The SPARK plug

[Daryll748]

:ciao: MJ fam

Thought of posting this here as a NEW thread as I 'experienced' something WONDERFUL last night...

I was 'relaxing' on one of my fave groups on FB and one friend had posted the vid of BOTD :wub:
It had been ages since I watched any HOT video of Michael cause it was too to 'realize' it, you know but I was in the group for a while just chatting and 'gawking' at the 'sexy' photos that they had posted and were 'giggling' about and I decided to be 'brave' and see what happened when I clicked on the PLAY button of the video...

MAGICAL... No No :mat: any more...
Okay, sowwy... a lot of 'rambling' here just to tell you guys an EXCITING feature...

I have finally found the 'spark plug' that shuts off the BAD memories in my brain so I can enjoy Michael's MAGIC again in piccies and now even video's... Though "This is it" is still BANNED... Sowwy...

Have you found the 'spark plug' yet or what's your trick to watch Michael without 'tears' or 'tantrums' ?

This was a SILLY thread made by Daryll...

Have a GREAT day, folks...

 

[MJsBollywoodGirl7]

I thought during that first autumn without him I thought I had found that spark plug. Because I was just so insanely obsessed with wanting to watch him all of the time. Especially on September the 3rd. That late afternoon I had decided to say a little prayer to God both for Michael and his children. I decided instead of knowing what was happening out in California with him that night. I decided to watch my Denmark HIStory Concert instead. As well as some of my other MJ video related stuff. I can't even begin to tell you just how much MJ video and audio related stuff that I had either downloaded, bought, and taped in the past 19 years. Any way I just felt totally fine watching it. I was back to being 16 years old again. When I saw Michael for the first time in those sexy as hell gold pants of his. I am a true gold pants girl. While I was so drooling over him. I was also almost forgetting what was happening with him that night. For the rest of that autumn it was like that for me. Well almost. Though I did had an incident that happen to me back in October of 2009 when I went to go back to watch my Denmark HIStory Concert again. I was totally fine watching it until I was watching his Billie Jean performance. Half way through that performance I was crying so bad that as soon as he done with that performance. I had to turn the rest of the concert off. And take the tape out of my vcr. And that was pretty much the end of that MJ night I wanted to have. I had even told myself I wasn't going to cry over him. But those tears really came out of no where for me. Most of that time during the fall I was fine watching him. Especially my Oprah interview watching that interview became my total obsession back then. I had always kept that interview right on my desktop. So I can watch it every single night. Especially the theater scene. Ever since I had saw that interview on February 10th 1993. That interview had always remain my number 1 favorite. Even though now I absolutely hate Oprah. I also saw the making of Stranger In Moscow video and watch the entire 93 deposition tapes. Barely shedding a single tear. I don't know why I had wanted to watch those 93 deposition tapes. But I did. I couldn't help but laugh at the part where Michael kept pouring honey in to his tea. I thought he looked so cute doing that. I had also listen to the 94 Dangerous Deposition as well. I had also have on tape a 90 minutes BET special they did of Michael as he was on his HIStory Tour. I tried watching it. But seeing the Life magazine photo shoot scene that Michael did with his son. And also showing the scenes where Michael was on a roller coaster. And seeing him greeting his fans. Just made me cry all over again. Even thinking about tends to make me cry. I can tell you one thing May of 2010 was the last time had watch a MJ related video. I just miss watching him so extremely much any more. But watching him is still completely out of the question for me. Because every single time there is video shown of him on tv or a you tube video posted of him. I just start crying all over again. Even listening to him is out as well. Only the songs Who Is It, Someone Put Your Hand Out, and Do You Know Where Your Children Are. Is the only 3 songs of his that I can handle listening to. I very hardly ever listen to any of his other songs.

As for pictures of him I can only handle seeing certain ones. Like the infamous Scream picture where Michael is sticking his middle finger up and licking it. That picture just makes me laugh every single time I see it or even think about it. Because I know exactly why he did that. It is really one of the most greatest pictures ever taken of him. It is such a shame that wasn't in the Scream video. Just like you anything that has to do with This Is It is also totally out of the question for me. Even though I do have some This Is It items. Like my framed This Is It poster on the one wall of my MJ shrine (Bedroom). And I do have some This Is It pictures of him saved in my photobucket account. But I try not to look at them whenever I go in to that account.

 

[Daryll748]

Thanks for your heartfelt reply, MJsBollywoodgirl :better:

Just give it time HUN... I went from a total 'meltdown' to a NEW way of living with Michael in my :heart: too...
If you NEED to talk, I'm ALWAYS here for you as I FEEL your pain...

Hey, I'm a "GOLD pants lover" too :wub: I'm exactly gonna 'redecorate' my BEDroom in the GOLD pants 'style'

Take care