You know, I was thinking about her all day so I sent up quite a few prayers for her.
Her blog post only heightened my concern for her and the people around her. I hope that now she will see the vampires and leeches surrounding her. The ones who drag her back by her hair every time she tries to get away from them.
She has always been a terribly insecure and emotionally immature woman who as a child had a conflicting upbringing: spoiled and pampered with Daddy, disciplined and punished with Mommy. This is not my observation, this is her take on herself. This is my observation though: boiling just below the surface is a rebel whom--if her muzzle is cut--will bite those who muzzled her in the first place. This is why the leeches keep her muzzled. If she were to be set free, she could possibly blow that whole operation out the water.
She revealed nothing in that post that most of us hadn't already figured out. The marriage being genuine. She loved him a lot. Her obsession with him post divorce. The rest of it is Scientology speak.
She believed he loved her as much as he could love anyone. I don't disagree with that. However, the same could very easily be said about her. Michael was probably the first man that ever challenged her. (or used his power for bad: Scientology Speak.) Nic was the second.
See, she loved Danny so much, she couldn't bear to make him feel like less of a man because he wasn't as rich and famous as her. So she cheated on him with a man wealthier and more famous than Danny and her put together.
She loved Michael so much that she couldn't bear to watch him be "destroyed". So as soon as the opportunity arises, she publicly belittles him and their relationship because she was angry--instead of calling out the leeches whom she thought was destroying him she becomes one of them instead. Even during a low point in his life. (Now this is something that was done to her father by his so-called friends and it hurt him deeply and depressed him and ultimately led to his death.)
She loved Michael so much she allowed (m)others to make her question the timing of the marriage. Could it be that Michael was ready to settle down and be a Husband and Dad? Find a little joy and normalcy after having the rug pulled from under him? Not unusual. Think of all those post 9/11 marriages. Many of them are over now.
She loved that John O guy (fiance and transition man) so much that she talked trash about Michael to him. He didn't challenge her, even defended her. How does she show her appreciation? She leaves John O for Michael again; the man she spent all two seconds of that relationship b*tching about.
She loved Nic so much she called her marriage to him the biggest mistake of her life after he filed for divorce. (She won't talk about him because Nic Cage don't play that.)
And she loves Lockwood so much because--dare I say it--he doesn't challenge her? When she finally breaks away from her leeches, I hope Lockwood goes with her. That is if he isn't one of them. And I pray that he isn't for the sake of their precious little girls. I hope Danny runs too, for the sake of Riley and Ben.
Michael was not the one who needed saving. It was her. During the whole time they were together--by her admission--he did nothing heavier than have the occasional alcoholic beverage. What she wanted to "save" him from was the very thing that attracted her to him in the first place. (or the "certain self-destructive behavior")
And the whole Elvis thing? I believe that. I'm sure he felt that way at the time. However, after Princess Diana died, Michael thought he was going to go out like her. Fast forward to 2008 and Michael is talking about not going out like James Brown. So...
The whole "helping" and "saving" thing. That is the Scientologist mantra. Always saving someone from their "demons" and their "addictions." (Just listen to Tom Cruise go on about Brooke Shields. Some of the same language is used.)
Lisa was smiling and full of life when she was with Michael. As soon as those jokers saw that--and saw they did not have another recruit in Michael--they dragged her away by her hair when she was still pining for the man. They were the ones who made her sick by keeping her away from someone she loved--and someone who loved and genuinely cared about her. Yeah he would disappear for a spell. She never says why. Her "honesty" won't let her as she (her insecurity and immaturity) is probably the reason why he would need to take an occasional break from her. But he always came back because he clearly cared and loved her enough to try and make it work. (Nic gave up on her after 3 months of marriage and didn't even TRY to reconcile!) But when she refused to make his fondest dream come true after saying she would--that was it. (When Brad Pitt left Jennifer Aniston when she backed out on babies, it so reminded me of the two of them.)
What that blog screams to me is what she is feeling now is guilt and remorse--masked in the idea that she couldn't "help" him. Yet consider this, she knows what she did to him post marriage was mean and out of her character. She probably knew all along she was being mean but was too proud to say two little words: "I'm sorry." That blog was the first step...
The true love of Michael Jackson's life was Diana Ross. Lisa was someone he really cared about but sadly he wasn't enough to free her and he wasn't about to get caught up with her leeches. He certainly had enough of his own.