LOL remember when you didn't think of Michael sexually at all?? Look at you now! I am so proud hahah
I think the easy answer here is - the internet. It's that simple. I see so many more images of Michael than I ever did before. It's impossible not to respond. I'm not really an online person. I'd rather stare at the sky. I mostly went to the internet for info. No-one else has ever got me spending this much time online. Only Michael has been able to get me here. This world of Michael images is something else. A feast for all the senses. It was only yesterday that you posted a gold leotard photo that had me bursting into tears and then spending the rest of the day shaken. And it's not surprising because it's in the context of some of the other images I've seen recently. Sexual Power and Beautiful Restraint / MM90 - air guitar / Hiker - my fave gold leotard which I found in the archive - the black pvc jacket gif / MM90. These are very different to the type of images that were routinely in the papers back in the day. Now it's all
But yes, everything you said here I agree with 1000000%. It is EXACTLY like watching him ______ and it makes my mind explode
. These types of gifs and these types of moves are my absolute favorite of him (aside from him smiling because his smile is so gorgeous I get butterflies just thinking about it -- although sometimes it's close lol).
I think the first time I really thought this was when I came across the black Bad top gif. I'd had intimations before but that image really made me go, 'er, what now?' And then when I came across this silver top gif that just finished me off. Yeah, it does make your mind - and maybe some other things - explode. Just can't see any other way to look at that image.
His movements were just so electrifying, sensual, and sexual
See, for me it's still more about the dancing than anything even though I'm loving this 'evolving' phase I'm going through. I would say exactly this about his dancing. He is sexual when he dances but it isn't (for me) the main focus. When I watch him dance or move it's almost Zen. I can isolate one particular moment and it will be so complete, so meaningful, so beautiful, so profound that nothing else can touch it.
1 - Beat It - the bit in the corridor where he's backlit and he kind of turns his legs to the side and creates that amazing silhouette.
2 - SC - so many moments but the main one, actually, I don't even know how to describe it. It's immediately after the little African American kid has done his dance moves in the alleyway with Sean Lennon watching. This is the 4 minute version, btw. The time stamp is approx 2m 52s, IIRC. If that was the only moving image of Michael I was allowed to keep I'd be OK. It's so perfect and so ... it's everything.
I could go on but you get my drift. There is also that graceful curve he creates. When Michael leans back (at the end of MITM?) that's another Zen moment. The angle of his body, the beautiful curve. Is he cutting through the golden section? I have no idea. I know nothing about art. But there is something going on there that just sends me into something ... I dunno, it's just breathtaking.
Like, we have already firmly established that he was clearly going for this reaction through his movement and stylizing it with his clothing, accessories, etc. so that with enough watching we couldn't help but see him this way...
Exactly so. 'With enough watching ... ' I'm seeing a whole new side to Michael simply because I can. Obviously, Michael's fans saw all this back in the day. I didn't. I was all wrapped up in my Zen moments. I clearly needed all this stuff the internet is throwing at me. I'm not complaining. Bring it on! Having access to SO much material and being able to watch / look as much as I want ... it's just Wow!
BUT -- I also think some of this kind of movement was just happening without thinking, which makes it even sexier. Because I think what it all boils down to is that he was just naturally, authentically, an incredibly sexy man with massive MASSIVE sex appeal.
God, yeah. There's nothing I can add to this. The man was just fan - f****** - tastic!!
Let's talk about the thrusting for a minute lol.
Ooh, yes please! And then let's watch it again. And again. And, maybe again. Just to be sure, y'know.
We have this deep thrusting here...this passionate, sweaty thrusting like he's letting us know no one else will ever satisfy us again...
Sigh. Yes, the deep thrusting. Which leads to
But then... you have this more sensual, gentle, rocking kind of thrusting that feels completely instinctual and just like it's sex oozing from him...
This is definitely my territory. Don't forget, you're having wild fantasies, I'm having daydreams. I'm better when things are low-key. Michael is too much for me, lol. He definitely isn't trying to be sexy. He just IS. Just to be clear, yes, he does stuff intentionally. A lot of what he does is deliberate. But it is grounded in his natural, erotic, sexual power and charisma. It is just there and he uses it and shapes it any way he wants whenever he wants. But, yeah, 'rocking', 'oozing'. Now my thoughts are going to very 'interesting' places. Mm ...
Why does he have to move like this?! To make that last GIF I ended up watching a few other performances including Rock with You at Wembley, which I'm obsessed with, and sometimes it honestly feels like he's going to explode with how much is inside of him. At any given moment, his body is moving so many different ways with variations of subtlety it makes me want to cry because I take it all in and I feel like I can't recover from it.
Exactly so. I veer wildly from feeling like all my responses are fine and wonderful and I'm loving it etc. Next minute, the exquisite torture is too much and I feel like I can't cope, can't contain it, don't understand it and certainly can never recover from it. It's fabulous but there is definitely a 'torture' element to all of this. Which I haven't experienced with anyone else which I think is why I don't know how to cope. I have never been through anything like this before so I have no point of reference.
I don't even know what I'm saying anymore lol.
Me neither. We're all in the same boat. Don't we all say this over and over? I love him but he turns my brain to mush. My emotions, whatever ... it's all just ... all over the place.