Back at Lily's Apartment, the two friends sat down to some ordered takeout of Chinese Food which consisted of Vegetable lo mein, and General Tso chicken courtesy of Lily herself; Michael was surprised at how well she made friends and got along well with just about anyone during her time here. She always said that once you get around and take the time to associate yourself with other people, then you know you had individuals in your corner whenever you really needed help or if they needed you for that matter even.
Lily thought in her head wondering how she should ask the question without making Michael feel either awkward or embarrassed even. After the secret that he revealed about himself, she was quite curious about how it lead to that point for him. This was a new fact that she didn't even know until just some minutes ago before coming back. Nevertheless, it was now or never.
"So Mike, when did you realized that you have been Bi?"
He stopped as the fork was frozen in his hold thus, placing it back down on the plate as well as taking a sip of his green tea juice then wiped his mouth with a napkin soon looking down at his hands like they were the most important things ever. He gently bit his bottom lip a habit that he picked up when he was younger whenever he was nervous or dreaded when Joe would have the belt in his hand in case if he and the rest of the boys would mess up. This was the side that no one ever knew about; only those whom were in his close inner circle, only saw it for themselves who he could trust.
Although he loved his mother dearly from the bottom of his heart, he couldn't tell her for within the Jehovah's Witness religion, being bi or even just gay for that matter was strictly prohibited, and forget Joe, Michael knew how much the elder Jackson male HATED people of the LGBTQ community that if he were to see two men holding hands, he would literally kill them with his own and that was the part that he was secretly afraid of because he quoted that "No son of his was going to be a Fag Fairy" and with those words, Mike had completely shut up not wanting to spill the beans.
Not now,
Not ever.
He lightly tapped on the table trying to find the words to say then he sighed. "Well, it's kinda hard for me to explain, now don't take it as an answer because....."
"Mike, your secret is safe with me, I promise, I won't tell anybody about this; you have my word; and if anybody has the nerve to ask, then I will fire back." She winked causing him to feel a little bit better. He slightly blushed as well as giving out a warm smile in return releasing a breath that he didn't realize he was holding.
"It started happening when I was around 16 at the time. Back then, I didn't know what was going on, but for some reason, I knew I was having these feelings inside that I tried to control."
"Was it around during that time when you and April had started going steady?" Lil asked.
"A couple months after that. One Saturday afternoon, we were at a diner having breakfast. And well, there was this cute waiter guy who served us. He was so handsome....and those muscles....anyway, I've never met anyone like him before. He gave the both of us free food and told us that it was on the house. But I still left him a tip anyway." Lily smirked and giggled knowing how Mike would grow weak in the knees and feel more hotter than July when it came onto men's biceps which were definitely his kryptonite.
"But then, I realized I fully became one when me and Latoya had gone to New York for to me film The Wiz with Diana."
"Seriously?" Lily asked seeing her friend nod.
"You better believe it. I'll never forget. One Friday night after we had finished with some scenes, the both of us had gone to Studio 54 to unwind; being there, was like a paradise because I could dance for fun, and not to perform in front of so many people; it was such a breather indeed." The Pop King grinned as he could remember the many weekends when he and Toy could dance the night away; it was the only time where he could really be himself. No Joe, no brothers, just him and his sister enjoying themselves and each-other.
And that was when he met him...
Among the many dancers, and neon colored lights, landed a nice-looking guy with shoulder length dark brunette hair, and the most silver colored eyes that he had never seen anyone have before in his late teen life. He looked quite dashingly sexy in a red wife beater in which his pecs outlined within the piece of clothing, a pair of acid washed ripped jeans and also what looked like to be black combat boots that made him looked like a hot punkster who came from a metal rock concert.
What a devilishly handsome hunk....
But what Mike didn't know was that the guy he was literally eyeballing, was making his way towards both siblings for he started to grow nervous and shaky causing Latoya to look at her little brother in concern but also quickly turned into teasing when she saw devilishly handsome hunk coming as she told him just to act natural thus, pushing him towards the slightly taller male.
Lily laughed out loud causing the Jackson singer to blush uncontrollably.
"She did that!?"
"I was literally out of my mind! I just didn't know what to say at that point. I seriously acted like the awkward student wanting to ask the cute girl out to the prom, or maybe I was like the girl acting too giddy to be asked out for prom. But anyway, he told me that his name was Antoine, and that he had went to the club to meet up with his friends for a night out, but they never came. So, we started to dance and got to know each-other."
