12 Hours..15 mins..til "This Is It".. And That Is ALL, that there IS!!!!

[MJ TinkerBell]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9V-YJFkuIFU

I don't know how to feel..

I thought I 'd feel SO EXCITED!!

SO HYPED, AND GEEKED!!!Like my feet would never touch the ground..

All this time I have waited for this very DAY!!!

In my spirit, I am scared of the tears and the pain..
I know I will not be the same in 12hrs and 12mins..Everything will change..

How I feel, How I know, What I thought I felt, What I thought I was feeling..ALL NEVER TO BE THE SAME!!

I am scared, I am in fear, of what the pain will do to Me.

Seeing Him NEW, and Fresh, and ALIVE.

Such a contrast to what the TRUTH now IS!!!

I don't want to feel the pain of the LOSS, over and over again!

And I know I will see this movie over and over again!

The NEW Michael..I am so HUNGRY and RAVENOUS for NEW MICHAEL!!
ANYTHING NEW MICHAEL!!!

Still being Him, alive and creative, making things happen for ALL to see..Like it was no sweat at ALL, no effort needed..naturally..

I don't expect to see anything really, I expect to be crying so DAMN hard, I couldn't possibly see everything, with the tears so thick in my eyes!!

But I will see HIM!!
I will FEEL HIM!!
I will LOVE HIM!!
I will UNDERSTAND HIM!!
I will ALWAYS NEED HIM!!

That is what I am truely afraid of..the needing HIM part!!
Like needing Him EVERYDAY!!

I am scared, of the emotional pain of the "TRUTH" as I know it today, Him not here..Me needing to LOVE more of HIM!!

I am afraid, I will sing His songs, to feel better..
I am in fear, I will dance to His songs to get over..
I am terrified, I will cry to His songs to get by
I am sad, I will listen to His songs, and not want to die..

I AM SCARED, THE TRUTH HURTS SO MUCH..
THE TRUTH IS this the LOVE I HAVE FOR HIM IS NEVER ENOUGH..

I AM SAD, I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WILL DO..
SEEING HIM, AND WATCHING HIM, TEARS MY HEART RIGHT THROUGH..

I AM SCARED..I AM AFRAID..I AM SAD!!
The truth is I have a date with Him in..

11 hours..30 minns..and 36 seconds..

There is NO TURNING BACK..
There is NO TURNING AROUND..
There is NO RUNNING AWAY..
There is only DESTINY..

Where else would I be..where else COULD I be..
If I want the TRUTH to really find ME..

I WISH YOU ALL WERE HERE WITH ME RIGHT NOW...
YOU WILL UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH..

IN..

11 hours..25 mins..and 18 seconds..

PREPARE FOR THE CHANGE, WHILE GOING THROUGH THE PAIN..DO IT EVEN THOUGH YOUR ARE SCARED!!


-JoyAngel

 

[Em_Mj]

*HUG FOR YOU*
It's so unbelievable that This Is It has come down to a MOVIE I miss him painfully. After this what is there? I'm not sure

I'll never let go though
I dont want to..

I want him back forget the concerts, etc. Just come back Michael

Hope you're okay, I feel the same. So confused.

 

[Johanne]

I'm seeing it tomorrow too...I have mixed feelings...it's going to be amazing and great just seeing him, seeing him doing his "thing"..taking us on a "great adventure" as he said himself about the concert.
Seeing this sweet, innocent, loving, caring, charming and funny human being. The message he wants to share with the world, what we all should do..make it a better place. We should all really listen to it when we see it...

But it's also very sad and depressing, bittersweet... Cause we dont have him anymore here, we had him...but seeing him so alive on the screen and beautiful, knowing that we have lost this wonderful person with the purest heart..that's going to be hard to think about.

So I'm mixed about it...hoping I wont get too depressed after watching it..that it will hurt even more..ripping up my wounds again. But I guess I just have to try to enjoy it..celebrate his life and what he gave us, in his last performance ever..the genius and the beautiful person, Michael Jackson.

 

[Nar]

I'm going to see it in 8 hours from right now. I got butterflies in my stomach. 0_0

 

[Yazman]

:'( I wish he was still here.

 

[theoriley]

It was amazing!