I think he wanted me
not to play it. That's the freaky part about it. Didn;t want me to listen to it.

Keep moving about when the music was on , It was the knocking which put me on edge and just the
timing.That was what he was doing bloody dancing about , messing me about- i was like ....oh bugger ! no000000o0o00o!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im for it now

im gonna get done by a moth ! this is punishment .this is my end. murdered by a moth. It was quite big for a moth .! wasn't a small bird- birds won't be out at night surely. I know we have weather climate change but surely not...
I was watching You Tube as you do ..i had something on loop ..i will never forget it-



Then this like knock on the window . n a flash of this bright white. it really was quite a big bugger.








i swear this ...i jumped so far off that bed haha
you know how they ...bash in the window ? Do a little twiddly dance ? Well he was quite scary..because it seemed determined. it really seemed that way. I know they are but it was just the timing ....it was so freaky. I do have half Victorian lace nets though so maybe the dim light of the room attracted him.
yeah my night light was'nt on high , probably that was what it was though- an amount of light in tthe room any moth will get ya ! and moths don't tend to visit me

but that night light ,........

well it is not exactly bright even on it's highest setting

but i made the connection that it
must gotta b the music , and it would
not leave. It wasnt on loud though. There was nothing i was doing extra= that was going to be really attractive to it. no stero boom box whatever speakers It was a very simple intimate yt viewing on loop . And this guy seemed so stubborn . I've got double glazed windows so not exactly thin. So i thought ok im not turning it off mf u won't win this. u wont !
eventually, i
thought right im going 2 play you at your own game mister moth and i
muted yt ..and turned off the light .. But nope, the bugger was still there ! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!














It was stuck on my window now. it felt a
need to stick on my window. !! So i literally went cold haha i was like .... Oh. okay i hate u. i hate u. i hate u. go away.
the light was still on i and i was quite freaked by now, but i loved it inside , because it gave me a world of inspiration , and i was already getting my creativity flowing but i knew i could
actually might be fkn with something spiritual or otherworldly So0o0o on
that note , i sighed- gave in, became ' nicer' and i shut the yt tab down and it was still , and quiet , and dark and creepy n sinister and he was
still there! He was like stuck on the window. So i waited about 10 mins no word of a lie. and eventually my friend left. It was honestly like he was playing me at
my own game . It really felt like that music concerned him.And it really felt like we were having a bit of a battle.
i proceeded to write a story and it was quite inspiring . And eventually i cried.
but yeah
initially i was shocked cos in the beginning i was not turning any music/ light off for
anyone ,you see .."
and all insects are male ".[axxording to me ] because the buggers ...lol and he was bashing and when he wasn't , he was stuck to the window .so sort of a battle at 2 in the morning - i want him to come back tonight. I'm going to do it all over again . [ even though my senses say i shouldn't]
it's taken a while to write out because it still messed with my head
this wasn't him but ....