:hug: He sucks. I'm telling you no one's gonna understand it. It really kinda sucks that we have to be mourning in the closet but that's how it is I think. I tell no one. Not my mom, not my friends.. and I tell them everything. This is just something I have to keep to myself, because I don't want the funny faces and comments. I already feel weird about it myself, like I can't believe how much this hurts me, so I surely don't need anyone to make me feel WORSE about it, you know. I just stay here cause you all know what I am going through...
I think that's how it was with fandom too, like when he was still around. I mean I was a fan but I wasn't a FAN! It wasn't cool to be a FAN of Michael Jackson. So I just kept my fandom to myself and to folks around me who were, you know, cool with it. It's a shame tho that if the media spent half as much time talking about the good things than the bad like they did when he was alive things would be different now. We wouldn't have like 50-11 folks on this and other MJJ boards trying to justify their fandom to folks who've been here since like 06 or 07 or whatever. Like being on a message board before June 25 does not make you any more or any less a fan. But I've said too much. I'll stop now. :mello: