What loving Michael does to you

[Maturerastan]

I think loving Michael did something to me, it went too deep. Loving Michael feels like carrying a secret ache, something so deep it becomes part of who you are. Time moves, life changes, people marry, build homes, share beds and mornings. Some of us will stand beside another man and some already do, maybe? And yet, somewhere beneath all of that, Michael remains, never really leaves our mind or heart..
What hurts the most is not that he is gone but that the love has nowhere to go. You will never touch his face, never feel his body close to yours, never wake beside him or tell him every day how much you love him. You will never feel the weight of his presence, the warmth of his skin, that warm safety of being held by the one you adore. But that life does not exist and knowing that is a grief that never fully settles! I don’t believe I will ever love a man the way I love Michael. Not because others are unworthy but because this love was never ordinary. It doesn’t ask permission, It doesn’t end, It doesn’t need justification. Call it obsession if you want but I call it devotion, I call it recognition and In some strange unexplainable way my soul knew his

 

[Sarah_MJ]

I am sorry that you feel pain. I don't want to give you advice unless you wish me to do it. Maybe just that it is always good to be open to people around you and let them in if you like or love them - because sometimes you don't see what you have if you concentrate only on what you can't have and that would be too bad.

To me, Michael has never been someone I want to be in a relationship with but rather a father figure. And even before he died he couldn't be there for me from person to person. But I believe he once said "If you want to be close to me listen to the music. The love is stored there and will not die." So he is still there and I still feel being connected to him. Over the years my fandom also changed. Whereas I idiolized Michael as a kid, I now see him more as a human being with faults and unperfections, but loveable.

I also really believe that Michael wouldn't want you to be in constant pain or grief. He would want you to live and to be free. So maybe one day you can see the love that is around you and the people you can have in your life. And that would never mean that your love for Michael is getting smaller.

 

[PrinceLucien]

I think loving Michael did something to me, it went too deep. Loving Michael feels like carrying a secret ache, something so deep it becomes part of who you are. Time moves, life changes, people marry, build homes, share beds and mornings. Some of us will stand beside another man and some already do, maybe? And yet, somewhere beneath all of that, Michael remains, never really leaves our mind or heart..
What hurts the most is not that he is gone but that the love has nowhere to go. You will never touch his face, never feel his body close to yours, never wake beside him or tell him every day how much you love him. You will never feel the weight of his presence, the warmth of his skin, that warm safety of being held by the one you adore. But that life does not exist and knowing that is a grief that never fully settles! I don’t believe I will ever love a man the way I love Michael. Not because others are unworthy but because this love was never ordinary. It doesn’t ask permission, It doesn’t end, It doesn’t need justification. Call it obsession if you want but I call it devotion, I call it recognition and In some strange unexplainable way my soul knew his

It’s okay. I’m so sorry you’re hurting. But I believe someday we will all be reunited together with our soul family. We may never fully understand the purpose of life, the way things work…or why things turned out the way they did. It’s a tough reality to wake up to every day. I live with it too. But we have each other as a community and that’s what makes it all worthwhile

 

[someplace_else]

Maybe you can find a way of looking at it more objectively?

I totally get what you are writing and I think it's okay to feel that way (all feelings are justified). But in my opinion, you should always try to keep space in your heart for a real life relationship.

That doesn't mean you are not allowed to love Michael anymore. It's always possible to have love for more than one person, most people also have multiple non-romantic friendships, so why should this be different.

With looking at it more objectively, I mean: find out why there is so much love for Michael (specifically try looking at yourself and your upbringing, problems you have/had, what he triggers in you etc.).

And also, we have to keep in mind that we know him but don't really know him personally. Although he was an exceptional, wonderful human being, I am sure being in a relationship with him wouldn't have been very easy. Probably. And of course when you can't "get" someone or something the desire is over the top, greetings from my friend dopamine.

At least I am reminding myself of these things regularly to not get lost in thoughts. I mainly try to see Michael as "home"... that's what it feels like. Hope y'all know what I mean by that. Like a solid rock in my life, I always can and will get back to.

And I know very well why I feel such a deep connection to him when I look at my past. So, this way I can have a pretty clear view on my feelings and thoughts. Most of the time at least .

 

[PrinceLucien]

Maybe you can find a way of looking at it more objectively?

I totally get what you are writing and I think it's okay to feel that way (all feelings are justified). But in my opinion, you should always try to keep space in your heart for a real life relationship.

That doesn't mean you are not allowed to love Michael anymore. It's always possible to have love for more than one person, most people also have multiple non-romantic friendships, so why should this be different.

With looking at it more objectively, I mean: find out why there is so much love for Michael (specifically try looking at yourself and your upbringing, problems you have/had, what he triggers in you etc.).

And also, we have to keep in mind that we know him but don't really know him personally. Although he was an exceptional, wonderful human being, I am sure being in a relationship with him wouldn't have been very easy. Probably. And of course when you can't "get" someone or something the desire is over the top, greetings from my friend dopamine.

At least I am reminding myself of these things regularly to not get lost in thoughts. I mainly try to see Michael as "home"... that's what it feels like. Hope y'all know what I mean by that. Like a solid rock in my life, I always can and will get back to.

And I know very well why I feel such a deep connection to him when I look at my past. So, this way I can have a pretty clear view on my feelings and thoughts. Most of the time at least .

Yeah, that’s some wonderful advice right there

Your happiness should always be your number 1 priority. @Maturerastan , I think it would be wise to use your discernment in this situation. Michael loved all of his fans very much and would want you to be healthy and take care of yourself. If your love for him is distracting you from your real world duties, to the point where you genuinely want to call obsession “dedication”…you must question the source of your feelings for him. If you consider yourself to be a spiritual individual, like I do, you need to be aware and protective of your energy and the energies around you. Negative energies can manifest as something kind and loving, that try to lure you down a path that is not meant for you. They can use your fan love for Michael as a hook to gain access.

This might sound like a bunch of mumbo jumbo to some people, but it’s true. The devil is very deceptive.

Nothing at all wrong with believing you love someone you have never met. It’s beautiful, it’s magical, it fills a void in your heart that you may have felt has been missing all your life. But your mission here isn’t over yet.

 

[StarlightXX]

Michael was a fantastic, exceptionally talented man - he will never be forgotten. Millions of people love him. There’s a saying on Instagram that he’s so famous, he has fans that aren’t even born yet.