"That's nice, whatever happened to him anyway? What did he do?"
"He was originally from Montana, but he left home after he had finished High School and moved to the city to pursue a singing career where he met 3 men who loved heavy metal rock just like him. He might have looked like he didn't give a darn about other people, but in reality, he was actually nice and friendly to me. He treated me like a regular person instead of a celebrity which I was happy and grateful for. He would invite me to his rehearsals where he even introduced me to his friends who all treated me like I was apart of them; we would go out to dinner, go to the arcade, and even took me to watch a movie with him."
"Ooohhhh...it sounded like you were hot for him weren't you?" Lil teased loving to see the beautiful scarlet blush spread on Michael's cheeks.
"So cute and adorable..." She thought to herself.
"But what about April? I mean, not to be rude or anything, but weren't you guys still dating at the time? Didn't she ever heard about Antoine?"
"Yeah, after when shooting for the movie had wrapped up, and we went back home to California...." He bit his lip once again as Lil started to grow confused like he was hiding something else.
"Mike, is there something you're not telling me?" She soon crossed her arms as he started to sweat a little bit despite the air being on and was quite cool within the apartment.
"On our last night here, he invited me over to his place to watch a film with him. He was very welcoming and even ordered pizza for the both of us. Halfway into into it, he took me by the hand like I was a treasured maiden to him. And...he kissed me."
One could even imagined on how Lily looked very surprised! She then blinked twice while Mike looked the other way not wanting to see her reaction. Even though it had been 10 years since that happened, he felt as if that he had betrayed April by not telling her; deep down, he was afraid to tell her the truth and what would've been between them at that time. She was his very first friend whom he had made when he and the rest of the family had moved to Encino back in the Spring of 71' since then, they shared secrets, laughter, tears, and even embarrassing moments; he couldn't bare the fact that she would eventually walk away and leave him after all that they had been through; she had never used him for her own gain, for money, or for social status, instead by making her own way in life despite the numerous times by asking her if she needed anything but would only hear a no each time.
"Woah, is that all you guys did? It didn't lead to anything more than that?"
"No, oh my God, no. He was very understanding when I told him that I had a girlfriend and said that he was actually but secretly gay, but he was very respectful and even asked me if I was actually bisexual at that point. I told him that I really didn't know what I was, but the thing is, I'm not really into labels, and nobody can't tell you who to fall in love with. Whoever I love, I know I would cherish them just as they would cherish me."
Lily smiled and took his hand into hers. "I'm pretty sure your love is near to you than you think." She winked and took her plate and Michael's plate to clean up as he followed after to help.
It was now 11:37 by the time the movie had finished playing. Lily suggested that after dinner, both she and Michael could watch Three Men and a Baby which she already had the video tape for. Seeing that it was a great idea, he soon made some popcorn, while she got a blanket for them to cover up with. During the song of Daddy's Girl that was playing while the three friends were having fun with the infant, Mike's hand had found its way wrapped around the aspiring designer's forearm in which she secretly took in a victory for; after all, his hand was so warm that it felt like protection as she slightly moaned soon leaning her head onto his shoulder for comfort.
Shoes were placed neatly near the doorway as his sock covered feet found themselves on her coffee table, as well as her bare feet were on the sofa. She didn't mind being in this position, the scent of his sandalwood cologne made its way towards her nose as it slightly made her eyes droop a bit loving the smell; it wasn't overly masculine, but just enough where it smelt like him, smelt like love, affection, and strength in which he displayed at times whenever he would come over to the Sanderson Estate back in Pasadena to visit as he got older.
She enjoyed moments like these when the world stood still, and there was no urgency to do anything else. She admitted that at times, she did feel homesick, she missed her Mum's warm embrace whenever Darla would hug her, she missed her older brothers' teasing her, and of course, she really missed April who would always have baked goods ready that she would try out, or bring as comfort depending on the mood that one would have. Sure, she knew that she could always call her big sister now and again just to talk, just to hear her voice to know that she was still there no matter what, but still, it wasn't the same in her opinion than seeing her face-to-face. Despite knowing that she was going to get married soon, and that Gilbert was indeed a great and cool guy for her, she feared that she was losing her favorite sister.
Even though she would never say that out loud.
