im a horabble fan

[marias21]

thank you all for replying to this post I'm going to try to make it by this Friday and this time to face my fears i think it would be better if i take a taxi form the train station over to the Mausoleum where he at so i can get pass all the other people that are berried there ( that way i dont have to walk and think about " OMG dead people " and start shaking ) so ill give you guys a post about it when I'm back form Glendale its a 3 hour ride form Riverside to Glendale since i have to travle by metrolink then transfer to Amtrack the only good think about the 3 hour ride is on the Amtrack they have food on board so ill buy some thing to eat while going to Glendale

 

[MJfan10]

Your not a horrible fan. What you did was very brave of you and I'm sure Michael is proud too.

 

[MR_E]

today i went to Forest Lawn to visit Michael form riverside ca i got flower that coasted $10 and all and was really happy that i was doing this because i made him a promise that i was going to visit him every week well off to the gates of frost lawn memorial park i went in and ask where the holy trance was the pointed me where it was but i dint have the nerve to go up there i have this big fear of cemeteries and over all funerals so i almost made it to the part where all the Head stones are at and I frost i just could not make it to where he was i was shaking i was like i want to go back home this was not a good idea now I'm really betting my self up because made a promise to him and now i broke it I'm just the worst fan

Please believe me, you will go when your ready, if you have a close friend you trust tell them and ask if they would go with you, believe me, ive been though the same thing, i couldnt go until years later when i went with a friend for the 1st time ... yes i cried n it was upsetting but it was something i needed to do but didnt have the strength to do it on my own...

Im sure you'll manage it when your ready