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MJ is my life said:
Yesterday I was talking with thus guy with my friend, and somehow we get on the topic of lgbtq+, and he starts calling them bad things and swearing, and the friend just fxcking smiled and said I agree 😡😡. Its too bad, because I liked him. Anyways, he asked me my opinion, and said I support (obviously I didnt tell them I'm bi) and then he started looking at me like I was stupid. He said he would get my brother to do something to me (ik my bro won't do anything tho). Anyways, that was the first time I cried at school in a while, meanwhile my friend us oblivious to the fact she did anything wrong.
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There are stupid people everywhere...sorry you had to make this experience. Just try to stay true to yourself and people who are supportive will come into your life, sooner or later, I promise ✌️
 
I had a mixed day today… i am realæy stressed this period, (a lot of tasks) so my blisters are coming backkk😭 i also got my period eugh…
My grandma gave me a necklace today, cause of my confirmation coming up! Its so pretty, and SO HAPPY😍 my biggest wish.
But the annoying part of the day came at noght, where me + my family saw a beatles doc. Dont get me wrong, i love the beatles, and respect them and their music career, but my parents would sit through the whole thinf and glace them about how much they cared about the world, their kindness, and their success. And i just sad theough it all thinking about all the bad and mean things they have said about Mike… so unfair. it really broke my heart💔
 
I don't like to express how I'm feeling usually, especially online but I'm so pissed off right now I have to let it out.

I just walked out of my workplace. I haven't been there long but I felt it was the right thing to do as the longer it will go, the worse it would get for my mental well being.

I walked out because it was the trillionth time that the same someone talked to me in a patronising way. He has made me feel so bad, so unworthy through these past weeks.
Today he literally said "Why do you keep disappearing?" when I literally just put some dirty stuff in the washing area that was literally behind my section. How long could that have been? 1 minute? 2 minutes? And then, communicating with my co-worker, I went to fill up a tray with some things that I was missing for the service. I came back with another question "What did I just tell you?". I started boiling inside, I just couldn't take it anymore. I looked for the senior sous chef and once I found him I just said that I was leaving. He didn't know what to say, he knew I was right but I guess he couldn't help with anything. I cried and I usually don't, I don't cry in front of people. I was so angry, because I know I work, I work very hard and you just can't treat and talk to people like that especially being older than me by many years, you should know, by life experience, how to speak to people and how to actually treat them especially being part of the management in your work place.

He wanted to speak to me, I didn't want to, there is nothing that I would want to tell him. Earlier today he clearly had a meeting with the senior sous chef, whom I previously talked to about it, and wanted to know from me when all these events have happened. I just let it out. I couldn't remember all the times he talked to me like that because, at the beginning, I let it go, I thought that in a few days it would just go away as I'm no longer "the new one". I did mention some things that I could remember. I told him straight in the face that I shouldn't be the one teaching him how to talk to people with some decency as he's way older than me and should know it by now. It's also not my call to tell you that you should communicate with others without jumping to conclusion and accusing me of something. And then I left. I was very upset, I am still very angry.

I didn't like the place that much, but I tried my best, I knew I was doing well and I was improving a lot, the senior sous chef was happy with me and so was the head chef. I am deeply sorry that I left that way but I just couldn't take it anymore especially because I know myself and I know I'm very honest, If I make a mistake I take full responsibility and I try to fix it as much as possible, but if I don't and then I get blamed for it I just boil inside because it's not fair at all. I stayed 3 weeks and I kept trying, I was hoping it would work out and that I would have the chance to help the team even more but nothing, nothing really was possible from my part. I don't think they even want a team, they don't even work as one themselves.


Sorry, that was long. But I feel slightly better now.
 
LivXapplehead said:
I had a mixed day today… i am realæy stressed this period, (a lot of tasks) so my blisters are coming backkk😭 i also got my period eugh…
My grandma gave me a necklace today, cause of my confirmation coming up! Its so pretty, and SO HAPPY😍 my biggest wish.
But the annoying part of the day came at noght, where me + my family saw a beatles doc. Dont get me wrong, i love the beatles, and respect them and their music career, but my parents would sit through the whole thinf and glace them about how much they cared about the world, their kindness, and their success. And i just sad theough it all thinking about all the bad and mean things they have said about Mike… so unfair. it really broke my heart💔
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Jackears said:
I don't like to express how I'm feeling usually, especially online but I'm so pissed off right now I have to let it out.

I just walked out of my workplace. I haven't been there long but I felt it was the right thing to do as the longer it will go, the worse it would get for my mental well being.

I walked out because it was the trillionth time that the same someone talked to me in a patronising way. He has made me feel so bad, so unworthy through these past weeks.
Today he literally said "Why do you keep disappearing?" when I literally just put some dirty stuff in the washing area that was literally behind my section. How long could that have been? 1 minute? 2 minutes? And then, communicating with my co-worker, I went to fill up a tray with some things that I was missing for the service. I came back with another question "What did I just tell you?". I started boiling inside, I just couldn't take it anymore. I looked for the senior sous chef and once I found him I just said that I was leaving. He didn't know what to say, he knew I was right but I guess he couldn't help with anything. I cried and I usually don't, I don't cry in front of people. I was so angry, because I know I work, I work very hard and you just can't treat and talk to people like that especially being older than me by many years, you should know, by life experience, how to speak to people and how to actually treat them especially being part of the management in your work place.

