriller era, and warning Michael about all these things that future holds for him that I didn't wish to happen to him...
I don't do that anymore, though. Too painful, in light of his passing.

Hhahah!! I do that too.. I guess it's all the fanfiction and cheesy movies I've been watching... Like, I will go back in time and warn him so he would live a happier life. My fantasy of Michael is so complete too. I even have a wife and chidren for him in my fantasy. Plus in my fantasy, Michael is so revered and respected. (sigh) I often use this as escapism from the pain... T_T

 

[Mechi]

I think there is some healing spirit in fantasy. I do not do it only with Michael... well actually since his passing I'm not really doing it anymore also.
But I have done it with Michael before... yeah he had a wife and children (I must admitt almost one per year poor wifey) in my fantasy also.

A few weeks ago I've discussed with my therapist that I really feel at times I do hear my boyfriend and Michael also at times talking as if they were with me. I asked my therapist if that's my fantasy is acting up or if it could be true or if I'm might going crazy... you know what my therapist did respond: "Does it matter? Better tell me what they say."

But yes since childhood I've in a way used my fantasy for comfort. As a teenager when a movie ended not happy I wrote completely new scrip books for the ending and did send them to Hollywood also lol.
I do also daydream at times about friends when I can't be with them... well maybe it's more plans I'm making for when I will be with them again.
Who cares... in imagination I think everything is allowed! lol

 

[MJfan10]

I'm not sure if this is my way of coping with the loss but I've been fantasizing Michael's life of what ifs ever since he passed away. I have always done this but it increased even more so after his death.

Have you guys ever imagined what would happened if Michael went ahead with letting Oatmeal sponsor the tour instead of Pepsi- thereby avoiding the Pepsi accident. What if Michael never had vitiligo? People will never think that he is a 'freak.' If the 93 allegations never happened, I am sure we would have more amazing albums, innovative videos, and stunning concerts by Michael....

I often dream that this kind of happy Michael exists in a different world dimension...

I wished we all lived there too. T_T

In addition, I've lost my passion for music. I feel so cynical towars the current music industry. I've loved and lost the greatest and every artist just can't compare.

I've been doing the same.

 

[Melania]

I often dream that this kind of happy Michael exists in a different world dimension...

I wished we all lived there too. T_T

Yes, I love how you worded that. I fantasize all the time...it's so painful because his life was so far from the fantasy of a life he deserved, but I guess the fantasizing process is somehow healing for me.
I feel the same as you with the lost passion for music thing too--I get so fed up listening to the radio these days.