But all in all, she was happy that Michael was here; it was great to see a familiar face to know that with him around, it was great fun and that there was never a dull moment with him. The video tape was soon ejected out of the vcr, along with the TV now off as both friends stretched their stiff limbs and got up from the couch. Seeing the time, Michael got a little embarrassed knowing that he stayed a little too late for comfort; as he was about to put on back his loafers, Lily soon stopped him.
"Now I know you're not leaving out here at this time of night." She scolded leaving him to bite his bottom lip once again and hold his head down feeling like a little boy who just got caught with his hand in the cookie jar.
"I wouldn't want to put you out of your way like this Lil, you have already done so much, that I don't want to overstay my welcome." Lily shook her head and lightly scoffed.
"Mike, you're my friend. Do you honestly think that if you were doing that, I would've put you out by now? Don't get me started, it's great to have company around here once in awhile; since Nancy and Jake are away with their own pleasures, it can be quiet here at times, plus, even though the guys are away on tour, and with April going to be getting married soon, it will be even more lonely than usual.
Shaply eyebrows were soon furrowed feeling sorry for the young woman. He knew that even though she was old enough to be independent, there were times that it could get lonesome. But he soon smiled.
"Alright then, you're right. Um, if you happen to have a spare blanket and pillow, then I can sleep on the couch." He said but soon flinched when he looked at the blonde's expression like he just insulted her mother.
"Get real Twinkle Toes, just because I live in an apartment, doesn't mean that I only have 1 bedroom. Come on, let me show you the guestroom."
"You have a guestroom?"
"Of course, so whenever company comes over here, they have somewhere to sleep for a few days or for a night, depending on how long they stay."
The door was soon opened as Lil let Michael in thus taking in his surroundings as he looked all over feeling how this room was warm and welcoming with it being so aesthetically serene with how the colors blended together to make the atmosphere calm.
"If you want to clean up, there's an extra toothbrush in the cabinet and some towels if you like to take a shower, but I don't have a change of clothes, so I can't help you with that part. Sorry."
"It's nice, thank you so much Lily, for everything that you have done."
"No problem, anytime Michael."
Going to stop here, look out for more by tomorrow night hopefully! Enjoy your weekend!
Happy Sunday Morning Gosh, you would not believe of how much snow we have down here, it's so thick! But anyway, on with the story!
Michael stared up at the ceiling lost in thought. He always knew that due to his endless creative mind, as well as hours of rehearsing, and perfecting, that his insomnia would kick in causing him to not be able to have a decent good night's sleep. But this time, it wasn't about thinking of dance moves to perfect, nor was it about the music, instead, it was about a certain someone in mind. In his head, and in his opinion, he felt that this was wrong; he had always saw Lily as like a little sister, someone like Janet due to them being the youngest in the families where due to them being the last, they have always felt like that they were misunderstood for not being able to have the chance to show the world what they could do. Sure, Janet became very successful within the television and now the Music Industry where she was able to make her own pathway, and Lil was doing absolutely amazing within her own craft too.
He would never admit it, but there were also times, that deep down, even though he and April broke up on good terms, and still remained very good friends, there was a part of him that was still pretty much in love with her; but he would never say it out loud. She was the first person that made him feel normal along with helping him how to balance his then child superstar lifestyle and his normality to still have some breathing time. She had never used him for fame, fortune, or status, and stuck to her morals and values of working hard to achieve her own goals without asking anyone for help in return; and that was what he loved about her.
But with Lily on the other hand, Mike did see April in her, but with more fire and determination, not that April didn't have any, she really did, but there was just something about the youngest of the Thompson siblings that spoke titanium within those beautiful light gray eyes of hers. Those orbs spoke volumes of pure energy, but also calm especially how the way they sparkled like diamonds in the rough that used their most brightest lights to shine a way. He soon turned over to another side hoping to drown out the thoughts that have been plaguing him all day.
"I can't, I just can't. Please God, I can't do this; it would be so wrong to feel like I want to date my little sister. Show me the right path, lead me on what I should do. But on the other hand, I don't want to break her heart, she's such a sweet young lady, that it would be so vile of me. But on the other hand, it's not like she's underage, argh! What should I do!? Maybe some sleep will be able to help me. I can figure out the rest in the morning."
