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I will never come over the death of Michael :(

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It still hurts inside ... Im crying when I listen to songs like Heal the world or Man in the mirror .. When I see the memorial all over again .. I start to cry.

I have been a fan all my life , in the year 2000 I joined websites like MJNewsonline ..and have been online and have been checking for updates and news, pictures ever since.

He has always been a part of my life and I miss the new pictures thread, I miss the excitement of him coming back to the spotlight again .. I miss him out and about .. I miss everything, and most of all I miss Michael Jackson the person.

He has always put a smile upon my face in interview etc .. He have helped me in pain and in joy with his music ... there will always be a hole in my heart .. a hole of pain .. :(
 
i feel exactly the same........been a fan since thriller.....so since i was little and no one will ever fill that gap
 
Don't say you'll be like this for the rest of your life... I understand all your pain, I was like that and still am, but I'm better now.
Of course you'll never fully come over his passage, you'll have always a hole inside of you. But with time, you'll be better, just like me.

"Keep the faith, because it's just a matter of time..."
 
*hugs*
I know, it's so hard to understand :no: But..

Leia said:
Don't say you'll be like this for the rest of your life... I understand all your pain, I was like that and still am, but I'm better now.
Of course you'll never fully come over his passage, you'll have always a hole inside of you. But with time, you'll be better, just like me.

"Keep the faith, because it's just a matter of time..."
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Leia said:
Don't say you'll be like this for the rest of your life... I understand all your pain, I was like that and still am, but I'm better now.
Of course you'll never fully come over his passage, you'll have always a hole inside of you. But with time, you'll be better, just like me.

"Keep the faith, because it's just a matter of time..."
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true. and I wanna add a thing to that too, we're all going that way.
 
I don't think I ever will either. Though I did have though signs from Michael saying that he is alright now. And I know he would want me to stay strong and stuff. But it is just so for me I had loved Michael for over 25 years now. And I will be 30 in less than 4 months. He was such a huge part of my life ever since the late 80s when I had discovered Michael was just like me in away. I had finally found someone in my life who knows what it is like to have a skin disorder. And now I just feel so lost and empty without him now. Because I had lost the only person in my life that can understand what it is like to have a skin disorder. I never like talking about my skin disorder. Because no one around me can understand what it is like to have a skin disorder. Even my mother doesn't understand it. Which was why I was always so very thankful that I had Michael in my life. At least he knew what it was like to have something you have no control over. My skin disorder is Eczema.
 
cgrimberg said:
He has always been a part of my life and I miss the new pictures thread, I miss the excitement of him coming back to the spotlight again .. I miss him out and about .. I miss everything, and most of all I miss Michael Jackson the person.
He has always put a smile upon my face in interview etc .. He have helped me in pain and in joy with his music ... there will always be a hole in my heart .. a hole of pain .. :(
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I will never get over Michael's death, either. God! I miss him so much.
I used to be so strong. Now I feel weak.
 
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Leia said:
Don't say you'll be like this for the rest of your life... I understand all your pain, I was like that and still am, but I'm better now.
Of course you'll never fully come over his passage, you'll have always a hole inside of you. But with time, you'll be better, just like me.

"Keep the faith, because it's just a matter of time..."
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Agree that it will get better in time but I dont think u ever can come over someone u had admired, loved and who were and was an insperation in life. People say when they broke up with for example a girlfriend that it will get better in time .. well u dont think about it all the time but u will still feel the pain of emptiness inside your soul , and that´s exacly how I feel with the lost of Michael... it will get better ... I will not think about it all the time ... but I will always feel that something is missing in my heart..
 
cgrimberg said:
Agree that it will get better in time but I dont think u ever can come over someone u had admired, loved and who were and was an insperation in life. People say when they broke up with for example a girlfriend that it will get better in time .. well u dont think about it all the time but u will still feel the pain of emptiness inside your soul , and that´s exacly how I feel with the lost of Michael... it will get better ... I will not think about it all the time ... but I will always feel that something is missing in my heart..
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I didn't said we can fully come over his passage, I thought I was clear on my message...
All fans will have an empty space inside forever and it can't be field. But with time we'll get better and we won't think about Michael's death so much.

