Reposting
@zinniabooklover's heart melter here to be able to talk about my feelings more openly.
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For you, it's a meditation aid. I do agree the shades of blue are sooo pleasant for the eye... I like this outfit a lot.
For me, though, it does not have that much of a calming quality. It might be weird to post this on Manhood but I'll explain. You know there are different sorts of hugs. In Heart Melters, I wrote that I imagine him waiting for long hugs in this picture. Some hugs provide solace. Some hugs cause one to be cutely aggressive. And there are some that are difficult to explain. You just want to... merge into each other? Become permanently glued together? When the other person's body and presence brings you so much joy and comfort. This is the type of hug I meant. I don't know if it's platonic, romantic, sexual, all at once or something different. And his body, all of its parts, look so amazing in this picture... Maybe I should try to meditate. But do I really want to let go of the thoughts of tugging on the shirt, of holding him tight? Or do I want those thoughts to eat me alive? That's mine to figure out.