He wanted to speak to me, I didn't want to, there is nothing that I would want to tell him. Earlier today he clearly had a meeting with the senior sous chef, whom I previously talked to about it, and wanted to know from me when all these events have happened. I just let it out. I couldn't remember all the times he talked to me like that because, at the beginning, I let it go, I thought that in a few days it would just go away as I'm no longer "the new one". I did mention some things that I could remember. I told him straight in the face that I shouldn't be the one teaching him how to talk to people with some decency as he's way older than me and should know it by now. It's also not my call to tell you that you should communicate with others without jumping to conclusion and accusing me of something. And then I left. I was very upset, I am still very angry.

I didn't like the place that much, but I tried my best, I knew I was doing well and I was improving a lot, the senior sous chef was happy with me and so was the head chef. I am deeply sorry that I left that way but I just couldn't take it anymore especially because I know myself and I know I'm very honest, If I make a mistake I take full responsibility and I try to fix it as much as possible, but if I don't and then I get blamed for it I just boil inside because it's not fair at all. I stayed 3 weeks and I kept trying, I was hoping it would work out and that I would have the chance to help the team even more but nothing, nothing really was possible from my part. I don't think they even want a team, they don't even work as one themselves.


Sorry, that was long. But I feel slightly better now.
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Don't feel sorry. It's better to vent out all the frustrations you had , it will make you feel much better.
LivXapplehead said:
I had a mixed day today… i am realæy stressed this period, (a lot of tasks) so my blisters are coming backkk😭 i also got my period eugh…
My grandma gave me a necklace today, cause of my confirmation coming up! Its so pretty, and SO HAPPY😍 my biggest wish.
But the annoying part of the day came at noght, where me + my family saw a beatles doc. Dont get me wrong, i love the beatles, and respect them and their music career, but my parents would sit through the whole thinf and glace them about how much they cared about the world, their kindness, and their success. And i just sad theough it all thinking about all the bad and mean things they have said about Mike… so unfair. it really broke my heart💔
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Concerning the Beatles, they were not as nice as they were presented by the media but this is another subject...
 
Jackears said:
I don't like to express how I'm feeling usually, especially online but I'm so pissed off right now I have to let it out.

I just walked out of my workplace. I haven't been there long but I felt it was the right thing to do as the longer it will go, the worse it would get for my mental well being.

I walked out because it was the trillionth time that the same someone talked to me in a patronising way. He has made me feel so bad, so unworthy through these past weeks.
Today he literally said "Why do you keep disappearing?" when I literally just put some dirty stuff in the washing area that was literally behind my section. How long could that have been? 1 minute? 2 minutes? And then, communicating with my co-worker, I went to fill up a tray with some things that I was missing for the service. I came back with another question "What did I just tell you?". I started boiling inside, I just couldn't take it anymore. I looked for the senior sous chef and once I found him I just said that I was leaving. He didn't know what to say, he knew I was right but I guess he couldn't help with anything. I cried and I usually don't, I don't cry in front of people. I was so angry, because I know I work, I work very hard and you just can't treat and talk to people like that especially being older than me by many years, you should know, by life experience, how to speak to people and how to actually treat them especially being part of the management in your work place.

He wanted to speak to me, I didn't want to, there is nothing that I would want to tell him. Earlier today he clearly had a meeting with the senior sous chef, whom I previously talked to about it, and wanted to know from me when all these events have happened. I just let it out. I couldn't remember all the times he talked to me like that because, at the beginning, I let it go, I thought that in a few days it would just go away as I'm no longer "the new one". I did mention some things that I could remember. I told him straight in the face that I shouldn't be the one teaching him how to talk to people with some decency as he's way older than me and should know it by now. It's also not my call to tell you that you should communicate with others without jumping to conclusion and accusing me of something. And then I left. I was very upset, I am still very angry.

I didn't like the place that much, but I tried my best, I knew I was doing well and I was improving a lot, the senior sous chef was happy with me and so was the head chef. I am deeply sorry that I left that way but I just couldn't take it anymore especially because I know myself and I know I'm very honest, If I make a mistake I take full responsibility and I try to fix it as much as possible, but if I don't and then I get blamed for it I just boil inside because it's not fair at all. I stayed 3 weeks and I kept trying, I was hoping it would work out and that I would have the chance to help the team even more but nothing, nothing really was possible from my part. I don't think they even want a team, they don't even work as one themselves.


Sorry, that was long. But I feel slightly better now.
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Its a good thing to let it all out. Im so sorry for you❤️‍🩹

Lilloue03 said:
Concerning the Beatles, they were not as nice as they were presented by the media but this is another subject...
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Oh really? I acctually dont know that much about them, maybe i should look more into that🤔 i like some of their songs though!
 
