They say time heals the pain but...

[MySerenity5]

I dont really think so. I noticed that I am only happy when I watch happy MJ videos- like with him smiling, performing or doing something he loves. But I am so sensitive with any negative MJ news right now. I know we all are but I get sick to the stomach kind of upset. It really pisses me off. My blood boils and I just feel so frustrated and then I just start to cry.

It really PAINS me to know how much Michael suffered in his life. It tears me apart! That's why it hurts so much because Michael never had a happy ending. I often daydream that one day, the truth will come out and everyone will see how much of a douchebag they have been to Michael and changed their ways.

Yesterday, I was watching the Untold Story of Neverland and I JUST LOST IT! I was so angry. T_T I was so angry on behalf of Michael. I cried so much that I got a headache.

Everytime news comes up about Mike, I only want to read the positive articles- the ones that celebrate his wonderful legacy. I am just so sick of all the negativity. I really am.

I am praying everyday for Michael and his children. All I want was for them to have everlasting happiness. Unfortunately, my prayers did not come true. My only hope left is that Michael finally found the peace he was looking for all his life.

 

[lovelymj]

Yea, I hope the same. This is such a tragedy. It should have not happened

 

[MJsBollywoodGirl7]

I'm the same as you are MySerenity5. Ever since my beloved Michael was killed. I have become a different person. I have been very sad and depressed since I had heard the horrible news. Whenever I am not crying over how much I miss Michael. And I cry a good few times or so a day since I had heard the horrible news. I tend to get very angry and disgusted by the murderer that did this to us. The only time I can actually feel some sort of happiness now. Is when I am watching one of my many MJ videos. And just seeing how Michael used to be. Even though that does hurt to see how he was. But it is the only way I can feel some sort of happiness again.

 

[krism]

people say time heals the pain but its different for people. everyone reacts differently. what i tell people is that sometimes the pain is so great that you will never get over it, but time will allow you to carry on with your life so while the pain or sadness will be in the background, time will allow you to move on with your life. also people have to remember its only been months. for some it will take many more months, possibly years.

 

[Angela_MJJ]

I I know we all are but I get sick to the stomach kind of upset. It really pisses me off.

I can relate to this completely.
Yesterday I was at work talking with some colleagues when I overheard other ppl talking nasty about Michael.
It hurt me so bad that I got sick to the stomach too and nauseous it lasted for almost the rest of the day.

I'm so glad that this was my last day at work for that company so I never have to hear them talk about MJ again.

 

[cleopatra09]

no time will heal the pain when i'm thinking about him and realize
that i can't see him smiling any more,
i can't hug him,
i can't ever have a hope to meet him,
he can't be with his childern and see they grow up...

that is terrible.
especially when i know that if not this stupid doctors he would still be here...

 

[helena22]

I dont really think so. I noticed that I am only happy when I watch happy MJ videos- like with him smiling, performing or doing something he loves. But I am so sensitive with any negative MJ news right now. I know we all are but I get sick to the stomach kind of upset. It really pisses me off. My blood boils and I just feel so frustrated and then I just start to cry.

It really PAINS me to know how much Michael suffered in his life. It tears me apart! That's why it hurts so much because Michael never had a happy ending. I often daydream that one day, the truth will come out and everyone will see how much of a douchebag they have been to Michael and changed their ways.

Yesterday, I was watching the Untold Story of Neverland and I JUST LOST IT! I was so angry. T_T I was so angry on behalf of Michael. I cried so much that I got a headache.

Everytime news comes up about Mike, I only want to read the positive articles- the ones that celebrate his wonderful legacy. I am just so sick of all the negativity. I really am.

I am praying everyday for Michael and his children. All I want was for them to have everlasting happiness. Unfortunately, my prayers did not come true. My only hope left is that Michael finally found the peace he was looking for all his life.

I agree. Time is not cure for this kind of pain. It's like, when someone dies, his/her family and close friends find it even harder to deal with the pain as time passes by. Many people who are not MJ fans (and not haters, either) also felt shocked and sad to a certain level on that day he passed away and maybe til a few days after, but...that's it. For all of us devoted fans here, as horrible as the first weeks and months were after he passed away, the weeks and years that follow will be even harder....I have dreaded the period cuz I knew it would be tough.

I'm just like you. I find myself smiling a real smile only when I hear and watch him talking about fun, joyful things. I saw some people posted on the thread about the interview filmed by Brett Ratner that they wish it could go on and on and didn't finish. I feel exactly the same. The moment it comes to an end and we have to go back to our daily lives, that's when our struggle begins again. It's like that every day....

 

[Mechi]

There is some healing in this... and sooner or later it will come to all of us, but it's not about time.

As painfull and hurtfull and even devastating as it is this life is about nothing 'ever lasting' and that needs to be accepted... well it really needs to be learned. It is a very hard lesson, maybe the hardest.

Happiness is only existing because we do know the feeling of sadness and misery.
We need to value and cherish what we have because it could be lost tomorrow... no already in the very the next moment.
We have to understand this, because that is life.

We had this incredible gift of Michael Jackson in our lives.
Yes it's gone now. It's over and that's a tremendous loss causing us all so much incredible pain.

But do we really grasp what that means?

Michael was here. He touched our lives. He brought so much joy, so much fun, so much love to us.

To me Michael was a gift from God, (or even evolution if you don't believe in God), God wasn't obliged to give him to us. Michael wasn't obliged to give himself like he did.

We will go through this, we'll survive it and there will be healing sooner or later, because Michael has left all we need for that in our hearts.
We just have to allow it to grow and shine. We need to have faith.


And maybe it helps a little bit to realize that there will be many ppl not even knowing the gift of having Michael Jackson in there lives. They will never have this gift, they will not even get the chance to realize.