Dudie
Proud Member
Ohh 2009 started so good. Me and my parents booked a trip to China. I heard that I will get a year contract at work after being worried i would lose it it for months. And on top of that just a week or 2 before i went to China Michael anounced his concerts in London. I was so happy because i had planned on going to London again for a few years but it never really happened somehow. And it was my dream to see Michael live again. It was the perfect combination! 2009 couldn't be better and i really needed it to be a good year after the so so years. And then all of sudden this year turned into a big nightmare with the sudden death of Michael.
Everything feels so heavy. I can hardly smile, i'm close to crying many times and i feel so lonely.
What started so good has ended so bad and I dunno what to do right now.. I feel like staying in bed all day. Normally there was Michael to cheer me up but now he's gone. I do listen to his music and the Dangerous concert is on now but it doesn't really help in a way that i think he's still alive and can surprise us any time with a new concert again or something while that will never happen. But not listening to his music makes me feel bad aswell.
Some say i have to celebrate what he left us but i just can't right now. Sometimes i wish i could, that makes it a whole lot easier i geuss...
I don't even really know why i posted this up. I just had the feeling to write it down somewhere...
What started so good has ended so bad and I dunno what to do right now.. I feel like staying in bed all day. Normally there was Michael to cheer me up but now he's gone. I do listen to his music and the Dangerous concert is on now but it doesn't really help in a way that i think he's still alive and can surprise us any time with a new concert again or something while that will never happen. But not listening to his music makes me feel bad aswell.
Some say i have to celebrate what he left us but i just can't right now. Sometimes i wish i could, that makes it a whole lot easier i geuss...
I don't even really know why i posted this up. I just had the feeling to write it down somewhere...