This is like a burning, it hurts very much in the beginning, but with time it doesn't hurt so much... But even with years and years we still have the scars... that will never disapear.
 
michael was something like rock in my life!
when i felt bad, when i had problems, troubles, when i was in pain,
i knew he was near...
i had force to struggle for him...

now it's like i'm all alone, on this huge world,
and i feel really so small and undefended without michael...

I know i will never be able to feel complete without him...
he was hlaf of my life, half of my heart, half of my soul,
and whole my world and whole my love...

so i do not expect that this pain will go ....

half of my life is now pain...
 
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I know just how you are all feeling. I don't think I'll get over Michael's passing, it's had such an effect on me. When someone like Michael is in your life for so long, like in my case, and many others, I don't think you can ever really get over it. You know, I was looking back into the archive section of the forum earlier, and was reading a thread about a birthday card everyone here signed, which was then sent to Michael. It broke my heart to think we'll never get to do that again. :cry:
 
*hugs* to all.

Sorry ot but Louise I love your siggy :heart:
 
Leia said:
I didn't said we can fully come over his passage, I thought I was clear on my message...
All fans will have an empty space inside forever and it can't be field. But with time we'll get better and we won't think about Michael's death so much.

This is like a burning, it hurts very much in the beginning, but with time it doesn't hurt so much... But even with years and years we still have the scars... that will never disapear.
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Totally agree with you now .. scars that will last forever .. : /
 
cgrimberg said:
It still hurts inside ... Im crying when I listen to songs like Heal the world or Man in the mirror .. When I see the memorial all over again .. I start to cry.

I have been a fan all my life , in the year 2000 I joined websites like MJNewsonline ..and have been online and have been checking for updates and news, pictures ever since.

He has always been a part of my life and I miss the new pictures thread, I miss the excitement of him coming back to the spotlight again .. I miss him out and about .. I miss everything, and most of all I miss Michael Jackson the person.

He has always put a smile upon my face in interview etc .. He have helped me in pain and in joy with his music ... there will always be a hole in my heart .. a hole of pain .. :(
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I just miss him sooooo much
Im losing it really bad.. my life is not the same without Michael.
I want him back!!!!! ahhhhhhhhh
oh lord please help us all :cry:
 
This forum has become so full of misery and desolation... so has my life. It's just horrendous and horrible and I thought 2009 was gonna be a great year, my last year of school, THIS IS IT, but now it's become a living nightmare. I can't take it anymore :(
 
vinniram said:
This forum has become so full of misery and desolation... so has my life. It's just horrendous and horrible and I thought 2009 was gonna be a great year, my last year of school, THIS IS IT, but now it's become a living nightmare. I can't take it anymore :(
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:(, I know how you feel but hang in there. It's up to us as his fans to help keep Michael's music and message about peace going.

But yes this has not been a good year at all. I thought 2009 was gonna be a great year for Michael and the fans, then the worst thing imaginable happened. I just don't understand it and I never will. But as MJ says in his songs with The Jacksons:

But I gotta keep living, I got a will to survive
Eventhough I feel so bad, so bad insiiiide

:hug:
 
cgrimberg said:
It still hurts inside ... Im crying when I listen to songs like Heal the world or Man in the mirror .. When I see the memorial all over again .. I start to cry.

I have been a fan all my life , in the year 2000 I joined websites like MJNewsonline ..and have been online and have been checking for updates and news, pictures ever since.

He has always been a part of my life and I miss the new pictures thread, I miss the excitement of him coming back to the spotlight again .. I miss him out and about .. I miss everything, and most of all I miss Michael Jackson the person.

He has always put a smile upon my face in interview etc .. He have helped me in pain and in joy with his music ... there will always be a hole in my heart .. a hole of pain .. :(
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I know :( :huggy: xxx I can't find the words now...a part of me has died :weeping:
 
cgrimberg said:
It still hurts inside ... Im crying when I listen to songs like Heal the world or Man in the mirror .. When I see the memorial all over again .. I start to cry.