Just came back from a meeting at my new part time job and I loved it. We're a great team and hopefully we will create some interesting projects in the future 🤩. And happy because the friend I watched the Biopic with, wrote me that she's cooking and dancing while listening to Michael's music now 😁.

And very heartbroken at the same time, lots of thoughts about Michael... it's so emotionally exhausting these days 🙈.
 
someplace_else said:
Just came back from a meeting at my new part time job and I loved it. We're a great team and hopefully we will create some interesting projects in the future 🤩. And happy because the friend I watched the Biopic with, wrote me that she's cooking and dancing while listening to Michael's music now 😁.

And very heartbroken at the same time, lots of thoughts about Michael... it's so emotionally exhausting these days 🙈.
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Aawwe what a clever friend you have!😎 ao happy for you about your job also!
 
I'm so tired. I have so many things to do at once, including my university assignments, but my grades are going great. Work and study at the same time it's not easy. Seeing my picture of Michael on my desk is good company :love: ❤️
 
So many feelings rn ...

Grateful for my life as it is right now, reconnecting with family and friends, making progress personally and also professionally (tiny steps, I am getting there 😅) , ... and experiencing the Michael renaissance, wow!

But also some farewells along the way: Our choir conductor of more than 20 years is going to officially retire next year. Originally he wanted to keep our choir a bit longer after his retirement, but last night he opened up to us about how he really wants to retire for good. Hard choice for him, and certainly a surprise we didn´t expect nor wish for. But I also admire how he said "I am retiring but I still feel great for my age and want to pursue other projects." He has been a musician all his life and said that all the large concerts over the last years really took a toll on him strength wise 😅, and I completely get it. These concerts are like marathons ... So we have one more year with him, and I wanna be open to what is next ...

Our next major concert will be MESSA DA REQUIEM by Giuseppe Verdi (1874)
Love this so piece much!
 
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Today I drove through some little villages...and there were groups of men with handcarts, walking around, drinking beer. It's father's day here in Germany and that's a thing...a stupid thing, so you know it is German (please tell me that's not normal in other countries 🥲). So awkward.
 
It's a good day so far, thinking about mj as usual and preparing myself for the last final exams and then I will finally take long rest of school!

Im also thinking about getting a job in the summer after my exams (it's very hard to find a part-time job here tho) but I will try to find one and see what the days will bring to me!
 
Imma tell about my day yesterday cause it was so amazing✨

So i finally got confirmated, aahh it was one hell of an experience, and i COULD NOT srop laughing bro😭 yøthat was not good and when it was my best friends turn omg it was bad we got eyex contact and we just died right there😭 (reminds me of the earth song live, where Mike also laughed haha).
Well we are holding my confirmation party next week, so i could attend my best friends party! And it was so fun, i got a little emotional when i saw my best friend in that dress, and holding her speech, she was so pretty, i love her❤️ well she got some great presents, a lot of money omg, and we jsut chilled and held a speech for her aswell. we ended up celebrating all the way ti 3 AM haha, but was so worth it. Def one of the best nights ever✨🥹
Also attending teo of my orher close friends confirmstions on saturday and sunday, gonna be so lit!🥰 and glad i can share it here on MJJC woth you guyssssss!
 
LivXapplehead said:
Imma tell about my day yesterday cause it was so amazing✨

So i finally got confirmated, aahh it was one hell of an experience, and i COULD NOT srop laughing bro😭 yøthat was not good and when it was my best friends turn omg it was bad we got eyex contact and we just died right there😭 (reminds me of the earth song live, where Mike also laughed haha).
Well we are holding my confirmation party next week, so i could attend my best friends party! And it was so fun, i got a little emotional when i saw my best friend in that dress, and holding her speech, she was so pretty, i love her❤️ well she got some great presents, a lot of money omg, and we jsut chilled and held a speech for her aswell. we ended up celebrating all the way ti 3 AM haha, but was so worth it. Def one of the best nights ever✨🥹
Also attending teo of my orher close friends confirmstions on saturday and sunday, gonna be so lit!🥰 and glad i can share it here on MJJC woth you guyssssss!
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Sounds like you had a great time 😍

I just read a post on threads... someone posted a gold pants video and wrote "Dangerous tour"...I commented that it's HIStory tour (I just had to 🥲). And was asked if I am sure. I can't take this... it's the frickin' GOLD PANTS, mate!!!! 😭😂 Breathe...in...and...out...😂
 
Well I'm totally exhausted- I had a concert today at a university campus and had to walk like 92983839 km plus 8484 in high heels (I didn't feel my feet) plus the day was hot ASF and we were on black outfits sweating like an old horse 😭 bro even our bus STOPPED working because of an escape of oil, so we had to wait for 3+ hours to another bus arrive where we were (at least we were at a stopping rest place ngl it was very fun : D)
 
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