


"THIS IS IT" @THE DOLLAR STORE CANADA



This 16th Year hits real hard and different, I feel like I lost him all over again and I still HURT so badly all these cruel years later!!
The "This Is It" song has possessed me and consumed since June 25/25!
I feel him all around me now, somehow so much closer when the song is playing! I close my eyes and I dance to the sound of his voice!
I can literally feel him!! I know it sounds crazy but I am NOT certified anyways lol!!
The song has to be on LOOP every day and night now it is the only thing keeping me calm 24-7!!
Since I did not have the song with me everywhere I go (yet lol) it just plays repeatedly in my head and I hum it too!
So all of a sudden over the stores P.A the "TII" song starts to filter into my ears, it was quiet at first, and I never hear "TII" on the radio anymore here where I live in Canada or this store for that matter!
So the shock hit me first that I was not sure if I was actually hearing it, or not or just in looping in my own head!!
NOOOO nooooo they were playing IT, I had to hold my tears back the best I could and then my sister turns and looks
at me and I am telling her it is THE SONG playing through the entire store!!!
I realized my hands were still covering my mouth and trying not to cry out loud or an UGLY cry, but I was lost in the song again,
and I just started to dance and move and then the tears just came, like a soft flood I could not stop, I began to cry really hard
when my sister hugged me bceause I was making her cry too!
I just hugged myself, held myself right there in the middle of Lane 3 of the Dollar Store!
I cried and cried right between the cutest socks and the sparkling headbands!
THE HURT WAS BAD FOR HIM TODAY!!

