@#applehead24 @MJ is my life - none of my business, but I have to point it out, because it's so visible in these posts: both of you don't want to talk about your problems, both of you think you're not worthy of getting help/friendship, etc. but you both tell each other to talk about your problems and that you are worthy of friendship and love.
What I want to say: it's great that you have each others backs but you should also give the advice you give to other people to yourself. Talk to yourself like you woud talk to a good friend.
Hope it's understandable what I want to express

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And don't say "I can't". It's a process, start with little things.