YellowButterfly
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Hi, I'm new to this board. Before Michael Jackson died, I was never a big fan of his. But after he died, I find myself feeling very emotional. I find it strange that I feel so sad and depressed about his death because I was never a big fan to begin with.
I watched his funeral and felt extremely sad throughout the whole thing. Sad for his family and all the fans. Just looking at the coffin, knowing he's laying lifelessly inside it made me feel really bad.
Every day I find myself reading Michael Jackson articles, message boards, listening to his songs and watching videos and interviews on youtube. And feeling very sad that he's gone. He spoke so genuine and had a love of life and I felt bad for him that he went through so much pain and still cared for everybody.
I think about him throughout the whole day and every time I automatically feel very depressed that he's not here, alive, anymore. At night I go to bed, and lay there thinking about him. Thinking that his body is out there somewhere and it makes it very hard and emotional.
I read articles where people have said they have seen sighting of him after he had died. I know those articles are crazy, but thinking he may be still out there in hiding or something makes it a little bit more comforting. Even if I don't believe it, it gives me that small bit of hope.
I would never take my life and leave my family behind, but I feel really scared living in a world without Michael. He really did feel like the king of the world. Almost like a God. And now that God has left this world and left us all alone, it feels really scary living each day without him on this earth.
Yes, he's here in spirit and through his music and children, but it's just not the same, and I don't know how to come to terms with it properly.
After he died, I don't feel scared about dying like I used to. Knowing people like Michael have gone through it and are already there, I feel safer and less scared. When my time comes, it will help me not to be too scared about dying.
I watched his funeral and felt extremely sad throughout the whole thing. Sad for his family and all the fans. Just looking at the coffin, knowing he's laying lifelessly inside it made me feel really bad.
Every day I find myself reading Michael Jackson articles, message boards, listening to his songs and watching videos and interviews on youtube. And feeling very sad that he's gone. He spoke so genuine and had a love of life and I felt bad for him that he went through so much pain and still cared for everybody.
I think about him throughout the whole day and every time I automatically feel very depressed that he's not here, alive, anymore. At night I go to bed, and lay there thinking about him. Thinking that his body is out there somewhere and it makes it very hard and emotional.
I read articles where people have said they have seen sighting of him after he had died. I know those articles are crazy, but thinking he may be still out there in hiding or something makes it a little bit more comforting. Even if I don't believe it, it gives me that small bit of hope.
I would never take my life and leave my family behind, but I feel really scared living in a world without Michael. He really did feel like the king of the world. Almost like a God. And now that God has left this world and left us all alone, it feels really scary living each day without him on this earth.
Yes, he's here in spirit and through his music and children, but it's just not the same, and I don't know how to come to terms with it properly.
After he died, I don't feel scared about dying like I used to. Knowing people like Michael have gone through it and are already there, I feel safer and less scared. When my time comes, it will help me not to be too scared about dying.