Meanwhile, in Lily's room, the young woman was going through the same thoughts too. She didn't know what to do about Michael; she had always looked up to him like an older brother, a hero even! Sure, she loved Josh, Tim, and Jim, after all, they were her three older siblings, who would take the time to give her the time of day, by playing with her, or have tea parties with her whenever they weren't busy rehearsing, recording, or touring across America, or outside of the country, April was her favorite sibling of all. The two would always share secrets with each-other, anything miscellaneous, or if it was something very important that she didn't want to tell to Darla. They have had such an unbreakable bond from the minute when she was born, that it felt like April was her mother.
But, with Michael, he was something very magical and special. When she had met the rest of the Jackson family when she was just 5-years-old at the time, it felt like having surrogate older brothers and sisters except for Janet despite them only being a year apart, she saw her as like a baby sister as well as being the two youngest of both families. She loved them like they were her second family, and Hayvenhurst was her second home whenever she, April, Tiffany, and Rachel would visit.
With Michael, he was like a Beacon of light, who would always make her feel included and would always listen to what she wanted to say even though she didn't understand anything about music, but still wanted to feel more grownup. The more he grew, the more handsome he became. Her urges were then acting up as she tried very hard to calm them down. As she got older, even going into High School, she started dating thinking that if she could go out with guys whom were either the same age as her or even just a couple years older than her, then maybe the urges for him would go away; but three months down the road, she would get bored with one boy, and tell them that she would be just experimenting only for them that would get annoyed saying that maybe her preference were just much older guys in which she would fire back and run off.
There was just something about the Pop Icon that made him so cute, but still handsome and attractive. Of course, he was very famous where he could get any girl and guy that he wanted with just a snap of his fingers, but that was just it, nobody took the time to get to know the man behind the music, behind the money, and behind the fame. They only wanted something from him to have the taste of the good life, and what it would feel like to be amongst the rich and the famous, their share of the piece of pie just so they could brag and show off to their friends and family members.
But Lily, who has known Michael for years, had always seen. The loneliness, the isolation, people had always dreamed of becoming famous, but deep down, it was no walk in the park; there was always a price to pay in order to persevere in order to reach the top, but at the end of the day, all you wanted was someone to share your life with. She soon sighed couldn't get even a wink of sleep without the thoughts running through her head. She then got up out of bed putting on her fluffy floral robe and fluffy slippers as she left her room and tiptoed two doors down towards the guestroom where she could see Mike asleep.
He looked so peaceful. One, two, three steps she took towards him careful not to make any form of noise as she witnessed how calm he looked. The poor sweet thing; years of endless rehearsals, perfecting, and performing could really have an affect on someone's sleep cycle to the point they would literally try to find ways to just close their eyes if only for a moment. His face looked relaxed and his breathing was calm like he was finally able to indulge in his own dreams without any interruptions whatsoever. She got closer, and closer until, she planted a light, feathery kiss on his cheek.
"Sweet dreams Michael....I love you..." She mumbled out as she carefully took her time and left quietly shutting the door behind her, but she didn't go back to her room. Instead, she stopped in front of another door but with this particular one, it had a sign around the knob that read:
Do Not Disturb.
Work In Progress.
The one good thing about apartments, was that some of them had an extra room where anyone could make them as whatever they wanted. Be it a Home Office, Art Studio, or a Dark Room for photography, the possibilities were endless. For Lily Thompson, she decided was to go all out to make it into her Fashion Designing Studio where mannequins of different sizes were lined neatly at the wall. Paper sketches of many people along with children whom were dressed in different styles and colors of clothing, were pinned on corkboards to get a clear idea of how she wanted the look to be. Two large foldable tables were at an L-shaped within a corner where 4 sewing machines, fabrics that were stacked on top of each-other, and many accessories sat in either clear or colorful kits ready for any little detail to be added in the finished product.
She walked towards a standing mannequin where a red blazer with intricate embroidery was covered in protective plastic. She smiled warmly admiring her hard work as it took her weeks just to find the right shade of red anyone could have for fabric. The diamonds were another story; she didn't purchase them from any arts & crafts store, instead, she bought them from an elderly woman in exchange for cleaning her apartment, watering her plants, and running some errands for her. So amazed by her amount of dedication, she didn't loan them, nor did she ask for any money either; she gave them to her as a token for gratitude and to also tell her that the diamonds were in the form of luck to only use them for a person who she loved the most.
She blushed remembering the lady's words thinking that it was just a bunch of nonsense not wanting to be rude, but soon found out that she would've been right all that time as she shook her head thus turning off the light but not without looking back at her creation.
"I sure hope he likes it." She said then closed the door behind her.
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