is anyone feeling the same

[Johanne]

I know exactly how you feel...when I see something on tv about him, I wanna see it, but on the other hand I don't want to see it also. Because it hurts..and I can really see what we have lost..

But on the other hand I have not been listening to anything else but MJ on my ipod since he died. Which brings me joy, but also sadness...it's a "two-egged sword"(or how you say it). But it makes me feel his love..to listen to his wonderful texts..but again, also very sad... hard to explain..

 

[MJSOPRECIOUS]

I still hurt just as much everyday like on the day he died i hate this we are all suffering so much

 

[snowhite]

is anyone feeling the same ?? lately ive been missing michael so much and when he comes on tv say a special airs on him i find it to painful to watch but i watch it but then it hurts after like the shock of june 25th 2009 comes right back especially if the special mentions his traigic death

yes it does...one moment I'm fine then I see something that reminds me of him and I start to cry just like that, it's like someone pushes a button and I start to cry, and the pain is as fresh as june 25th
it's taken a toll on me physically as well, 2 days ago I had an ulcer attack I felt so sick, after 3 months of not eating and sleeping properly I guess it had to happen eventually but I felt so sick I never want to feel like that again...the only time when I feel good is when I sleep and I don't feel anything, and after I wake up I have to avoid anything that reminds me of him in order to have a peaceful day because I swear I just can't handle it, you think time makes it easier no it doesn't