I stand firmly by my belief that one of the hardest things in the world is being a Michael Jackson fan. Everyday, I find this to be more and more true.
Michael has millions and millions of fans all around the world just like me, but I have yet to meet one personally. I feel alone, surrounded by those who constantly criticize him every single day. This includes my family, friends, and just the general surrounding.
I have yet to meet a solid lover of Michael who actually knows and believes in the truth about him like the fans on this forum. I have yet to meet someone who feels the same way I do about him. Once again, I feel like I'm alone here. I feel like everybody around me is against him in some way, shape, or form. I don't know what else to do. I know they're wrong about him but it's so difficult.
When Michael died, I had the media in one ear and my family, friends, etc. in the other saying the most horrible things: "He's a druggie, he's a sick man, etc." Things that just weren't true. I was alone in coping with the entire situation of fully discovering Michael Jackson and being inspired by him. When Murray was on trial, it was a total nightmare. My surrounding peers at school (and at home) were, for lack of better words, "Team Murray." It killed me everyday to hear them say, "He doesn't deserve to be on trial, it's ridiculous. I hope he gets off." Everybody, and I mean EVERYBODY, around me felt the same way. Throughout that entire period, this is what I heard from everybody: "If it were somebody other than Michael Jackson, this doctor would be getting a slap on the wrist and walking free. He was only doing his job. It was Jackson begging for it." Saying Michael was responsible for his death, that Murray wasn't to blame. Then the molesting jokes began again: at school, in my own house, etc. It is just absolutely horrible and I cannot escape this. I can't fight against it because they just don't listen.[/i] I never have anybody to back me up. It's me, the "crazy Michael Jackson fan" again the rest. What urged me to make this post was a family member of mine saying, "Michael Jackson was a junkie" when the news about Murray being in jail came on one night. I just don't ever think of Michael in these ways. Never ever. Because none of it is true. I don't even know who the person they speak of is.
How in the world can I keep dealing with this alone? I'm sticking up for a man, not whom I don't know, BUT for a man I believe in. I believe in the truth about him and it's getting harder each day to fight the fight I've been with people. It's getting harder to bite my tongue on the subject, yet I feel that's the best thing to do anymore. I fight with the truth and they fight back with the lies. It's just not worth it anymore. It sucks that I can't share my passion about someone who inspires me, about music that I feel strongly about, that inspires me just the same as the man who made it. I can't share that passion without getting snide remarks or rude snickers from people; without the nasty jokes or funny looks. So I keep it all to myself, to avoid the arguments. It is not fair. It comes with the territory, I know, but there has to be someone out there. I need to know I'm not alone here. I feel like it, but then I come here and I feel the love. It's crazy how coming to an online community can have that impact. I come here and am reminded that Michael is truly loved and that at least someone out there gets it.
A fellow teacher of mine recently asked me what kind of music I like, after hearing other students express their "love" for Taylor Swift. I honestly replied, "I'm a huge fan of Michael Jackson." I got a blank stare for a second and then heard, "Oh, oh really? How about that!" While another person laughed. (Mind you, I'm 18 and a senior in high school.)
It is just not fair for us fans to have to deal with this kind of behavior from people. I feel like Michael always gets it the worst, more than any other celebrity out there, and I wish it would all just stop.
Michael has millions and millions of fans all around the world just like me, but I have yet to meet one personally. I feel alone, surrounded by those who constantly criticize him every single day. This includes my family, friends, and just the general surrounding.
I have yet to meet a solid lover of Michael who actually knows and believes in the truth about him like the fans on this forum. I have yet to meet someone who feels the same way I do about him. Once again, I feel like I'm alone here. I feel like everybody around me is against him in some way, shape, or form. I don't know what else to do. I know they're wrong about him but it's so difficult.
When Michael died, I had the media in one ear and my family, friends, etc. in the other saying the most horrible things: "He's a druggie, he's a sick man, etc." Things that just weren't true. I was alone in coping with the entire situation of fully discovering Michael Jackson and being inspired by him. When Murray was on trial, it was a total nightmare. My surrounding peers at school (and at home) were, for lack of better words, "Team Murray." It killed me everyday to hear them say, "He doesn't deserve to be on trial, it's ridiculous. I hope he gets off." Everybody, and I mean EVERYBODY, around me felt the same way. Throughout that entire period, this is what I heard from everybody: "If it were somebody other than Michael Jackson, this doctor would be getting a slap on the wrist and walking free. He was only doing his job. It was Jackson begging for it." Saying Michael was responsible for his death, that Murray wasn't to blame. Then the molesting jokes began again: at school, in my own house, etc. It is just absolutely horrible and I cannot escape this. I can't fight against it because they just don't listen.[/i] I never have anybody to back me up. It's me, the "crazy Michael Jackson fan" again the rest. What urged me to make this post was a family member of mine saying, "Michael Jackson was a junkie" when the news about Murray being in jail came on one night. I just don't ever think of Michael in these ways. Never ever. Because none of it is true. I don't even know who the person they speak of is.
How in the world can I keep dealing with this alone? I'm sticking up for a man, not whom I don't know, BUT for a man I believe in. I believe in the truth about him and it's getting harder each day to fight the fight I've been with people. It's getting harder to bite my tongue on the subject, yet I feel that's the best thing to do anymore. I fight with the truth and they fight back with the lies. It's just not worth it anymore. It sucks that I can't share my passion about someone who inspires me, about music that I feel strongly about, that inspires me just the same as the man who made it. I can't share that passion without getting snide remarks or rude snickers from people; without the nasty jokes or funny looks. So I keep it all to myself, to avoid the arguments. It is not fair. It comes with the territory, I know, but there has to be someone out there. I need to know I'm not alone here. I feel like it, but then I come here and I feel the love. It's crazy how coming to an online community can have that impact. I come here and am reminded that Michael is truly loved and that at least someone out there gets it.
A fellow teacher of mine recently asked me what kind of music I like, after hearing other students express their "love" for Taylor Swift. I honestly replied, "I'm a huge fan of Michael Jackson." I got a blank stare for a second and then heard, "Oh, oh really? How about that!" While another person laughed. (Mind you, I'm 18 and a senior in high school.)
It is just not fair for us fans to have to deal with this kind of behavior from people. I feel like Michael always gets it the worst, more than any other celebrity out there, and I wish it would all just stop.