I have been a fan all my life , in the year 2000 I joined websites like MJNewsonline ..and have been online and have been checking for updates and news, pictures ever since.

He has always been a part of my life and I miss the new pictures thread, I miss the excitement of him coming back to the spotlight again .. I miss him out and about .. I miss everything, and most of all I miss Michael Jackson the person.

He has always put a smile upon my face in interview etc .. He have helped me in pain and in joy with his music ... there will always be a hole in my heart .. a hole of pain .. :(
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We're all scarred by this one way or another. But it will become more bearable as time passes. Right now it all seems like a dark hole we’re in, but there is a light at the end of that tunnel. And the more you focus on that light, the brighter it will get. The scar will remain visible, but in time the power of the legacy Michael left behind will help you overcome your greatest sorrow. Michael sent us the message of love, of strength, the joy of life. It may seem far fetched for now, but in time you’ll find meaning in that message again. The road ahead we will walk together :yes: :better:
 
but I want HIM here, not his legacy or his music or his videos... compared to HIM, Michael Jackson the man, all his great works amount to nothing :(
 
But what else can we do? This is what Michael would want. I want him to live on forever in some way or form and what better way then his music? I do know how you're feeling though. I will never fully get over Michael's death EVER. I feel very hollow inside and I'm missing him so much. He's always on my mind and when I get up in the morning, I always have to pinch myself and ask if this is some kind of nightmare?

I think i'm coping by being in denial most of the time to be honest. These days when I read something that mentions his passing, I find myself denying it. In my head i'm always like "No he's not. Michael's not dead. These people must have the wrong Michael". I think my attitude is rather unhealthy, but sometimes I have to think like that or i'll start to get too upset and start crying again.

I believe in time we all will cope better, but the sadness will always be there, at least for me. I will continue to try and be strong, but I'll never get over his death completely. I don't mean to sound dramatic, especially since I didn't know MJ personally, but I really feel like a part of me died on June 25th. It really did. MJ and his music were such a big part of my life that i've just been in complete shock since then. This whole entire situation is a total nightmare.
 
vinniram said:
This forum has become so full of misery and desolation... so has my life. It's just horrendous and horrible and I thought 2009 was gonna be a great year, my last year of school, THIS IS IT, but now it's become a living nightmare. I can't take it anymore :(
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I agree its nothing like it used to be :cry:
why did this happen :cry:
 
I am petty much the same way as you guys are feeling. Ever since I had gotten up this morning all I've been doing is crying and missing Michael so very badly. I don't even like coming to my MJ forums because it always seems to be about This Is It reminders. And it just tends to make me feel all the more worst. And I was trying to do so good by staying strong for Michael. And now I am just feeling all the more worst now. I just hate hearing about the This Is It movie. Because it is just a way too painful reminder of what would have been. I am like really crying now just by thinking about it. I don't even like referring to This Is It as a movie. Because it shouldn't even be called that. None of this should be happening now. Michael should still be here with us. I just feel so totally lost and empty without Michael.
 
Cinnamon234 said:
But what else can we do? This is what Michael would want. I want him to live on forever in some way or form and what better way then his music? I do know how you're feeling though. I will never fully get over Michael's death EVER. I feel very hollow inside and I'm missing him so much. He's always on my mind and when I get up in the morning, I always have to pinch myself and ask if this is some kind of nightmare?


I believe in time we all will cope better, but the sadness will always be there, at least for me. I will continue to try and be strong, but I'll never get over his death completely. I don't mean to sound dramatic, especially since I didn't know MJ personally, but I really feel like a part of me died on June 25th. It really did. MJ and his music were such a big part of my life that i've just been in complete shock since then. This whole entire situation is a total nightmare.
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you are not dramatic at all :huggy: , I think we all feel like a part of us died that day :(

He was part of my life for so long...so there is an empty space in my heart now, it's so painful :cry:
 
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