How Are You Feeling Today?

Still... exhausted. Have to finish the third video tomorrow morning, so I can hop on the train on time (please, dear train, be on time...), get my tattoo, come back in the evening and maybe have to change some parts of the videos on Saturday, if the customers want changes. Yep. Good. 😂
 
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The day got off to a bad start. I felt extremely anxious, to the point where I threw up. I took a shower and sat with the water running against me to ease my stomachache. I hesitated to cancel my appointment with a counselor and my internship day, but I decided to go anyway, and I'm so glad I didn't cancel anything! I started an internship where I work with people with Down syndrome and others with intellectual disabilities. They are lovely; I loved my day with them. They hug me, and one of them calls me her "princess." I'm hopeful for the future :)
 
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The day got off to a bad start. I felt extremely anxious, to the point where I threw up. I took a shower and sat with the water running against me to ease my stomachache. I hesitated to cancel my appointment with a counselor and my internship day, but I decided to go anyway, and I'm so glad I didn't cancel anything! I started an internship where I work with people with Down syndrome and others with intellectual disabilities. They are lovely; I loved my day with them. They hug me, and one of them calls me her "princess." I'm hopeful for the future :)
Sounds great, I hope you make a lot of wonderful experiences there 🥳
 
i feel pissed off i was a lovely mood then i wake up to bs, when someone starts coming for my friends i get a little in my feelings...

random: omg but! i was overstimulated yesterday my bf was driving and l literally shoved my sneaker in his face and was like, "do you like my socks? are my feet too big?" bro didn't even glitch he patted my sneaker and said, "oh my gosh we're matching" and pointed to his socks and said, "i love your feet they're the perfect size tell me about your sneakers?" so i just went from talking about my sneakers, sandwiches and how my dad solved a rubik cube and why i didn't like chihuahuas. bro was illin.
 
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i feel pissed off i was a lovely mood then i wake up to bs, when someone starts coming for my friends i get a little in my feelings...

random: omg but! i was overstimulated yesterday my bf was driving and l literally shoved my sneaker in his face and was like, "do you like my socks? are my feet too big?" bro didn't even glitch he patted my sneaker and said, "oh my gosh we're matching" and pointed to his socks and said, "i love your feet they're the perfect size tell me about your sneakers?" so i just went from talking about my sneakers, sandwiches and how my dad solved a rubik cube and why i didn't like chihuahuas. bro was illin.
my head exploded while reading this 😂

So cute! 🥰❤️ I adopted a beautiful white german shepherd yesterday. Ironically, it was his birthday 🥳🎂 I feel in my heart that we were meant to be! I have named him Pan, after Peter Pan 🧚✨

Ooooh congratulations, give him some cuddles from me 🤩
 
Annoyed by everything today. And apparently the neighbours above me bought either a treadmill or a sound system because for over 30 minutes I am hearing boom boom boom...love it.

So happy that from Tuesday on my only problem will be to care about 4 horses and a cat 🤌
 
I didn’t sleep well last night so I’m a little bit stressed out. But I have plans to clean my home and decompress.

I got a bunch of new stuff for Pan. I was told that he was sleeping on the floor with his last owners. Now he has a huge orthopedic bed with comfy blankets and pillows 💗
 
i'm so tired. my sister randomly slept in bed with me at 6am...she somehow got into my dorm room bc she got locked out her apartment. my bf made up a song for me last night. it was called, "[MY NAME]'s Moods". it basically describes my moods on the regular from his pov and it was just him banging horribly on the piano...the only lyrics were, "she's mad! she's mad!".
 
*sobs in lack of friend on ft with me*
applemar left me and now my hs friend wont answer cuz shes playing a game with family

i told myself i was gonna be productive but ive been on with a bunch of friends and we all just watching MJ stuff
so not good in the productivity side but doing fabulous in the entertainment side of the day
oh, and also super mad that its taking an entire like, 7 hours to get a single load of laundry done cuz apparently college student dont know how to move stuff around and the dryer doesnt know how to dry 😑
 
Like in a parallel universe.

This week I am in my hometown because I have to take care of my friend's stable. Round about 50.000 people live here. Just went grocery shopping and everything was empty. I am talking about a very big supermarket, 2 floors, maybe 20 people in there 😂.

I live in a city with like 500.000 residents and grocery shopping is hell every time. Mind blown.
 
Like in a parallel universe.

This week I am in my hometown because I have to take care of my friend's stable. Round about 50.000 people live here. Just went grocery shopping and everything was empty. I am talking about a very big supermarket, 2 floors, maybe 20 people in there 😂.

I live in a city with like 500.000 residents and grocery shopping is hell every time. Mind blown.
Lucky. That sounds fun. I love horses. The last time I went horseback riding they had 20 horses ready for our group and I totally fell in love with this beautiful black mare. The odds were slim that I would get her because they choose at random, but I did. That was magical 🐴✨

Grocery shopping sucks. I try to order everything online to avoid the crowds. My area is super busy.
 
I have a bad headache
And I’ve actually drank water today
Maybe it’s cuz of how I’m sleeping or the amount of screens? Or maybe my music is too loud 🤷‍♀️
Got classes tomorrow again
Why are college books so expensive? 😭💔
 
Just decided that I'm going to use my highschool track after school and on weekends to practice my running, because track and field meet is coming soon. I don't really want to, but gotta stay fit, win, and not be humiliated, am I right?

I think I'll also practice my baseball throwing and catching some more with my brother soon.

And I'm going to read a lot of books, and finish one tomorrow.
 
i feel alot. i had a fever last night. my roommate was otp chatting with her friends. i tried to sleep but the noise and lights were making me crash out. (my roommate kept saying, "ten more minutes). at 1:30am i called my bf, crying bc i overwhelmed. he said, "tell your god d*mn roommate to shut up". he played cocomelon which made me laugh and i fell asleep to that.

somehow when i was sleeping, my bf had a mini fire in his microwave and clogged the toilet with leftovers...???

i woke up at 5am to my roommate lowkey chanting - "adonai, we will rise, adonai, we will rise". that spooked the crap outta me! then i went back to sleep. i woke up to my bf at 7am, teaching me how to tie a tie because it's his first day of teaching.

i'm like jEsUS!
 
Trying to pick up horse poo that is frozen into the ground is really a task. I accidentally bent a metal tool, which I used to seperate the poo from the ice. Now I can't bend it back into it's original shape. Yep. My day in a nutshell. It was fun though 😂
 
Google translate time again!!!

I suffer from anxiety, but I'm much better equipped than before to rationalize my thoughts. However, despite my rationalizing them, my body reacts as if it's no longer connected to my mind. They contradict each other. As a result, I feel nauseous every time, my heart races, I sleep very little and very poorly, and I have stomach aches... I have to go to my internship. I hate this feeling; it's impossible to eat anything before leaving in the morning. I constantly consider not going, but I'm extremely proud of myself for going anyway! I'm making progress!
 
Trying to pick up horse poo that is frozen into the ground is really a task. I accidentally bent a metal tool, which I used to seperate the poo from the ice. Now I can't bend it back into it's original shape. Yep. My day in a nutshell. It was fun though 😂
Oh no D: LOL well it’s good exercise at least. And I know the horses definitely appreciate your efforts 💗
 
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